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Weighed in this morning. I was up 1 pound exactly. I was praying for a miracle that even though I ate terrrible Wed and Thurs the pounds would melt off…but I know that I need to put forth the effort.  See yesterday’s post on that. Today is going a bit better than yesteday..I think the sight of a 3 day weekend is nice….as I am sure others can relate…..anyway…gotta run…..

I am going to do better this next week and next Friday I will be down!!

Have a great weekend. 

I read mtngirlincali’s (ok, I don’t remember exactly how she has it written:) earlier this week about her triathalaon. Seriously inspiring..thanks to her…but, something else she wrote in her blog has stuck with me all week. About being with friends who say they want to loose weight, yet continue to make poor food choices. I am raising my hand..that is me. I need someone to sit on my shoulder and say…hey dummy, if you want to loose weight, you shouldn’t eat another serving of lasagna…go grab some veggies if you are hungry.  Hey dummy, you don’t need french fries with your meal…..in her blog I thought, that is me…no excuses, i am eating too much and poor choices of what I eat.  If I was overeating carrots and boneless chicken breasts…I wouldn’t be feeling the same way.  So, today, I am dealing with…how do I ditch my excuses and I feel like I have a zillion. I am trying to get it together…I feel like everything in my life is out of control…I am struggling…..adjusitng to two kids–my oldest is just almost two and in the last week seems to be realizing that the baby isn’t going anywhere adn my angel has turned into a real handful and that is hard for me to deal with…..we moved to a new state…I miss my friends….I miss my comfort zones and knowing stuff…I amfeeling lonely and wanting to meet people…I need to do something about that…new jobs, wtih me being at home and supporting my husband in a new business, so he is super busy and I am getting used to that…..Way too much change in 2 months!! I knew it would be hard, but these last few days have been overwhleming……So, I think well, maybe I can have my eating get under control, yet, I am not…I am using it to comfort myself through my stress….but, it isn’t making me feel better.  So….I need a kick in the pants and I really have pondered what moutnain girl said….it is like duh? stop making poor food choices…..why does that feel so hard for me? 

so….my goal as I enter into this long weekend….make better food choices…..try to keep my eating under control. count points!!!!!

Good Morning. I weighed in thsi morning expecting an increase from last week..it hasn’t been a great week for me in any realm–but I tried to show self control and I drank water….so it worked somehow…it gives me motivation to really get back on track with counting points.

More later…and here is to a better next week.

I want to eat meet…I am just craving it. I ate some leftover taco ground turkey today and just mixes in some black beans and fresh tomatoes andsalsa I had yum…..not enough, I baked a couple chicken breasts to tuck away for meals quick in the next few days…next hing you know I am walking around my kitchen knawing on a chicken breast…then for dinner, made a healthyer egg salad for dinner,…and at ethat…I didn’t do too bad with poitns today, but my body is needing soemthing….did great with my water too.  exercsie…..hmm, not so great…

Going to run..good night.

I was fired up on Friday about my weight loss, so I ddin’t track strictly on Friday…that tumbled into Sat and Sunday….ok, and Monday. We had family in town and family gatherings and we had a date night in there too.  I never was out of control…I even opted for Salad on our date when the FF were calling my name! Today I got back on the bandwagon and counted points…I did well, til, right after dinner, when husband called to say he was late and both girls were having meltdowns…I hoenstly walked into the kitchen and shoved two cookies in my mouth.  Ok, I am aware of that behavior and I jsut need to find and alternative…..I did get in a nice long walk this morning…..and good water amounts.

Gotta run, but wanted to post!! Even though I didn’t do great…I thought I better fess up

If there is anyone who can lead me to a link or site to create a progress chart..that would be great..I notice many of you have them

Also, I know you have all talked about it,but how do you get your cool daily food total charts?

See, I told you I was motivated!

213. That is down 3.2 from last Saturday night…now you have to take into account going from an evening weigh in to morning, but I am still happy with it…It also make my total so far 7 lb exactly.  Can I give myself a red star? That is why I love going to meetings so I can get my stars!!  Maybe someday I will be able to rejoing a meeting, but with the new baby, now isn’t the time…according to my local chapter…..enough on that (can you tell I am still so frustrated about that)

But..happy about my WI. Feels motivating. 

Gotta run, have a toddler yelling to get up!!

So….I have stayed on plan all week and done well…then this afternoon got soooo crazy with the business and kiddos and whatnot…and my dinner plan went out the window and I quick made spaghetti…..why? It is my weakness good…..I didn’t eat as much as usual and I divied up the leftovers in good portions…but, it put me over my points for the day…..

Other than that I have done well with my goals this week.

I am weighing in tomorrow morning. I have had Satuday night as my weigh in night for the last 3 weeks, and well, I just think that is the silliest time to weigh in…so, now, I am making the executive decision that I will now make Friday my official weigh in time….I am bummed I ate so much this evening after having done well all week, I hoep I still show a loss….we shall see…

Have a great night…..

This afternoon we were playing in the yard after my daughter;s nap and snack.  I ran back in the kitchen to get my water and the 100 pack of chocolate cupcakes caught my eye. I knew if I took them outside I woudl have to share, so I stood at the patio door watching and waving and sneaking bites in so I wouldn’t have to share. This has nothing to do with me not wanting her to have them…but me watning them all for myself!!  I had to laugh at myself….that I was sneaking the healthy cupcakes.

Anyway, again, my food list is downstairs adn I was OP again today…I ended the day at 36. 

I have a points question–accroding to Roni’s point calculator I should get like 28 points a day, plus my nursing….but, when I did WW before I was a similar weight (oh that makes me sad) adn I only got 25 points…have they changed the program adn is that why you are asked whether you sit or stand? 29 seems so high…..anyway….thoughts or ideas on that for those that have seen adn understand the cahnge.

I also went to the gym for the seconf time this week — 25 minuts on the eliptical….and I worked harder than the other night….

Didn’t do as well on my water today, but I drank a lot of crystal light…..

Anyway..I want to jump in the shower before bed and I am exhausted…..my baby is 2 months old tomorrow, I can’t belive it….we head to the dr adn I am anxious to see how much she weighs……and we are visitng a nw dr. since we mvoed…I loved our old Dr adn clinic so I hope I like this one as well too…there are so many tough things about moving….good too…..I did chat with a neighbor this evening on my way home from our gym, that felt good …ok, I am truely rambling and I am tired.

Good night.

I know it is WEd and I just didn’t get to the computer yesterday.  It was one of those insane busy days…and really a cruddy day all around for me. The kids were fussy and teh reality of being in a new place far from what is familiar and friends I love is setting in….but, the bright side is…I STAYED ON POINTS…I left my sheet of food downstairs so Iwill post it later…but it went well…..:)

Gotta run and get some work done…I am doingw ell so far today adn the day is going much better:)  I am hoping to get ot the gym tongiht…..