Today was a better day. I like feeling in control of what I eat. I know that ultimately I am always in control of what I put in my mouth, but it is so much easier to make the right food choices when I cook my own food and select from my pantry. It is hard for me to eat at a restaurant or family member’s house and stay OP (as evidenced by Wed and Sat. this week.)

Today at church I heard something that made me think and that I applied to weight loss. It was “Don’t give up what you want MOST for something you want NOW.” Obviously it was meant to have spiritual implications, but I think it is so true for health and weight loss, too. It has to do with always keeping your goals in sight and making choices consistent with your goals. My next short term goal is only 1.1lbs away and my 10% is only 5.5lbs after that! I can do this.

Here is my menu from today. I still have a few points that I’ll probably use on Frozen Yogurt or a creamie later tonight. I’m also going to play some DDR and get in my ab workout before bedtime.

I overspent my WP’s again. I’m not sure why I do this.

Yesterday I was at my long boring class all day and pizza was provided for lunch. Not just cheap pizza, but thick, cheesy, mile-high toppings PIE pizza. There were also cookies, chips and other not-good-for-me snacks. So, when I had 1 point left for dinner, of course I made a really sensible decision like EATING OUT AGAIN! I knew I didn’t have the points for it (not even flex, those were gone..) but I decided that is what I really wanted. I really want to lose weight and I know that eating that way and losing weight cannot co-exist. The sensible side of me says I’m sabotaging myself, but the emotional side says that it’s ok to splurge occasionally. AFter all, a few bad meals isn’t the reason I gained weight. It was the daily habit of eating that way that caused it.

So, for now, I am feeling netural about my choices this week. I know they were not consistently on plan, but each choice I made was conscious and cannot be blamed on anything other than wanting to eat and be lazy rather than healthy and active. Next week will be different.

Thanks to Roni for helping me with the table. I debated whether or not to post my menu, but seeing it in writing and knowing others can see what choices I made will hopefully motivate me to better choices.