Woo Hoo i got on the scale this morning and i was down three pounds. that puts me at 163 and boy do i feel good about it right now. Ok now that i am done with my happy dance i hope you all had a wonderful weekend, mine was just blah….. But i am getting excited about christmas just being right around the corner and i have started alittle christmas shopping. I did have to do some shopping for myself this weekend as i started to pull my winter clothes out nothing fit and then i was like did i even buy any clothes last year because i have nothing well then i started to remenber that no i did not buy any clothes because i could not find anything to fit everything i tryed on was too small and i was not giving in to a bigger size. I tried on some old blue jeans that fit perfect last year and now they are way to big for me. I started to have a breakdown over all of this not in a bad way but in a im free of the fat way. The bf walked in and about had a cow because 1. i was in my bra and panties on the floor crying with clothes spread out every where and he thought that something was really wrong like some one had died.
It just felt so good to let go of all the emotions that were built up inside of me on the way i felt about myself which i felt like i was a beached whale and the way i looked at myself which was i did not deserve anyone and no one wanted someone who looked like i did. I am not saying by any means am i a skinny girl but i lost a small child of fat and i guess i did not realize exactly how much until i tryed on the old clothes. I am by no means ready for a bathing suit but today just feels good i feel refreshed and renewed :)
Why is it that we let these issues take over us and the was we feel? Ok enought of my issues.
Today
Breakfast - Special K
Lunch - Lean Cusine Panini
cup of raspberry jello with pinannple
an apple
snack - two low fat graham crackers
1 100 calorie brownie
Supper - ??