The Sugar Bowl

Well I lost 3 lbs this week, I am so a happy to annouce that now I am technically just “Overweight” according to my BMI of 29.7 (obese is over 29.9 so ya its close) so I am so happy. Also now I am aiming for my next goal of 164lbs, but I have a feeling I may not stop there, but we’ll see how 164 feels.

My tracking was dead on this week, everything got tracked but I kept my points at 29, when they should be 27, but I won’t lower my points yet, soon though I guess, maybe when I get a plateau. I barely touched my weekly points, I think I used 6 out of the 35.

Here is my issue with points, I believe it was the blog “I am a size 6 again” that mentioned tracking daily calories may be more effective in weight loss as the body will tend not to go into starvation mode, well if thats true then I should be eating between 1500 and 1800 calories a day based on current weight/height. Right now if I eat 27 pts a day thats just about 1350 calories, I do not feel that is enough, so I am sticking with 29 (about 1450 calories) untill I plateau, which for all I know may be soon. If this is all true then Roni could eat 31 points a day based on her current weight and still lose fat if she wants, I wonder really if she is eating enough… It may be worth looking into.

On another note though, WW points system to me anyway is much easier to track then each and every calorie, I did that once before with a diet software called Diet Power, and I lost weigh nicely, however WW meetings and materials can be that extra motivation for people. Especially people like me who just did not want to do it “alone” this time.

Anyway I hope everyone has a great week on program, I’ll be tracking with painstaking acurracy to I can save WP for nice treats, I think that may be my best strategy, I will not overeat this holiday season, this I swear here and now!

Well after 12 weeks on program I am officially posting my first gain of .6. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but I am bit bummed about it. I know exactly what happened, sloppy tracking, birthday cake 4 weeks straight, fight with spouse it adds up!

So anyway on a happy note i did get my 10% key chain thingy!!! That is so cool, my new goal to get lifetime is 164 lbs! I am so going for it. Now my Daily points are going to be 27, so thats still ok. Wish me luck all!

Ok this is the first week I think I may actually post a gain since starting all this 12 weeks ago, this week has been so over the top stressful (although I know it could be a lot worse, so for that I am grateful) and my tracking (and sometimes lack there of) has been sloppy and I have no idea where I am at.

I thought on Friday that the week was a right off so I might as well pig out this weekend… I am happy to annouce that that did NOT happen, but I am still worried about WI and forget about exercise-it wasn’t happening. I don’t want to bore anyone with details, as it wasn’t life or death stress, just day to day stress-and it catches up with me every so often.

Tomorrow is my WI, I hope I do ok, I hope I get my 10% key chain as I never recieved it last week.

Ah well, I should be ok next week, life gets a little bit more sane, except I still have Christmas to prepare for, but I can deal with that.. I think.

I WI yesterday to find I reached my 10% goal. I did not go at my regular time and the receptionist who weighed me I have never met before. Well anyway all I can say is it was just a hoo-hum experience.

I would have gone in at my regular time, and I would have had a nicer experience, and I would have consulted my Leader as to what happens now. Life just gets too crazy sometimes. So I’ll keep on going untill next week.

Hope everyone has an awesome WI.

WI went fairly well this morning, I’m down 1.4-only .6 to go to reach 10% mark, so looking forward to it! SO now I am offially in Onederland!! And hopefully to stay.

Now I had to wear these pants that are still too small, so I have huge Muffin Top issues, I will be glad to be rid of it, I do realize I may always have a slight muffin top, a mini muffin top… ok a Costco Jumbo Muffin Top… not ok!

So my newish goal… reduce the muffin top.

Well in a tribute to my American Cousins (a.k.a American blog friends) I made a big fat chicken dinner w/ dressing, gravy, rice, veg and pickled beets. I figured I might as well get festive as Christmas is around the corner. So needless to say the last two days I have needed those weekly points just to get through the days.

Also I have had birthday cake in my house for over two WEEKS now, talk about killer temptation. It all started when my daughter was supposed to have a party after school last Thursday at the church next door to her school.

Well I baked the nice Chocolate-full-fat-everything-birthday cake, and then school was cancelled (over flowing toilet issues)! SO party was postponed to this thursday. All weekend that cake stalked me. I was carefull not to eat all my WP in cake, but I did have to use some, and it showed at weigh in. Then I baked another cake this time Lemon-full-fat-everything cake, and we had a snow storm and school is cancelled-again! SO party is post poned untill next week.

Needless to say the lemon cake is stalking me now too. I’m doing ok, eating only about 6 pts worth yesterday and today (I have 29 daily points) so again two days in a row I have dipped into my WP stash. I’ve gone for a few weeks without having to dip into my WP so this is a big of an ego blow, ah well thats what they are there for.

Heres the kicker, the chocolate cake was really tastey, the Lemon is just a hoo-hum. Seriously though, it dawned on me today, that I could still easily, happily eat half the 9×13 slab in three sitting throughout the day, even though it’s not that great of a cake! I was actually looking at this cake today, staring at it, talking to it, longing for it… I was actually thinking how I would have no difficulty eating you right now, falling deep into a drug/food induced coma (foodbeing my drug of choice) and then wake up and do it all over again.

Now was I even close to actually doing that-happy to say that I was not. WHat bothers me is that I even entertain the thoughts, which shows me I am still in recovery and still mourning the loss my dear friend… food/sugar. The trouble with the food/sugar addiction is that I do need actual real food to live, unlike alcohol or other substances, so its a dammed if I do (eat everything in sight) dammed if I don’t (eat anything at all) senerio. I know a lot of you have experience these growing pains, and thats why I’m pouring this all out, just becasue I know at least on here I am not alone on the program, and going to one WW meeting is not enough at this stage.

So thanks for reading this, and hope everyone is doing ok with the food.

I am starting to feel a lot better about myself, my confidence is on the rise, my health is improving, and my looks are improving aswell. I am happy with my progress so far, my husband is really proud and supportive so thats a NSV in itself.

I have 5 pairs of pants just calling my name! Sizes 15-16 just waiting for me to slip them on, I can barely wait! Having 1 pair of barely presentable jeans has been getting me by, but since I can’t find the only belt I own (I guess I have other issues) they keep falling OFF! I tried these pants on yesterday, so happy to say that I was actually able to pull them up over my hips and rear (unable to do so a couple of months ago), however actually doing them up is another 10lbs away, I imagine.

Also I actually did all of Winsor Pilates beginner 20min workout yesterday, I am a little tender and sore in spots, so I must have worked my body a bit, so thats great. Why oh why do they make it look so effortless??? Why oh why can’t those pilates people make a groan or weird expression now and then, I mean seriously!!

Anyway, I guess I will try doing it again tomorrow, I was so sloppy, stopped and started, grunted and groaned, so I am going to try and keep improving.

Then I will be at my 10% goal and under 200 lbs… man I haven’t seen Onderland in a long time (that has actually stuck around that is… see last post), it seems like a dream. I am so looking forward to reaching this goal, and looking forward to the next step in the WW program. I really want to stay focused, get in my activity and hopefully in 2 weeks I will be at that goal, 1 week longer then I had wanted, but I am cool with that.

Happy WI’s to everyone this week, may we all see a loss.

I weigh myself everyday, I have seen Onederland a couple of times over the last week, then I saw 200, I was sure to see higher this morning, as yesterday was a food frenzy over here with birthday food everywhere. I saw 200 hundred again this morning and was so happy it wasn’t any higher. SO I think I am going to be ok.

Today is detox for WI and meeting tomorrow, so I guess I am off to drink some water (in a wine glass of corse) and will aim for eatting all my points. I love having those FP though as they have saved me this week.

Be back tomorrow after WI.

I have had an insane week, with cupcakes, birthdaycake and lemon loafs everywhere its like a bad dream that I can’t wake up from. Should I just give in a binge, get it over with, or hold strong?

Usually I can handle really rude people, well with TOM and chocolate in every direction, I had a melt down and bawled for like 20min. I was supposed to voleenteer today at My daughters school, its a long story, but basically the Volunteer Coordinator was so rude to me, I just cracked. I mean this is a Christian School, our first year in it, how am I supposed to know how everything works??? Yes I am still hurt, but I’ll get over it.

So I guess I hold strong and not eat the crap. Oh how I miss binge eatting sometimes.