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My family was in town and it was a great weekend.  So nice to have grandma and grandpa around….it was great. Unfortuatnely, on the eating front..not so great….I need to get it in check today…I have been eating non stop all day today…seriously, not unhealthy thing, but do I really need to eat a can of refried beans after eating a salad for lunch after eating a sandwich for my 1st lunch………ok, I did have a handful of baked cheetos between my lunches too……

Anyway…..I think I need to start posting what I eat adn my points….i am going to do it tomorrow and see how it goes….

I bought them this week and as i paid for them all i could think about was the posts from Roni’s website earlier.

I have eaten them and had no ill affects and found them quite yummy.

Down 1.4. So I am back to where I was 3 weeks ago..that is so frustrating, but I guess good at the same time…I could have let myself continue to go up.  I am really trying to work out a bit more. I need to eat better…..

My mind is feeling random right now and I just read Roni’s post from earlier about mom guilt…if I knew how to do a cool link i would..:)  People are so opinionated about this subject…..I think that is b/c being a mom is such a challenge in so many ways and you love those little munchkins with everything in you, yet, they are so hard…..I remember people telling me being a parent was going to be tough and I was like yeah whatvee…I love being a mom, but the challenging part for me is still letting go of some things that I want just for me….now, I am not talking about at trip to the gym, I am talking about that I would haev loved to take a week long canoe vacation this summer, but at this stage in life a toddler and a baby don’t make great canoe companions…so we didn’t do that…we do other fun stuff instead….at times I feel sad that I am missing some things I used to love so much–and I know I will do again when the girls are older–but, my life has been so blessed and transformed by them that they are worth it….ok, where am I going with this…mommy guilt…..

Now…I have totaly lost my train of thought…..mommy guilt for me has been an excuse…I am talking about for me…..that I need to spend time with my kids (obviously I do)but that was a great excuse not to excercise….so, I am finally realizing that I need to be happy and helathy and quitmaking excuses for myself…..there are so many different seasons of life though….I have just been a SAHM mom for 4 months now and every post I read on Roni’s website I could see where tehy are coming from….and it really depends on eveyrone individual and where they are at in life….honestly, if I had to be gone every day right now awy from my 4 month old it would be hard to be away more….it seems to have gotten easier for me as my older daughter has gotten older and as Roni said as they get older they can be more involved..so there are so many sides and thoughts…adn i don’t hink there is a right answer.  For me..I need to not have excuses though..b/c I am realiuzing when I get to exercise I am happier adn that makes me a better mom and I am really noticing lately, a better wife…I think my husband bears the brunt of some frustrations adn it is better that the elyptical machine does it!!

Ok..I have rambled enough…….here is to getting some exercise in today for me…no excuses…….

My daughter’s b-day party was very nice yesterday, mostly family and family friends….our first party we have thrown since moving to Idaho..so it was nice and she was good…a little overwhelmed at moments…but enjoying her new toys.

I tried really hard to eat well and made some healthier options….and ate those leftovers today…but of course had a cupcake with all the frosting and a bunch of chips…but, all in all, it could have been worse. And..we went for a long walk this morning since it is gorgeous outside today!

In-laws leave today and then next week my family comes…I am way excited for them to come..when my mom is here, I feel like I can genually get a break from being mom….and from the kitchen….and she honestly doens’t care how clean my house is!!

Anyway..so my goal is to continue eating well this week so once my paretns get here, I am motivated by a great week….

I hadn’t seen my sister-in-law in 2 months and she said she noticed I haev lost weight…..even though it is only 12 (I mean not only…I am proud of it) I was so happy she commented on it!

Anwyay…better run…lots to do…

PS–I am hitting the gym again with my neighbor tonight!!

Hubby and I got a date tonight b.c sister in law is in town..yeah. It  was fairly uneventful, but went to a pub downtown, got a nice sandwich and a salad, yummy but not overdoing it….a large yummy oktobery beer……and I just happen to step on the scale when I got home…how in heck can I weigh less now than when I woke up this moring….serioously…weird stuff!!  Not that I am complaiaing…just another example of how that scale can be so crazy.

Anyway…off to bed…just a weird question….

Good Night:)

Good morning. I was down 1 pound today.  I am ok with that, I guess, but disappointed, on Tuesday when I stepped on the scale, it was lower than that….I am trying to analyze why this morning, it is higher (water weight, i haven’t nursed yet, beer last ngiht….) the reality is though, i need to accept it and move it adn hope that all the water weight adn stuff like that will balance out and maybe next week I will have a larger number…….

Anyway, We have family in town this weekend, daughter’s 2nd b-day party adn so I am planning on some healthy optopns to help myself.

I did get in a workout last night and it was good.  I am realizing how I truely do feel better when I am geting some exercise.

On the business front, I am so overwhelmed, I am realizing how badly I need to get our home office organized to be able to keep organized and better use our time and hlep my very overwhelmed husband….the tough part is finding the time with the 2 kiddos all day….I just need to suck it up and do it…I am avoiding it b/c I hate office and orgaizng stuff……my neighbor has offered to help me and I think I need to accept the help and also maybe try to enlist a little babysitting help to free up some time…..we shall see, it is one of those thinsg that will take time and be a process but I want it done now…hmm, kind of like my weightloss…..there are moments when I feel like all aspects of my life are out of control, my house, office and weight….but I just need to stay in checka nd keep working on the process……

Here is to a good weeekdn…..

So, last night I did go to workout with my neighbor, the gym (it is quite small at our little neighborhood center) was pretty full and so we decided to walk..it was great….it was ncie to walk quickly and to chat. Turns out she is doing WW and we had some really motivating conversations……so, I had a good workout last ngiht and thus I have eaten well today…..we plan to workout again tomorrow night.

Not to much else to write…I have a TON of work to do and am a bit overwhwlemd at getting the house ready for dd birthday party Saturday and family staying……I laugh that I think oh I will clean this room whiel the girls are awake…who am I kidding? Anyway…..better run…..

Tuesday morning and I stepped on the scale just b/c–not WI or anything….it was a great number–down over 2 lbs from Friday. I don’t think I have done anything amazing since then, must be water weight or those beverages I drank the night before my WI–anyway…some great motivation for me to keep going strong before my WI on Friday.

My workout partner bailed last night, but I was ok with that, my daughter;s b-day party is this weekend and I really needed to run a couple errands…but we are going TONIGHT. I am going with or without her!!!

Here is to making it to the gym tonight!

I got on today and started reading and visitng sights, then I remembered a goal I made last week to write my blog before I read others….so, here I am.  It was an ok weekend.  I did ok eating wise. The weather was awesome, we went on a nice walk/hike on Saturday and yesterday I took the kids on a decent walk. This morning we got out too for a good walk. Tomorrow the weather is oging to change…yuck.. I am loving these 65-70 degree fall days.  I am planning on working out tonight with my neighbor…it is motivating to have someone to go with. She couldn’t go last night and I thoguht about going, then didn’t……..anyway.

Nothing to exciting to write….things are going ok, and really a lot better than they were 2 weeks ago.  So…..let’s see if I can keep the eating under control today.

I was up 1.5 today…I have been up and down these same 2-3 pounds for 3 or 4 weeks now. I know that it is my own fault, not some plataue…but I need to kick it in. Of course, my choice of beverages before bed last night may not have helped my weigh in…..anyway….

Today has been ok…..I even have a nice healthy roast with tons of veggies in the oven…perfect for a cool overcast fall day.

I am glad it is Friday and hope that we can get some good family time this weekend.

Here is to making good choices.