Taking the Reins

I’ve been absent since I got back from Thanksgiving.  It’s not because I couldn’t post.  It’s because I’ve been hiding things.  Yes, I have been bad.  And because I use this blog to talk about my eating habits, I shall now outline all of the horrible things I’ve done over the past few weeks.

1.  I ate two bagels for lunch yesterday.  (I can explain this— have been working 12+ hour days and was unable to leave work, but because I have no food in the house, I couldn’t pack a lunch — so I was at the mercy of what was leftover from meetings that morning and I was REALLY hungry)

2.  I have Reduced Fat Jif in the cupboard.  I know I can’t resist the stuff.  In fact, I must have at least a tablespoon a day.  I know for a fact that even that small amount adds pounds to my rear end.  But do I stop?  No.

3.  I have had little to no extra time for exercise.  I sometimes get in to work at 6am.  I’m there until 7pm.  There is nothing left in the tank for the gym, considering what I’d want to do is swim or take a spin class. 

4.  When faced with chocolate cheesecake, I demolished the entire chocolate topping.  (I left the cheesecake, though– mustn’t that count for something?)

5.  I ate Chick Fil A french fries with DH.  He is an enabler.

6.  I’m back to binge eating my favorite cereal, Honey Bunches of Oats.  (Although I’ll do it to pretty much anything, save for All Bran, which is a little too gritty for that)

7.  AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, all better now.  Clean slate.  How many slates must I wipe clear before I finally get a handle on this?! 

I need to find a balance with work.  Go to my 1st yoga class.  (Except I’m too nervous because I don’t even know what to wear or do)  Do something to channel all this extra angst that is showing up in my eating habits.

I shall contemplate and try to find a better way.