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Whoa Nelly!!!!!!!! What the hell did I do today? Now before I tell you how much I ate and you see the proof let me preface this by saying that we went to a restaurant and I am totally guesstimating with that meal, although I don’t think I’m too far off since I did have 2 glasses of lemonade and we shared the spinach and artichoke dip that was served with bread instead of crackers or chips and I totally forgot to ask for dressing ON THE SIDE when I ordered my salad.My only saving grace is that I worked out twice today and we did walk a bit. Looking back, I didn’t need the PowerBar but they were giving them away free at the event that we were at and at the time that I ate it, I had no idea that we would be eating a meal less than 1 hour later. I also realize that I didn’t need to gorge myself of fucking popcorn, but it was the old school Jiffy Pop that you cook on the stove and I love that kind. I also didn’t need to eat so much bread at dinner but oh well it’s over with now and tomorrow I will have to actually get my ass on the elliptical so that I don’t slowly begin to blow up and no longer fit into my clothes. The good thing about getting back into logging all y my food is that I realize that even though it didn’t feel like I ate very much, clearly I could have made some better choices.

So with that here is today’s damage for ALL TO SEE!
(click images to enlarge)
2470 calories! OMG!!! I typically eat that in 2 days.

Today’s exercise:

WOOHOO, I so need to stick to this. I realized yesterday that I have shrunk and I’m finally starting to see the skinny me again instead of the fat me that had moved in temporarily. The only problem is that I noticed the skinny me is also a squishy me. My legs are great, doing stairs daily has really made a difference, and my arms are slowly toning back up thanks to belly dance but I have a soft center and it ain’t pretty. I had on some yoga pants and a fitted tee on Wednesday and felt a little sausagy which I hate. I hate seeing my belly button through my t-shirt. I rally hope that I can stick to doing abs 3x a week. It really isn’t very much so we shall see.

As for my personal monthly goal for the challenge. I want to do 1850 minutes of cardio. In March I did 1783 minutes and in April I did 1612 (the husband was sick so we couldn’t take any weekend walks) but I went and had a New Leaf Test done at the gym on Wednesday and am supposed to add 3 days of cardio to my routine, 15 minutes each day and I need to track my heart rate so that I can burn more fat longer. As of right now my Active Metabolic Rate is good as long as my HR stays between 110 -139, at that rate I am bu ring 3.5 fat calories for ever 4.5 minutes worked, which is pretty good, especially since I seem to stay in that range for most of the exercises I do (walking, stair climbing and dance), but the higher my HR goes the lower the ratio goes so the goal is to get me burning the most fat all the time in order to lose more weight. I still don’t get what all the numbers mean but I was glad to know that for now and the exercise that I am doing, that I am burning fat the entire time I am working out. This definitely explains why I can eat crap and not really gain but it also explains why I haven’t been able to loose anymore. So I need to cut the crap and sweat some more LOL.

The exact numbers from the Active Metabolic Training test were:
HR: 110-139, 3.5 cal fat for every 4.5 mins = good
HR: 139-151, 4 cal fat for every 6.6 mins = pretty good
HR: 151-159, 3.7 cal fat for every 7.3 mins = eh
HR: 159-169, 2.1 cal fat for every 8.9 mins = not so much

And just in case I haven’t already bored you with my stats, here is my food from today…

And of course my exercise. I’m a little bummed that for an hour and a half hula class the teacher decided to talk about Lei Day for like an hour and so we only got to dance for 30 minutes. I did learn something new, but I wanted to DANCE! Good thing I decided to be crazy and do 3 sets of stair climbing instead of the usual 2!

Thanks to the amazing Tina I now have the ability to take screen shots of my SP food logs too! Unfortunately I have yet to figure out how to capture the screen and scroll down at the same time so that I get everything in one shot (guess I eat too many things) but oh well, I got it all anyway. SO here it is people. Day 1 wiht my new talent. Clearly not the best day but whatever Tom is here and I can’t turn down free Chinese frood from this particular place. It’s not a chain so these calories are total guesses based on what SP has listed. At least I got in an hour and 45 minutes of exercise to hopefully off set it a little.

1. Not much to report today but I will post my food yesterday since I accidentally fell asleep in the middle of posting. I did 2 sets of stairs and had a little over 15 glasses of water! I’ll post more later today.

   Once again the totals

   Goals for the week:
   1. Log and post daily food even if I eat out and can’t figure out the calories/points. CHECK!
   2. Exercise - 3 things other than daily stairs. Minimum of 20 minutes in 1 session in order to count. Not yet but I did do 2 sets of stairs so I moved.
   3. Post this exercise in the SP Challenge group and include it in my daily food grid Oops, I forgot
   4. Detox - STOP eating the crap and go back to eating healthy Half CHECK (I had half a cookie today)
   5. Drink 12 glasses of water a day CHECK, I drank 15!!!

Nothing too exciting to post about today. I went to Costco and found a couple of cook foods. Then I came home. Allergies are still kicking my ass. I’ve slacked on my herbs so it is taking linger than it should to get rid of them. The good thing is that my sinuses have been spaired but my nose is running a 5K. I did buy yet another DVD while at Costco. It’s claled the 12 second sequence with Jorge Cruise. It is 2 exercise DVDs plus a bonus coaching one (that should be intersting) for $14.99. It claoms to shrink your waist in 2 weeks with just 2 20 minute workouts a week. We shall see!

I wanted to exercise today, I really did. I thought about it so much but I’m just not up to it. When my face is leaking the last thing I want to do is exert extra energy tha tmay cause me to sweat. No biggie though since my goal is not daily exercise but 3 things (that means times in my weird head lingo).

Speaking of goals let’s see how I did…

1. Goals for the week:
   Log and post daily food even if I eat out and can’t figure out the calories/points. CHECK!
2. Exercise - 3 things other than daily stairs. Minimum of 20 minutes in 1 session in order to count. Not yet
3. Post this exercise in the SP Challenge group and include it in my daily food grid CHECK even though I did not exercise
4. Detox - STOP eating the crap and go back to eating healthy Half CHECK (I had corn nuts today)
5. Drink 12 glasses of water a day CHECK!!!

Not too shabby if I do say so myself.

For dinner tonight we tried the HG’s Boneless Chicken Wings. I had seen these on the HG site when they were first posted but it wasn’t until AJ posted about them that I really wanted to try them. With the exception of making about 3 times as much as the original recipe I actually followed the recipe exactly. Ok, well not EXACTLY, we didn’t have any FF chips so I used 1 oz from the “tub-o-chips” that I told you aboutlast week. Based on how much we made it worked out to 4 good sized servings and 6pts a serving. All in all they were good but kinda dry. The husband rated them a 5.75 on a scale of 10. With 1 being my meatless buffalo wings (he HATES those) and 10 being Hooter’s.

I will definitely make them again but next time instead of just using Frank’s as the moisture I plan to add NF plain yogurt so that the nuggets stay moist and I’ll leave out the chips, I don’t really think that they added much to the crumb other than calories. Other than that the breading was good and it stuck to the chicken way better than I thought, and they did come out crispy.

Click here to see how I made them.

(tub-o-chips)

And now for Monday’s food

And the Totals

Crazy huh but that’s where I’m at again. I just calculated what I ate today thinking that I had totally gone over my calories but now.
This is what I have eaten so far minus my fancy grid
Breakfast: 3pts total

Coffee and Yo Digestive Health Vanilla Yogurt
Lunch: 11.5 pts total

6oz boneless, skinless chicken breast

3oz curly fries (I’m weak dammit what can I say)
Dinner: 8pts total

4 oz boneless, skinless chicken breast (I told you I only eat specific animals, and chicken is the main one)

1 C spaghetti squash

1/2 C polenta

1/16th C shredded cheese

small slice of chocolate rum bunt cake
Calories: 1012

Points: 22. oh yea and WWO decided to make my daily total 27 points since I made my goal. Great!
Sounds like enough food right? To me it did but I want chips. Oh, didn’t I tell you that my ILs brought us a TUB o Chips and not just any chips Martin’s chips that we can’t get out here in CA so they are super special! Yea last year they sent us a case of chips. WTF? I know they live in like the snack capitol but come on people, 2 people don’t need gobs of chips. So now that I have calculated my calories and points I see that I can have some of the chips. And yes I realize that my F&V is lacking and that I should eat that instead but we are all out and I’m spaghetti squashed out.
Snow now that we have assessed the situation I gave in and am now enjoying some satan chips. An just so you all can stop wondering about these tasty, crispy pieces of goodness here are some pictures of the Tub-O-Chips. Oh yes and they are a mixture tub of regular and “hot.” Oh yea, they also brought us a tin of Stauffer’s cookies. My PA blogging friends may be familiar with these. Good thing I’m not a chip AND cookie fiend.

Ok so that took my total points to 25.5 and the calories up to 1164. Still not the minimum calories needed. I’m totally back to my old habits of not eating enough or not the right foods or both. This is what caused me to stay at a high weight for so long. I must eat more. You know how some people have the “diet” mentality that they will lose and then reach goal and then be able to eat anything they want again because they lost the weight and the journey is over and then they gain? Well my end seems to mean that I can go back to not eating very much which means I stall. Works for maintenance I guess but not for still wanting to lose which is what I want to do. Talk about backwards food issue mentality. So many of you write about eating too much and not being able to stay on the wagon and I can’t always relate because I have my own food issues that I seem to not always like to talk about. And yea, in case any of you are wondering I did have minor eating disorders as a teen which I think still linger at times.

So I ate my chips but will try harder tomorrow to not only eat more but better.

Literally! I have no idea when I will learn, or maybe it’s because I don’t eat it that often that I keep forgetting but it literally makes me sick to my stomach! The husband had surgery yesterday so I spent most of my day at the hospital. Everything went well and took less time than they anticipated which was great. The doctor even said that “anatomically his body lent itself to the surgery” and he didn’t have to go as deep as with most patients and he didn’t have to cut into the muscle which means that he will heal much quicker. I had no idea how long the entire thing would take so I packed some water and healthy snacks to keep me until it was time to go home. I packed a Fiber One Bar, some carrots, yogurt, a Laughing Cow wedge and some melba rounds.

As with most surgeries the husband had to fast and the poor guy couldn’t even have coffee this morning so I had promised him that we would get whatever he wanted for lunch, which he decided would be fast food because he wanted a burger (we don’t cook red meat in the house). Once we were able to leave the hospital we headed over to Carl’s Jr because he decided that he wanted a Six Dollar Burger. Can I just tell you, that thing was HUGE! They should call it the Six days worth of food burger if you ask me. Not sure what I was thinking but I decided to order the Bacon Swiss Crispy Chicken burger minus the bacon. Usually I get a kids meal when we get fast food because that is more than enough for me. Well today I was just retarded. Not sure if it was because I was stressed or what but I ate most of that damn thing (took off as much mayo as possible and didn’t eat the bread and only 3/4 of the chicken which was huge) and after about 4 bites I started to feel sick. My stomach started to feel bloated and not happy but what did I do? I continued to eat the fries and drink the soda (I RARELY drink soda because carbonation usually upsets my stomach too), oh and a few sips of the crazy, insane milkshake that the husband wanted. I wasn’t even eating it because it tasted good so much as I felt bad wasting the food. 2 “value” meals and a shake cost us $19. WTF?! $19 and some clogged arteries and a side of fat, they should really be paying us to eat this crap. All the while I had the yogurt and carrots in my bag but for some reason they just didn’t seem as appealing, although I’m sure my stomach would have much preferred them to what I did eat.

Now that I look back it reminds me of this commercial

I’d been meaning to post about TravelBlog for a while ow but keep forgetting. A friend send an email out after the New Year announcing that she was taking a trip to Thailand and Cambodia, alone, and that she had signed up with TravelBlog to record her journey and share it with the rest of us. I’d never heard of it before but absolutely LOVE reading about her journey on it and now have it bookmarked for future use in case we ever go somewhere cool. The set up is different than Blogger or Wordpress but it is specifically for travel and sharing with people so if you like to travel and share your journey I definitely recommend it from the reader perspective. Mainly because it allows people to sign up and it sends them an email whenever you update. It’s great because this way you don’t have to keep checking in, especially if you are subscribed to a blog for someone who is in an area where they may or may not have internet connection often. Our friend has been writing her blog from internet cafes only.
Why am I mentioning it now you ask? Well because in today’s entry she said something that really hit home for me;
“In being vulnerable with others, it allows them to see that one is also human. In my relationships with people, I have not been so vulnerable as I always looked at vulnerability as weakness. It is not weakness, it is strength. Strength is in knowing that we all have faults, but we are still wonderful in our own rite. “
Now I’ve only known L since 2005 and we’re not close and we’re really more like friendly acquaintances since I only see her when she works for my husband (she does hair and make-up), and she did do my hair for my wedding (amazing) but she’s one of those people who you either click with or you don’t and when you do it’s cool because you know she’s real and not the fake friendly that a lot of business acquaintances can be.
Well reading what she wrote hit home for me because I’m the same way. I have always looked at being vulnerable as a weakness which is what keeps me from getting close to people IRL. I’m very private (again IRL) and keep to myself, which is also why I have very few friends IRL (think you get that I’m referring to RL here?). She wrote that in reference to a guide she had for the past few days who suddenly opened up to her and it made her realize a lot. I think I need to keep reading it so that it sinks in. I’m also posting it here because I think it may resonate with some of you too in relation to blogging when you’re having a bad day or week and don’t want to blog about it for fear of letting others down.

I didn’t WI today because I had a dentist appt. in the morning and hat to play catch up when I got it. That also meant no morning stair and I didn’t get to do afternoon stairs because of another meeting. Bad news: I need to have a root canal, this would be my 3rd. UGH I hate that I have such horrible teeth. Also, during my meeting it was decided to change the time from 2-4 to 11-1 which means that I will miss every WW meeting so if I want to keep up with the at work program I’m going to have to make time to go on Thursdays which isn’t horrible just not as convenient. I actually like the Thursday leader better but I will miss all the people from my Tuesday meeting. This also means that I will be ordering lunch again on a weekly basis. I wonder if the group will notice if I sneek in some healthy options ;)?

Food so far has been good. Today was very high but I’m okay with it, especially since I finally got some F&V in and my protein was high, unfortunately so was the sodium and for the life of me I can’t remember if I had 4 or 8 glasses of water at work today. I use a 32oz glass and just refill that at least twice during the day but I was so busy today that I can’t remember. I have already had another one at home so no matter what I know that I at least got 8 glasses in today. I’m anticipating a gain on the scale tomorrow after seeing how much sodium I’ve had, but things will hopefully be better by Thursday.

PS.

Not to spoil BL, but am I the only one glad to see Neil gone?

Yesterday…

Today was the first day in ages that I tracked EVERYTHING in SP. If I can keep this up for 7 days then I think I can go back to tracking both in SP and WWO. It was a good day food wise and exercise wise. We took a walk through the neighborhood for an hour and 20 minutes and walked just under 3 miles and we had a great time doing it. Starting tomorrow the focus is on more fiber and more F&V!

Him: Is there any desert?
Me: Something SMALL, we’re trying to get back on track remember?
Him: I was good today, how about one of those little WW cakes?
Me: Oh, good idea, they are only 1 point, chocolate or lemon
Him: Lemon (I like to let him pick since I always get to pick dinner)

I went and got the cakes and then started to log in the calories etc in SparkPeople half way through logging I looked over and saw an empty wrapper…

Me: Are you done already?
Him: Yea, they’re tiny
Me: Was it good? (I hadn’t opened mine yet)
Him: Yea, it was pretty good, but it would be better if there were 2 in a pack

I finished mine and it was pretty good. Before I put the box back in the kitchen I asked him if he really wanted a second one.

Him: Would it be really bad if I had another one?
Me: Not horrible since they are only 1 point and we (I try not to single him out) need to wean ourselves off the bad stuff but you can’t go eat’n eat 2 every day
Him: Okay, just today, I was really good today and I need to wean myself

(if you knew my husband you’d know that he loves to joke around and typing it out doesn’t do his actions/voice inflections justice)

I gave him a second one and then went back to reading and watching Wife Swap (I have a sick addiction to reality TV). I was waiting for a commercial to get up and put the box away and as I got up I saw an empty YoGo’s wrapper.

Me: Honey did you eat a YoGos too?!
Him: Oh shit, I guess I did
Me: DUDE!
Him: Shit! It’s like I don’t even remember eating them. I shouldn’t have have the 2nd cake thingie. How did that happen? I totally forgot that I ate those.
Me: When did you eat them and how can you not remember? (laughing my ass off by now)
Him: YOU MADE ME DO IT! (totally laughing his ass off at this point)

I think he ate them while he was on the phone. He is guilty if mindless eating like that. Hopefully this will make him more aware.

Day 1 of 3 for the Exercise Challenge: COMPLETE!

Today’s food (I need to get back to posting my food daily so here goes)

01/02/08 Wed. - Daily Points Target 23 Day 2 - in Week - Flex Points Remaining: 35 Morning WI - 136.4
Food	Points
B - coffee	1
B - 2 slices Wonderbread Light Wheat Bread and 1 TBS Better N Peanut Butter	2
L - 2 TJ’s Black Bean & Corn enchiladas w/1/8 C Tj’s Lite Shredded Cheese	6
S - 1oz chips	3
D - 2 Taco Dinner Kit tacos w/ lean ground turkey, mexican cheese, 98% FF beans and rice	10
D - WW Lemon cake	1
Total	23
Water (8oz glasses)   Fruits & Vegetables Milk x x x x x x x x x x x       x         x
Cal:1220-1550 Fat: 32-56 Carb: 163-236 Protein:60-127 Fiber:25-35 Sod.0-2300 1234 42 160 60 18 2604
Activity Duration/ Steps Pts./ Cals. Burned Distance Yoga Booty Ballet 20 min 1 pt N/A

Yup, I did 5 planks last night, FIVE! During commercials and it was actually much easier. The husband used to be in advertising so he knows instinctively which are 30 second spots and which are 15. After doing a plank for 1 commercial I swear that it was easier and shorter than me counting. Probably because the mississippi’s and overall pain was causing me to forget how to count. LOL. So I did 3 planks with about 1-2 commercial rests in between then the show came back on and then I did 2 more during the next commercial break. I could have maybe done more but I didn’t want to push it. Wonder how long I can keep this up? I didn’t do any other exercise last night because I had too many shows to watch (I’m a TV junkie) and I just didn’t feel like watching them in “exercise room.” Plus I was still sore and wanted to give myself a day break, so 5 planks was it. Tonight for sure though, just not sure what. Possible dance class if I make it home in time.

Food was okay. Not great but that’s what happens when you don’t plan. I forgot to pack a lunch and thought that the frozen meal in my work fridge would be okay. Moldy mac & cheese anyone? Yup that is what I found. Apparently my mini fridge’s freezer isn’t so great and didn’t keep the meal completely frozen and it had started to mold. Have you ever seen frozen mac & cheese turned green. Not pretty. So I ate my snack in stead because the cafe food wasn’t appealing either. We REALLY NEED to go grocery shopping!

Here is yesterday’s food. I’m always amazed an how points and calories don’t necessarily go hand in hand.

Last week’s goal update…

And now for this week’s goals…

I craved veggies! Yup you read correctly. If you read my previous post you know that I was stuck at home all day with out a car (and no, I don’t take public transit so I was STUCK AT HOME) . Well we are LOW on food to say the least. It’s just pathetic really, I don’t think we’ve ever let it get this bad. Granted there are some canned green beans and corn and frozen mango and strawberries but no fresh F&V. Nada.. After the mickyd’s debacle of the morning I was NOT hungry the rest of the day and according to SP I had hit 1000 calories before noon thirty. The husband got home late so there wasn’t really any time to go to the store so we had left over Indian pizza from last night. Well even though the pizza had lots of veggies I still needed something. I NEEDED some F&V but frozen fruit didn’t sound appealing. We had just enough lettuce for salad and the husband didn’t want any so I ate it. It definitely made me feel better but I wish we had more. I think I can officially say that this is the first time in YEARS that I have actually craved and sought out F&V. Could it be that my body has finally crossed over? This is the first week in a LONG time where I have had a minimum of 3 F&V EVERY day!

I think…

Sometimes you just gotta get things out, ya know. I also realized that I need to stop saying that I’m fat and start telling myself that I’m skinny and that I look damn good and my husband tells me so all the time and I need to listen. He always tells me how beautiful I am on a daily basis but it wasn’t until this past month or so that he’s been referring to me as skinny on numerous occasions. I need to let it sink in! Starting today I’m going to stop looking in the mirror and seeing the flub and start seeing what I’ve lost and my waist and bones reappear.

My positive for today is that I like wearing clothes in a size that I like to see and knowing that they fit nicely. Not tight. And that my thighs look good because of all the crazy stairs that I do :). And I can see my collar bones today which automatically make me stand up taller because I want to show them off. So maybe the insanity isn’t over but at least the pity party is!

Yesterday was tough food wise because I never eat breakfast on WI days. Bad I know, but 1 day a week isn’t gonna kill me and I only do it if I don’t have any bananas to eat. So yesterday’s food didn’t start till noon so I had a but of a struggle to eat my minimum calories but I did it! I even did my elliptical machine again. Not for as long as I had planned but about half way though the husband called and his car had stalled on him so I had to change and go get him so that he could get to an auto store to get a part and fix it. I did however get 13 minutes in and I worked it during that time! Unfortunately his car repair took about an hour so when we got back home it was time to make dinner and then I didn’t want to work out anymore, but I did it 2 days in a row AT HOME. Tonight will be my off night since I have a nail appt. and I like our Wednesday night shows (Kitchen Nightmares and CSI).

This morning’s WI was very nice, 135.8! Maybe 135 does love me after all? Or it just likes to torture me by making an appearance once a week for one day. Who knows, but it made me happy :).

I’ve been playing around with some before and during pics but am not sure if I will actually post them.

Here is my food for yesterday. 1 glass shy of 12 glasses of water but I got all 5 F&V in!

And for a goal update…

Yesterday was not a good day for F&V. My supply is low and all I had was an apple. I knew this wasn’t great but you can only do so much when you don’t have anything else right? The rest of the day was good even though I did eat a piece of baklava. I had 16 glasses of water and only 3 FPs. I did both sets of stairs which is 32 flights of stairs, 1464 stairs not including the steps on each landing. I even did 45 minutes of exercise last night. Granted it was low intensity because I didn’t break a sweat but it was HARD because it was a dancers workout DVD. So I earned 3 APs yesterday and ate them. HOW in the hell does that equal a 1.6 gain overnight? The ONLY thing I can think of is (TMI warning) that I haven’t dropped the kids off at the pool but come on. If this was any other day I would not care but today is official WW WI day and I want to see a loss dammit! I want LIFETIME status!!!!!!!!!

Part of me wants to talk to my leader today and see if I can change my WW goal from 130 to 135 simply so that I can start maintenance and get Lifetime. Of course I will still lose so it’s really just me cheating the system but I am so frustrated and stubborn that I don’t even know what to do.

Candace asked if my goal was a size 6 or 130 pounds. The answer is both. In my twisted little head a size 6 equals 127 pounds. I am now a size 6 but not 127. I look good but I want to look better, I want to see 127 on the scale dammit and I know it is possible because I was that weight for YEARS and at this point if it means a size 4 or a lose 6 then fine I WANT THAT! My 6s look good, but i want them to look better. Plus 127 gives me more wiggle room.

I guess for me this journey has not only been to lose weight but to feel like ME again, and ME weighs 127 pounds and can wear a size 4 or 6 bottoms and not an 8 because an 8 is just too damn big and falls off me (except for dresses because my boobage never goes away and I’m happy about that) right now I can still wear my 8s and although they are loose they don’t fall off. I am like an exact 6 with NO wiggle room. 1 big mean and I become a sausage 6.

Call me obsessed but when you were the same size and weight for over 15 years straight and a stupid surgery (not stupid because it saved my life but right now I’m mad so I’m calling it stupid) causes you to gain weight it messes with not only your head but your physical image of yourself. Especially since we are thinking and talking about a child. I want to be ME again so that I know that it is possible for me to gain and lose the weight with a little determination. Does that make sense. I guess I just need to feel beautiful again before my body gets all big and out of control. I need to know that I gained once before and lost it so that I can do it again.

Sorry for the rant.

Here’s yesterday’s food and a goal update. 1 hour till WI and food. I hope it goes well. I don’t want to have to hurt the weigherinner lady.

Those 2 articles that I posted yesterday really helped me think about what I ate yesterday and it paid off! I got 5 veggies in, drank 16 8 oz glasses of water - that’s 128oz, and I woke up 2 pounds lighter! Yup, today’s reading was 135.6, which is what I like seeing :). Hopefully I can keep it up again today. At least I’ve had 2 lowish sodium days even though I ate some salty things. I’ve also been focusing on getting lots of protein which I’ve also done. As long as I can keep this up for the rest of the week I should finally see a loss at WI next week.

A lot of you have said to ignore the scale and go by my clothes and I totally agree. The rational side of me knows this and until I decided to join WW I never owned a scale. I always went my clothes and measurements which is why I remained the same size for so long. Now I’ve become obsessed with the number and I am determined to become a lifetime member. Because I want to, I want to know that I did it, I set a goal and stuck to it and won! And unfortunately WW doesn’t go by clothing sizes, they go by the number on the scale, and until it says 130 for 6 weeks I won’t get the lifetime status. But you’re right in that I have part way won because I am a 6 again! And for those interested here are some pictures. Not the greatest but they are really for me to see what I look like outside of my head.
Here I am in my “sailor” pants

This was before I put my BIG shoes on so the legs look sloppy. 4′ heels later and they look great! Oh and in case you’re wondering, I have no ass, which is why I look flat on both sides LOL.

Here I am in the other 6’s that I got.

Oh, and for the person who asked if I was tall. Nope, just your average 5″5 but I have long legs and a short torso so I have to by all my pants in Longs because Reg. look funny and short, especially with shoes. Which is when I suddenly become 5″7-5″10 :).

And now for yesterday’s food..

And a goals review..

Thank you to everyone who commented on yesterday’s post.  Sometimes you really do need an outsider to help point out the positive (I always struggle with that when it comes to myself). I know that the gain is water but with the amount of water I usually drink and how many times I am running to pee you’d think it would be gone! Good thing is that I did watch my sodium yesterday and came in under my max. It’s tough, especially since I’m one of those people who prefers chips to cookies or cake.  I really wish there was a salt/sodium flush that would keep what is needed yet let you release the excess. I may have to do a little googling today.

I keep getting comments on how I do my grid. Well, since I have 2 blogs there are 2 different ways that work for me.

If you are on Woedpress/Weight Watchen then I start my grid in Dreamweaver and then just copy and paste the code under the code tab.

If you are using Blogger, that doesn’t work so I go to an older post and just copy the grid, paste it into the compose section and then update my info. The only thing is that it only works if you are using Firefox NOT IE. I’ve tried both and it just won’t work in IE. If you want a blank grid to get started I’ve posted my blank one at the end of this post…

Blue (I can’t see your blog) also asked about my sodium #. According to SparkPeople I should eat 0-2300mg a day (I don’t know if this applies to everyone or is based on age,height, weight). I made my goal under 2500 because I have a tendency to go over so I gave myself a teeny buffer.

Sonya this is for you- I ate 3 veggies yesterday. How did you do?

And now to review my goals…Not too bad. I got my F&V, exceeded my steps goal and did well with the sodium. I also did some abs :). I wanted to wash my face but our stupid bathroom light is being weird and it would not go all the way on so it was too dark next to the sink to really see anything :(.

Blank grid to get you started…Alter it to make it work for you, this is just what I use.

Where do I even start?
Yesterday started out as a great OP day. I ate fruit with breakfast and lunch, had a WW salad from the cafe (our cafeteria has a WW section and a different dish each day) and other than not doing the stairs it was a great day. The only thing I didn’t know was what we were doing for dinner.
For the past few weeks we have only had 1 daily driver (we have 6 cars - don’t ask), mine. This means that the husband has been taking public transportation most of the time but on the days that he needs a car he drives me to and from work. Yesterday was one of those days. He also wanted to go to “dude’s night” after work but since we only have 1 car we had to make some arrangements. So I secretly dropped him off at the garage (apparently guys are NOT like girls and having their wife play chauffeur is not cool, vs when he plays chauffeur it’s super sweet to all the girls - whatever). I dropped him off because clearly girls are NOT allowed at “dude’s night” but I needed something to do and wasn’t in the mood to hang out at my parent’s house, so I decided that I was going shopping :D. I had my plan and everything; Ulta, Old Navy and Target if there was any time left over.
First I hit Ulta and did a little damage. I bought a set of 3lb weights (they all kinds of things there) that can be worn on your wrists or ankles. I already have 2lb hand weights but since I do the stairs almost everyday I’ve realized that the leg exercises on my DVDs no longer do anything for me so I thought that adding some weights might kick it up a notch. Plus I can also put them on my wrists and hold my 2lbs and have 5lbs to really work my arms. Then I bought a couple things from Bourjois (love that line!), a few nail products and some hair pomade for Ken so that it wasn’t all about me ;).
Next it was time to hit Old Navy so that I could get a pair of jeans that fit instead of the sad, worn out and saggy ones that I was wearing. We can pretty much wear jeans any day of the week at work but I always wear them on Friday unless I know I’m going out after work. My decent looking jeans were all dirty and the only pair that was left were the ones that Ken said I needed to stop wearing because they looked DONE (saggy, sloppy and worn out). Well I wasn’t in the mood to dress up so I wore them. I had put them in the dryer the last time they were washed in hopes that they would shrink a bit so when I put them on they didn’t look horrible. They didn’t look great either but they were passable, or so I thought. After sitting at my desk for a few hours they started to sag and every time I went to the bathroom I could see that they looked SAD and SORRY. To the point where I started to wonder, “how big WAS I?” But I digress…
I enter ON and hit the denim section. The last time I bought jeans there they had totally different styles without names, now they have 3 styles and I had NO IDEA which one had taken the place of the ones that I know work for me (low waist). I grabbed about 5 or 6 pairs and headed to the dressing room. As I tried on the different styles all I could think of is who in the hell decided that LOW/LOWEST rise jeans were flattering? Seriously people. Unless you have like 3% body fat and abs like Fergie or Brittnay (pre-babies), low rise jeans sit right smack in the middle of most women’s trouble spot. And it is just NOT attractive to see a gut hanging over the top of jeans that are cutting into someone’s lower mid-section.
With that said the Diva - lowest rise were OUT of the question. Those things fit great until you realize that they stop going up after they have covered your butt crack, IF you’re lucky. Next I tried the Flirt - mid-rise. Mid-rise my ass! These definitely cover your butt crack but if you have any squish in the mid-section area these definitely squish into it and lets everything else squish out and over. WTF?! But sadly again, they looked great on the areas that they did cover, but unless I lose another20 lbs and just cut off my own skin they ain’t’ gonna work! So I move onto the Sweetheart - classic rise that supposedly sits at your NATURAL waist. Apparently designers no longer know WHERE the natural waist is since they consider that to be below your belly button. Fortunately the Sweetheart worked AND in a SIZE 6! Let me repeat that, A SIZE 6 PEOPLE!!!!! :D. Now they are a bit snug but I can wear them and not scare anyone or look like a sausage. Oh I also got a pair of sailorish styled ones that are labeled “high waist.” Wanna know where those fall? AT the belly button! Yup, apparently the designers at Old Navy think that your belly button is considered high waist. Someone needs to send those people a seamstress measuring chart so they can remember where the parts are!
All in all I walked away with 2 pairs