Not just any girl

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I ate candy and a cookie unplanned today. 7 whole unplanned points. AY-YI-Ya….

This post is mainly about self reflection. I still look in the mirror and see the 5′ 3″ 225 lb woman standing there. Even 60 pounds later. It goes beyond the mirror though. For example:

The other day I was at the mall. I stopped infront of a cute clothing store and saw the recent addition of a plus size section. Inwardly I was excited! I said to myself WOW I can shop here now! I was looking at a size 20 thinking that would be cute! I told my husband I was going to go try it on and he said… “Sure, If you can find it in your new size.”
I had to stop and say oh yeah I dont wear a 20 anymore. I wear a 12. And I can shop here without the plus section.

What do you have to do to change the way you look at the world? Not only food, but people, and clothes, and activity. If someone suggests a sport I always think… Oh I cant do that there is probably a weight restriction.

Or I see a blog or WW post and see someones stats and see 170lbs or 165 lbs and I’m like oh look at them they are almost there! I get excited for them but keep that mindset like I have so far to go still.

My scale today said 163.6. 62.2 lbs less than when i started. Almost to my goal of 140-145. When will my mind catch up with my body? SHould I go see someone or will it just take time? Does anyone else have this problem or am I on my own little island?

“What we imagine is order is merely the prevailing form of chaos.” ~ Kerry Thornley

My pedometer keeps resetting itself. How annoying!! So I have no idea how many steps per day I am walking. I need to find the receipt and take it back.

Also, my husband had minor surgery Tuesday so I have been MIA the last 2 days. Exercise has been hard to fit in as well. But I am eating OP, and the daily weigh ins are still positive. Just when you think everything is in order and in control life throws you little curves.

Nothing we can’t handle right??

I am totally psyched! I lost 4.4 pounds this past week! Which brings my total to 60.4lbs lost. WOOHOO!

I went into the weekend with all of my flexies and 22ap’s earned already. I think that totally helped and I am going to try to do just that going forward.

I went out with friends Saturday and stayed out till 5am! Whew it was a long night and I drank 15 points in alcohol alone. I hadn’t been out so late in years. It was fun but I wont be doing that again. I need my beauty sleep With every lite beer i drank i drank 20 oz of water. No hangover for me on Sunday!

plus… I would think all that running to and from the bathroom all night had to be some ap’s?? lol

di·et Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[dahy-it]

–noun
1. food and drink considered in terms of its qualities, composition, and its effects on health: Milk is a wholesome article of diet.
2. a particular selection of food, esp. as designed or prescribed to improve a person’s physical condition or to prevent or treat a disease: a diet low in sugar.
3. such a selection or a limitation on the amount a person eats for reducing weight: No pie for me, I’m on a diet.

–verb
7. to regulate the food of, esp. in order to improve the physical condition.
8. to feed.
9. to select or limit the food one eats to improve one’s physical condition or to lose weight: I’ve dieted all month and lost only one pound.
10. to eat or feed according to the requirements of a diet.

–adjective
11. suitable for consumption with a weight-reduction diet; dietetic: diet soft drinks.

I particularly liked what one successful dieter described as the Four D’s of Success: “Dedication, Determination, DIscipline and Disappointment” She included disappointment because, as she said, “it’s something you have to prepare yourself for.” Amen.

When she is tempted, she repeats The Four D’s of Success like ” a mantra.”

OK, repeat after me… Dedication. Determination. Discipline (and when it is beyond our control,) Disappointment.

Me, I’m gonna aim for 3D’s, but be prepared for 4D’s.

You??

Disclaimer: Yes I know we should not look at this jouney like its a diet… its a lifestlye change… but for the sake of convenience I am calling it a diet. Because going into this thats what we all had in mind and what we are doing is the true definition of a diet. The difference is that this isnt a “fad” diet or “crash” diet. I am not consuming only cabbage soup, thank you!

So I weighed in today at 169.8. Not exactly what I was hoping for. Although why do I hope for something I honestly didn’t earn? Is it me fooling myself to fat again? To get a big loss you have to work for it. When you sneak that bite in your mouth when your family isnt looking who are you really cheating?

Weekends are tough for me. Its like a plane in the air with no flight plan. Too much time on my hands, too many options. During the week I eat what I bring. There is no other choice. I need to look at home life the same way. Eating what is planned and what is right is the ONLY choice.

Which brings me to tonights dinner. Sticking to the plan I will have about 13 points to eat. I have some beef cubes thawed for a stew and I have some boneless pork chops thawed. I need to go searching through the boards or roni’s page and figure out what I will be cooking.

TTFN.

Note to self:
Seeing as how tomorrow is the fist day of February and we will be one step closer to spring I wanted to bring this to your attention:

We are living in 2008. 2007 is long gone. Go ahead embrace it, leave 07 behind. 08 is our year for looking great and losing weight.

Now STOP posting 07 at the end of each of your daily menu posts. Thanks

Now… I just reread my last entry and wow can we say melodramatic anyone?? What was my problem that day?? I’m over it.

Today has been a good eating day. I am impressed that its shaping into that kind of day because today i am high stressed. My husbands work SUCKS. But that is for a seperate entry on another day. In my mood I will definately slander them if I post it today.

“It was a hug that said you’re not alone. It was a hug that, just when I thought all my strength was used up, and I couldn’t go on, renewed me.”
~ Ann W. Compton ~

Have you ever had this feeling? You could be surrounded by people all the time, you know you are loved, and love back, Yet you just need to be held?

Even the strongest people I know, must feel this sometimes. I know I am not alone here. Maybe some have never asked for, or even thought of asking for this…

Sometimes I just need someone to hold me
To ease a hurt thats beyond understanding. I dont feel it is too much to ask
Because I have been there to be that someone to many people

I have kept my chin up for a while now
waited out the rain and storms
I am tired

So when I say I need this now
To be held
I truly mean it

I have successfully converted my family from ground beef to turkey. I started slowly every once in a while. They noticed the difference most of the time but didnt complain. Now I use ground turkey instead of beef every time and they actually eat it Score one for mommy!