Confessions
8 12 2007I’ve been absent since I got back from Thanksgiving. It’s not because I couldn’t post. It’s because I’ve been hiding things. Yes, I have been bad. And because I use this blog to talk about my eating habits, I shall now outline all of the horrible things I’ve done over the past few weeks.
1. I ate two bagels for lunch yesterday. (I can explain this— have been working 12+ hour days and was unable to leave work, but because I have no food in the house, I couldn’t pack a lunch — so I was at the mercy of what was leftover from meetings that morning and I was REALLY hungry)
2. I have Reduced Fat Jif in the cupboard. I know I can’t resist the stuff. In fact, I must have at least a tablespoon a day. I know for a fact that even that small amount adds pounds to my rear end. But do I stop? No.
3. I have had little to no extra time for exercise. I sometimes get in to work at 6am. I’m there until 7pm. There is nothing left in the tank for the gym, considering what I’d want to do is swim or take a spin class.
4. When faced with chocolate cheesecake, I demolished the entire chocolate topping. (I left the cheesecake, though– mustn’t that count for something?)
5. I ate Chick Fil A french fries with DH. He is an enabler.
6. I’m back to binge eating my favorite cereal, Honey Bunches of Oats. (Although I’ll do it to pretty much anything, save for All Bran, which is a little too gritty for that)
7. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK, all better now. Clean slate. How many slates must I wipe clear before I finally get a handle on this?!
I need to find a balance with work. Go to my 1st yoga class. (Except I’m too nervous because I don’t even know what to wear or do) Do something to channel all this extra angst that is showing up in my eating habits.
I shall contemplate and try to find a better way.
Nice choice on the yoga… i have slowly and surely been adding it back into my routine. A couple of suggestions if I can… no baggie t-shirts, they just fall foward in inverted poses. Second, remember its a controled movement, and try to really concentrate on your breathe and not getting pissed cause u don’t feel like your “doing anything”…cause u are! Good luck!
BREATHE!!!!! You really didn’t do that bad. I know it seems horrible but from an outsider, especially one who has done far worse and still losing, you’re okay!
2 bagels, yes while it was bad you didn’t do it every day, and sometimes when faced with empty cupboards and leftover meeting food you gotta do what you gotta do. My only advice is to take 2 next time but put one away and split the other and eat it slowly, even spread of of the PB on it and eat it slowly. I doubt you’ll even want the second.
Can you take stairs at work? Park your car further away, just get up and walk to get water and talk the longer route every couple hours?
I’d say the frosting on the cheesecake has less points/calories and is a victory so take it! Not many people can only eat part of a cheesecake.
Ask your husband to join you in your efforts, but also know that some fries won’t kill you. When push comes to shove, they are a potato so you got some veggie in right?
Binge on Fiber One if you must, at least you get some fiber in
But try carrots or a fruit instead next time if you can.
See not that bad :D. Just focus and remember how far you’ve come and how great you are and get to yoga. What to wear? I do Bikram so it may be different but I doubt it; wear loose fitting pants aka yoga pants, a tank with a sports bra (to soak up more sweat) no shoes or socks and bring a towel and maybe a mat. If the place you are going has a site then look it up and see if it is listed there, I know where I go does have a “What to wear to class” section.
Good luck and I hope you had a great Christmas and have a wonderful New Years!