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It was such a good feeling to weigh in after feeling like I had a successful week and see the success on the scale…..

It has been a crazy busy day….but I wanted to check in today…I may not post over the weekend, not sure yet…

But wanted to look at my goals for the week

* one soda a day….did it!!

* more water…did it!!

*count points..I DID IT ( I am feeling like Dora here:)

ANyway…..Where I am now puts me at the point I was at right around Thanksgiving…..so I am back on track…..

Gotta run and get some work done…just wanted topost

Oh yeah..that was another goal..post every day…did it!!

Jen

While the baby slept this morning, I took my older daughter out to play in the snow–I alwyas feel kind of bad she can’t get out to play as much as I would like in the winter since it is tough for me to watch the 2 1/2 year old and hold/keep baby warm….baeutiful snowy mornig…warm…..we made a snowman and pulled her around the yard in the saucer.  A few things crossed my mind…first, making a snowman is hard work–at first I was doing it half heartedly b/c I was getting tired, than I realized–it isn’t fair to not let her have a great experience b/c mom is getting tired crawling through the snow and  squatting down…so I dug inwith her….and let me tell you it was a workout–and I pulled her around hte yard–we have no hills so I was trying to fast to make it fun for her….running around in snow in boots….another workout…..we weren’t out for very long–remember she is only 2:)—-but it made me realize how much I want ot be healty and have the energy to do fun things adn not try to get out of things b/c I would rather be on the couch……

Makes me think about Roni’s question why do I want to lose weight…I haev read what others wrote and to be honest…I am likeyes, me too on most.

I want to wear clothes that are cute and flattering and I am not self conscious in…..I wnat my daughters to grow up knowing their mom is confident in her body and not always self conscous…….I want to see my kids seeeing my make good choices….I wnat to be healthy..I want to be strong and really……I want to control my life….not my weight or food or fear…..

Anywya…it has been a good morning so far…and a good week.

My husband ended up working late last ngiht so I coudln’t go workout with my neightbor when we had planned, but I still went once the kids were in bed and hubby was home….I put on my wporkout clothes well before I could go so I didn’t have that excuse (why changing clothes seems like such a big chore at times I am not sure)—i just went and did elyptical for 25 mintues, but I was proud I did something and on my own.  My husband has offered to get my an MP3 player so many times over the years for b-day and chirstmas and what not….and I have alwyas been like no I don’t need one, won’t use it….but i todl her I wanted him and he should get it for me for Valentine’s Day–his response was–are we getitng presents this year? I told him if he didn’t get it for me I was goingt o go and buy it myself…so he might as well:) (this was all done in a fun way not a bossy way:)–so I am pumped ot be able to choose my favorite music adn go and workout with them!

Alright…better run..

Here is to another good day.

Jen

Today so far is turning out to be a day of good foro choices and I am feeling stronger each day knwoing I can do this. At times when the kids are getting cranky and things don’t go as planned, that is when I want to binge and pig out…..today, things didn’t go as planned and it was ok…….

We ended up having to run and get hubby who had a flat tire and drive him to work….so I drove through McD’s b/c everyone know they haev the best diet coke–now this is temptation for me…I LOVE Egg McMuffins…I know they are 6.5 points, but it wasn’t hte points today, I wanted to show I had the will power to say no and make healtheir choices—so I ate my special K bar that was in my bag, got my DC and was happy as can be….:) 

Anyway..have yummy pork in crockpot for dinner…..

I have been weighting and measuring things…wow, it really shows that at times I don’t know how much I am really eating……..good lesson…I think I want to invest in a digital scale…..

I plan to workout again tonight…..

Made it to the gym with my neighbor..she is so motivating to me!! I did elyptical for 35 min…..felt good….it has been a week since i haev been there and I could tell….

I ate well for dinner and have enough points for a snack..my belly is rattling in there a bit…I am hungry…I am going to go and decide what I will enjoy this evening as I watch The biggest loser!!

Jen

I had a good day yesterday…I showed myself that I do have control and the ability to say no to temptations and to make good choices.

Today, things are on track and I am thinking ahead..went to the store and bought some great choices..and had my 1 soda of the day!!

I actually felt hungry this morning….some folks may think that is a funny statement. But often I eat so much and so constantly that I never feel hungry….and at times always feel full……I was hungry adn thought…hmm….how about a great lowfat yogurt!

I have a ton of work to get to while the girls are napping, but wanted to be SURE I got my post in today.

I plan to work out tongiht iwth my neighbor!!

Jen

WEll…here I am, again…I have been away from the blogging for awhile and now I am back.  I haven’t lost control and actually the last couple of weeks have been tracking my points better than before.  But…last Friday night was a low point. I was so excited about a girls night out.  I seriously tried on 6000 tops and couldn’t find one I was happy with—it was too tight or too short or made my boobs look too big –you know the feeling….anyway…all I wanted to do was sit in my closet and cry, but I was running late and so I picked a shirt I knew was big and baggy threw it on with some fnacy dancy earring to take away from the shirt and away I went….the night was fun, but I was in a low mood when I left the house……

I need to take charge. I have finally weaned my daughter after 7 and 1/2 months of nursing–it has been 4 days now and my boobs are still sore and large, I knwo they will go down some…but truely, I have been pregnant or nursing 32 of the last 36 months of my life.  When those 36 months started I was about 35lbs lighted than I am now and wow, was my belly and middle a lot less flabby…..

Like I said I need to take charge….I need to stop making excuses and the truth is I need to stop eating crap and stop eating too much. I can make excuses til I am blue in the face but the reality is….I eat too much….there, let me say it again, I eat too much…and I am not eating too much of carrots and strawberries:)….enough.

I don’t want to have another moment like Friday night where I just feel so bad about the way I look…and as my daughters get older, I don’t want them to see me feeling that way….

My short term goals for this week are:

*OP

*Blog everyday…even if I don’t write what I ate every day–blog!!

*80+ oz of water

*1 diet soda a day (this is a toughie for me!!)

I think those will be challenge enough for me right now…..:) There are many other things I need to haev as goals and work on..but I will start with those and see how I do by my WI on Friday.

Maybe I will check in later today…otherwise til tomorrow…I will WRITE TOMORROW!!

I am off to drink some water….

JEn

I am still hanging around and reading and doing a mediocre job of eating these days…but Roni’s contest for the scale has me inspired to post!!

to be honest, I am not even sure how to create the link I am supposed to create….hmmm…..

Check out Roni’s new contest! I can win a Nutrition Smart Scale from Eat Smart and so can you! Click here for details!

I’ll see how I did and check back…

Jen

I tested Roni’s new food generator and it was so easy….now I need to use it!!!

Anyway…..gotta run and get some work done….but I am excited about the box!!

Ok, it is a loss, I would have liked mroe but I will take it:)

I did get some great workouts this week….my goal is to work out 1 time over the weekend—seems like it should be easier on the weekend, but that unstructured time gets tough for me..:)  And I am always catching up on my work on the weekend…..but, I did find that I was more motivated to stay on top of some work this week after i did work out……

Other than that..not too much new to report…..my 2 yr old is sick so I am feeling alittle trapped in the house….:)

Have a good weekend.