A little secret!

26 02 2008

So here is a little secret to some of the stuff I have been using.  I have found products that are AMAZING.  Let me know what you all think of then if you choose to try them.

 I have started to use the WALDEN FARMS stuff.  It is amazing.  Most of it is zero calories. 

Walden Farms dressings:  A GREAT addition to your salads.  (and because it is zero calories, for those who are doing the WW points, it is worth no points….almost a freebie.)   I have tried the Ranch (which was ok.) but my faves are the classico italian and also the asian.  Salad Dressings.

Coffee:  So I love coffee, but due to this new diet that I am on, I can only have 1 tbsp of milk in my coffee.  I was so sad until I found Marshmallow dip for my coffee.  Oh, how the thought of no coffee made me sad….but now I can.  I use it as a creamer and sweetner.  So Yummy!

Chocolate Lovers:  YOU WILL LOVE THIS PRODUCT!!! ZERO Calorie Chocolate Syrup!! No lies, it is truly amazing.  The only thing that I find with this syrup is that I am a big fan of dark chocolate, and this stuff is a bit on the sweet side.  Chocolate Syrup.

Feel free to search the site to find other products that you can use.  Most of the stuff is low carb or zero calories.  :)

Keep your stick on the ice.



I am so excited.

25 02 2008

So I decided not to the the WW thing.  For several reasons. 

However, I do have to say that I did join Dr. Berinstein’s clinic.  Basically it is medically supervised weight loss.  You go for urine tests three times a week….blood tests once a month, and vitamin B injections three times a week.  What does that mean?  Basically there is medical professionals looking out for your health and supervising your weight loss.

So I started the program two weeks ago, and I am happy to report that I am down 9.2 lbs!!! 9.2 lbs??  More than I have ever lost in my life.  I have been on a steady incline for more or less all my life.  So this is a huge victory….and I will continue going.

I also wanted to add a big THANK YOU for everyone’s inspiration.  You all are truly inspiring!  I can’t wait to share in your success with you. 



Biting the Bullet

20 02 2008

down 1.6…only about 60 more to go.



Inspired

16 02 2008

So today I feel inspired.  Reading everybody else’s blogs, I feel inspired to REALLY do this.  I sure hope it won’t be another LAME attempt.  We all have had LAME attempts, lets be real.  I have had several.  Really, I have never been bothered for longer than a week or two to get healthy, altho it is a constant struggle with my mind.   I think half of it has to do with the mind.  Once you conquer your own mind and the willingness to finally DO something about it, the rest is really easy.   I watch what I eat, I watch it disappear off my plate and into my stomach….which then leads to a pang of guilt that is then overcome with something sweet.  It’s cyclic really.

So like my blog title suggests, it’s about F’n time.  It’s about F’n time that I get inspired and overcome this really negative feedback loop cycle.   I guess I am going in the right direction, but I am really excited about the support that is available out there. 

So I am going to share something that I find has been working out really well for me in the last little bit.  I went to a naturopathic doctor who said that this has worked miracles on people because it unblocks their energy and helps the patient accept himself.  I have seen sessions where a person is completely cured of allergies, or fears in one or two sessions.  It is called EFT.  I spoke about it in my first post, and how it has helped.  The principle of EFT is that your body has energy flowing through it constantly.   In most cases the body has a blockage of the energy transfer.  What does that mean?  It means that the energy is not flowing through all the meridians in the body or that it is partially blocked.  So you may be wondering how you can unblock it?  Well it is fairly simple, however getting to the root causes is a little more work. 

So how it works!  There are 12 main points. (Taken from ancient acupuncture pressure points).  

  1. The top of your head (also your first Chakra, known as your crown Chakra)
  2. The inside of your eyebrow (also the second Chakra)
  3. The outside of your eyebrow (your temple)
  4. Under your nose (on top of your upper lip)
  5. Your chin
  6. Your collarbone
  7. The side of your breast (kind of inside your armpit)
  8. Your wrist
  9. Your thumb (right beside your thumbnail on the outside part of your hand, this goes for all the finger points)
  10. Your index finger
  11. Your middle finger
  12. Your pinky

You have to find your sore spot. (or some can use their Karate Chop Point on their hand…if you imagine doing Karate, it is the part that you would use when you say Hai YA and hit something, on the fleshy part of your hand under your pinky finger)  To find your sore spot (I find this more effective for myself) you make a line down the inside of your eye down to just below your collarbone.   When you rub it gently, it will feel slightly sore.   On this point and your Karate Chop point is where there is the abundance of energy in your body.  

Ok, so now we know the anatomy of energy.  How does it work?  It works similar to going to a doctor and telling him that your throat hurts, or that you have a back ache.  You have to find the negative blockage.  So we find an affirming statement.  This affirming statement is followed by accepting yourself and embracing yourself.  Even though I have this headache, I deeply and completely accept myself.   While you are saying your affirming statement, you will rub your Karate Chop Point or your Sore Spot.  Do this three of four times until you are comfortable saying it out loud.  The next part is easy, you tap all of the points that were mentioned above.  Start at your crown chakra and say it out loud, This Headache…continue this through all the energy points mentioned above.  What this does is opens up your meridians so that the energy will flow freely.  With your forefinger and your middle finger tap about seven times on each of these spots, repeating what ails you.  Say that there was an energy block at your temple, and you tapped it to make the energy flow from there to the rest of your energy points, by tapping it and affirming that you have a headache, and that the possibility of having it stored in anyone of your energy spots, you are essentially letting the energy in your body flow as it should.   After you are done tapping all of the spots, clear your mind by closing your eyes and rolling them once, and humming the first verse of happy birthday, or the alphabet or any song really.  Now access your headache on a scale of 1-10.  You will notice that the headache would have decreased if not completely disappeared.  If it hasen’t try it again, until it is gone.

So we now know how to get rid of a headache by doing EFT.  How does this relate on a greater level.  Well though our lives we carry about guilt, or burden our bodies with all kinds of things.  This leads to ailments such as obesity, migraines, allergies (ect).  So with the doctor, we worked on a few things.  He asked me very leading questions as to why I am obese.  These questions are perhaps questions that you can ask yourself?  When did you start being obese?  How did you feel when you felt fat?  What happened when you would turn to food?  Why did you turn to food?  From there it was evident that I had been living with this all my life, so he started asking me questions as to why?

For the first time, I am not afraid to put this out to the world, because it is not shameful, rather theraputic.  This has been through EFT, and I can’t wait to reap the benefits.  And even tho I am ashamed of my weight, I have a million other attributes to be proud of, and once I sort out the reasons as to my weight problems, everything will fall into its own place.

So here are my reasons 

  1. As a child, I never had the attention I sought, so I replaced that with food
  2. My father wanted a boy when I was born and I dealt with a great deal of emotional abuse (as well as physical) and I turned to food to make it better.  A full stomach took away the emotional or physical pain.
  3. I always lived with being not good enough, so I ate my way to be good enough for myself. 
  4. I eat when I am feeling down, or when I am feeling rejected.
  5. I have convinced myself that bieng a little overweight is not a problem, so long as I am not the fattest kid on the block.

So this is a good start.  And I will be conscious of these reasons, and I will tap for them.  Here are my affirmative phrases. 

Even though as a child I was never good enough for my parents I deeply and completely accept myself.  Even though as a child I never got the attention I deserved, I deeply and completely accept myself.  Even though I have never been the boy my parents wanted, I deeply and completely accept myself.  Even though I eat when I am upset, I deeply and completely accept myself.

What did that do for me?  Well in the two weeks that I have been exploring myself with EFT, I have dropped 10 lbs.  Really, I haven’t changed anything, so imagine that I do change my eating and excersising habits what amazing results will come out of it!!!!  I can’t wait, and this is what my friends, has prompted me to finally get a blog and start sharing my journey.

If you read this blog post, I have one ask from you.  Try EFT once, maybe on a headache, or a stomach ache…Try it once.  You don’t have to find CORE issues like I have just put out there for you.   You can try it on something as simple as a headache.  Please don’t knock it until you have tried it.  If you find the core issues….I hope to be able to say with a certain level of certainty that with the support available here, and WW points, the lbs will just shed themselves.  I have started to see results, and I am excited about where this is going to take me!  



It’s about F’n Time

14 02 2008

Hi,

So I tried blogging before, and I am really bad at it, this I know, but I want a place to keep a journal and share a journey that is forever life changing for me.   I also am looking for a place for some support.  We all need support and we all require that someone who will encourage you to do your best. 

 First off, I would like to start by saying that I am not proud of my weight.  It has finally gotten out of control.  Well I wouldn’t really say out of control but it has been a steady incline for a long time.  When I started out I have to note, I was a total of 225 lbs.  I have made it down to 215.  That is 10 lbs already, but my goal for now is a healthy weight of 155 or 150.   With that comes a whole new life….well something that I have wanted to do for a long time.  When I meet my actual goal I will move finally, to Montreal. 

So a little about myself.  I have been overweight all my life.  All through school I was the big girl, all through my life, I have known nothing than to be fat!  Yes, the ugly F word.  So that is to say for 26 years of my life I have been fat.  I have never known what it is like to be skinny, or even healty.   Mind you, it has been up and down, mostly up, and I can finally say I am sick of it.   I live in Vancouver, where on every street corner, there is a jogger, or a cyclist.  It kind of makes me sick at how they are EVERYWHERE!!!  The health nuts even have their own store.  Capers.  Recently I have started shopping there.  More on Capers to come later.   I moved to Vancouver two years ago, so search for “The One Who Got Away”.  We were dating a long time ago, and I knew that he was in this city…so in prospects of finding him (that is the REAL reason), I moved to Vancouver.  What I also accomplished in that time is my MBA.  I now have a Masters Degree to accompany my BSc.  Yes, school has been a huge part of my life.   Once I moved to Vancouver, I fell in love….and I fell pretty hard.  I never thought that I would be able to love again, and there he was, just standing in the corner, holding his beer…looking all cool.  It wasn’t love at first sight for sure.  But when I got to know what an amazing man he is, I fell in love within about 5 minutes of talking to him.  Well, here we are a year later, and he is still the love of my life, and I fall in love with him every day a little more.   What preceeds that is my serial dating days where I dated my yoga instructor, and American Army man,  an actor, an artist, a musician, and well there was a lot of serial dating.   Now the love of my life lives in Montreal and I want to move out there, so we can have our happily ever after.   Yeah, I know I deserve a Happy Ever After….so finally I am going to take the plunge and get it. 

Ok, so I am not going to blog about everything I eat.  I respect everyone who does that, as it takes a lot of courage to do that, but I mean let’s be honest, if you cheat, will you really put it up there for the world to see?  Well there might be some who will put it up there, but I don’t trust myself enough to do that just quite yet.  Altho, I am loving what I am reading about everyone’s journey on this site…I don’t think I have it in me to blog the every morsel of what I put into my mouth.   Having said that I still have a lot of respect for those who are out there doing that.   Plus, it is nice to see that they are human too and can slip up.  I guess what I am trying to say is I want to share my journey with the world.  I want to share the growth that I am going through and a transformation of body and mind.  My soul…well, I think that will grow with this journey….

I have a lot of faith in myself….and I want to grow.  I want to experience the world from the point of view of a healthy person.   There are many reasons why this is so important to me.  The first is that Diabetes runs in my family.  It is rampant on both sides.  Also, just recently I was diagnosed with Lymphoma.  I have been doing Chemo treatments, however the weight is not coming off as I would have hoped even with the terrible side affects of Chemo.  Why?  It is because I am an emotional eater.  I eat when I am feeling blue, I eat when I am happy, I eat because I feel unsatisfied with my situation, I eat whenever I can.  So that has stopped recently…but I know on a very subconscious level, it is just will power that has stopped it.  I need this to stop in my subconscious….so how to do that?  I am not really sure how to reprogram my brain that has been programmed the same way for all my life.   Any ideas?

Here is another thing I have started, and for anyone that is interested in trying this, it is AMAZING.  I have noticed that some symptoms from the Chemo treatments have digressed immensely.  Primarily the nausea, and the sores in my mouth.  It is called EFT.  Emotional Transfer Freedom.  http://www.emofree.com/  Try it out for yourself.  I have bought the videos and it is every bit worth that investment.  It is really fantastic  I am going to continue using EFT through my journey but I am going to concentrate on looking for the deeper causes of my ridiculous weight problem!

I say it is ridiculous because it is.  I feel like I have been fighting my weight all my life.  I think because I felt like I was fighting it, in my early twenties I had resigned to accepting that being Fat was a way of life.  It is not.  I look around and see overweight people all over, so I figure if it is ok for them, it is certainly ok for me.  I guess in trying to convince myself that it was ok, I became very accepting of it.  How do you become accepting of being unhealthily overweight?  I am not sure, but I sure worked a number on myself. 

Well I guess this is a good start.   I look forward to posting more on my journey, and I certainly look forward to sharing my successes with anyone is following along!

Keep your stick on the ice.

N