Life in the Middle
30 04 2008So here we are in the middle of the week. Life in my world is kind of blah. I guess I am just complacent with the way things are going. I am eating on plan, and I have not strayed. I have worked too hard to stray, but I guess my motivation is slowly running out of patience. I mean, i don’t want to go to the clinic, in fact, I have not been since last week. I haven’t written in my diet sheet for about a week, and the nurses at the clinic are going to FREAK, but I will write in it, fill it up like a good girl. I know i have not cheated, but I just have no motivation to write on my diet sheet, go to the clinic, face the morning, wake up in the morning, go to my aquafit class, or anything.
On the plus side, this morning as I was getting water, a girl came up to me and was like WOW, you have lost a tonne of weight in the last little bit. You are doing amazing. It felt good, but still not good enough to get the motivation up.
Shopping this weekend was fun, but I am frustrated that I can’t quite fit into a Large at “regular” clothing stores, and an xl is a tad too big. I am frustrated that I look frumpy in everything, a lot less frumpy than before. I am frustrated that I have to spend some money on new clothes that I will grow out of, however the thought of buying bras at the VV boutique is not appealing to me in the least, and the thought of spending like $25/bra is not appealing to me either, because I know in a month I will have to get new one’s! Ugh.
A birthday coming up soon: 27. 27….old enough to know better, and not anymore young enough to care! I have to grow up. I don’t wanna.
And there we have it, a follow up. Someone reach out and pull me out of this abyss of complacency!
Hey, that’s for the positive comments on my blog…you are right, sometimes we need a little treat now in then that don’t involve food! With that being said, I can understand what you mean about being in between sizes. Everytime I go shopping, I hate to buy something that don’t fit just right. Plus, I plan on losing more weight so I don’t want to invest in something I will only wear a few times. I’m cheap, what can I say?!? LOL
I just wrote an entire page and it got deleted. So I will try to remain calm when writing this!!!!
All I wanted to say was to keep your chin up. You have done so great so far and you will continue to do great things in every aspect of your life, including your diet goals. You are stubborn and driven and you will succeed. I think that when “dieting” we not only hit a physical plateau, but also a mental plateau. More often than not, that would be when I would fall off the “wagon” however, I have yet to do that on this plan and same goes for you. We have remained true to ourselves, (even if we don’t go to the clinic 3 times a week) and to me, that says more for us. Because deep down, we know we can do it and continue to do it on our own. We are capable of so much more than we give ourselves credit for. After all is said and done, I know you will do well, you will get past these feelings and you will conquer this diet. You have a great support system ,including me ;), and I am always here to cheer you onward and downward (on the scale that is…lol)
There is nothing wrong with a little treat now and then. You are doing great. I know sometimes we tend to sabotage ourselves with our thoughts. It is normal. Do not let it get you down. We are all human. Remember, persistance, not perfection!
Let me know when you join the new community so we can keep up. I am already over there.