I have not had the greatest start to the new year.. although it was my intent to have  a fresh start, I haven’t exactly made any progress. In fact, if you have read my blog, you know I resigned myself to just maintaining last semester because of my crazy schedule and the stress. I did make smart choices and maintained - even through Christmas. Now that my schedule is a little lighter, I am recommitting to losing, but I haven’t lost a single pound yet in 2008. 

I started back to Irish Dance after a month off and I can definitely tell my slacking off in December was not a good idea. I felt lethargic and had a hard time keeping up. I never want to go back to what I weighed and how I felt before, but sometimes my shoulder devil tries to tell me that losing 20 lbs is good enough. The h#$@ it is! I do feel great about my successes, but I’m not going to just say that being 25 lbs overweight is good enough because it’s less than I was before!  I feel like a rant .. but mainly at myself because I know I can do it. I have done it before.

Stupid things are stressing me out, like trying to finish up my M.Ed project so I can graduate in May, and preparing for a play I’m interpreting next week (I’ve never interpreted a play before) and staying on top of the 6 classes I am teaching and 3 classes I interpret this semester. I do love my life, but sometimes I just feel tired thinking about what I have to do, when I haven’t even started it yet Trying to lose weight in the middle of it all is just an added wrench and I struggle to figure out how to balance it all. I have no idea how you all do it when you’re this busy PLUS have children. Although I really want a family, I have no idea how I’d manage a child in addition to all this.