I guess I am going to switch my blog over the new site.  I hope to see and read familiar faces.  I might check in every once in awhile. Thanks for all the support I couldn’t do it without you gals I hope to continue with all of you on our weight loss journey. So look me up.

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I am at work and this guy comes in, and starts talking to me.  He asked how old I was.  I said 29 he said your kidding me I wanted to set you up with my 21 year old son.  I really don’t think I look that young, but I don’t feel almost 30.  I know since I lost weight I feel younger, I started actually doing something with my hair and have bought some new clothes.  It feels like I am alive again.  Like I have a do over.  And this time around I am going to take care of myself and be more active. 

 My husband thinks I’m hot, my five year old likes to laugh at my big boob picture I have hanging on the fridge as a reminder what I don’t want to look like ever again.  I am trying to be a good example to my daughter who is a little overweight. ( not going so great) and I still can’t catch the toddler. He is fast little bugger.  I am learning to love myself again and have the self confidence to try new things.

I decided I better hurry and make some new goes for the month before May has already slipped by.  Where has the year gone I can’t believe it is almost half over.  My new goals for the month are:

1. Be in the 160’s

2. Exercise more at least 3 times a week

3. Eat more protien

4. Eat more fruits & veggies

A few days ago I asked if anyone had any bright ideas on how to get rid of love handles at the bottom of my blog.  Well I didn’t get to many ideas.  So I am asking again if anyone has tried something that got results or something that they are trying.  I really would like to focus on this area.  Or maybe it will just come off as I lose more weight.  I just hate when my shirt will cling to me and there is a big roll.  I am thinking maybe I need to lose more weight then I originally planned.  My goal was 160.  I only have 12 more pounds to go.  Maybe 150 should be my new goal.  I guess we will see what I look like when I reach my goal.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

I started my 2nd week in the Couch to 5k today.  I have one problem though I can’t get any of my exercise pants to stay up so I have to keep pulling them up.  Now this should be exciting.  But I just bought 4 new pair in large.  I don’t want to buy more now that I just bought them and already wore them.  Could I be a medium?  I am still in the habit og lokking for the biggest size.  I just can’t believe I could be any other size.  Does anyone else do that. So anyways what am I going to do.  I guess I will run until my pants  fall off.  Hopefully I notice first or that would be embarrassing. 

I had a hard time today.  It has been 2 weeks since I did my first week.  Hopefully it was just because of the break in between. ( I did come home and took a nap, hopefully that didn’t cancel it out.)  I love the feeling that exercising gives you.  When I am running I feel like I have accomplished something new.  I was never a runner I just enjoyed walking.  So it feels good to do something at age 29 that I haven’t done in my whole life.  I can’t wait until I can run the whole 5k.

It is so motivating to read everyones blogs and see how much and what everyone does for exercising.  Thank gals for sharing keep it up.

This morning I jumped on the scale to find out I weighed 171. I have officially lost 41 pounds.  As you may have read in my past month post.  I have been kind of in a rut. I think I still had the want and the motivation, but I did not have the mind set.  Some where along my weight loss journey I lost my drive.  I have finally got it back (I think).I am way Super excited to finally see results due to changing things up a bit.  I have been eating alot of fish lately.  I love fish and apparently it loves me.  I have not been exercising these past couple of weeks because I have been busy and have not had the energy.  I hope to go running tomarrow I need to get back to my Couch to 5k program.  I am only on week 2 and I should be on week 4. 

I have been thinking alot lately that I deserved to be fat.  I did not take care of my body.  I ate crap I didn’t exercise.  I don’t have a medical condition that makes me gains weight. So I totally deserved to be overweight.  Now I am giving myself a second chance.  A redo.  I think that the hard work and changing my eating habits will help me to hopefully maintain and not let myself go again.  It is the weight loss journey that teaches us the tools to live and maintain a healthy lifestyle. I never want to be fat again.  And if I do, I will know that no one else is to blame but me. I have seen alot of people outside exercising now that it is getting warm.  Most of these people are super skinny and they deserve to be skinny because they are taking care of themselves.

I do have one question to everyone.  Any suggestions on how to get rid of the love handles?  I only have 11 pounds to lose to reach my goal.  I don’t think all of that is going to come off my love handles and back.  I would really like to tone these areas. I would love some ideas for exercises that work these areas.

I hope everyone has a fun and safe weekend.

I think I might know why I am so weak, well besides being sleep deprived.  Today I found out that my protein level is really low.  I am going to try and add more protein in my diet and see if that helps.  I really hope so because I haven’t did really any house work this whole week and it shows.  I really need to snap out of this and be able to take care of my family.  And I want to start running again.  Right now my 2 year old runs faster then me.  His legs might be short but they are fast.   Well hope everyone has a great weekend. 

I am so sleep deprived right now.  I haven’t been sleeping well for about 2 weeks now.  I feel like I am dragging myself through the motions of life. I wish I could sleep.  I don’t function very well when I don’t have my sleep.  I actually slept through my alarm today.  I only had a half hour to get ready for work.  My hair is fuzzy because I didn’t have to straighten it how I like it.   I missed Moms and Muffins at my daughters school.  I will have to make that up to her.

The good thing is I haven’t had much of an appetite.  I have lost a few more pounds.  I don’t know if it will last.  But I am going to try my hardest not to gain them back.  I really need the scale to go down I have been up and down so much these past few months. I haven’t been able to run this week because I have been so tierd.I hope I can start again soon so I can finish my Couch to 5k in time.

I had an awaking.  I can have what I want all I have to do is account for it for that day.  I finally got all of your advice in my head.  Took me long enough.  Hopefully now I am on my way to success.

Breakfast-Nutra Grain Bar-130 calories

                    Yogurt-100 calories

Lunch-Frozen dinner-340 calories

Snack-cookie dough-kids wanted to make cookies

Dinner-Tilipia with rice and cooked veggies

Water-100 oz.

Exercise-to weak to do anything

I have really been beating myself up lately because I know I can do better.  The scale has been bouncing up and down everyday.  Well today I am not going to beat myself up.  I am going to be proud of how far I have come. I have lost 37 pounds.  That is more then i ever thought I could.  I know what I have to do to live a healty lifestyle.  I am excited to buy new clothes.  I used to hate clothes shopping now I love to find that I can actually wear cute clothes.  I love getting compliments.  I feel more comfortable with myself.  I know I can reach my goal.  I just need to focus and stay on track. I know I will slip up every once in awhile but thats okay.  I can move on.  I can do this I know it.  I want to focus on what I have accomplished and stop focusing on what I need to accomplish.

Morning weigh in 175.8

Breakfast-Strawberry Banana Smoothie

Lunch-Green salad with lettuce, tomato, carrots, ham, cucumbers and lite ranch dressing

Snack-2 bit-o-honey

Dinner-Hamburger

Water-100 oz.

Exercise-nada-I am wiped out

Have you ever wished you could read someone’s thoughts.  Well now you can.  I have been up since 3:30 in the morning I have had alot of different thoughts running through my head while I was laying in bed and then jumped in the tub.  Here are some of my thoughts.

-Why can’t I lose weight?

-I hate stretch marks.

-I need a tan.

-I only have 20 more pounds to lose.  Why can’t I just be strict for 3 months then I can maintain.  That’s all I am doing now.

-I can’t believe hubby only has 20 more pounds to lose before I owe him a Playstation 3.  I better start saving up.

-I really should just get up and exercise.

-Does my daughters lack of self confidence in front of other people have to do with my lack of self confindence in myself since I gained weight.

-I think I am addicted to sleeping pills.  Why can’t I ever sleep.

-I really need to plan some menus so I am prepared.

-That was really rude the other night when we went to McDonalds and the girl  taking our order  was texting on her phone and kept asking me “What”.

-I wish I had a cell phone when I worked at McDonalds so I could text my friends.

-We really need to have a BBQ or something and invite people over.

-I need to paint my toe nails.

-Why can’t I be more motivated.

-Why did I let myself go.

As you can tell I like to beat myself up. This is getting so old.  Me telling myself one thing then doing the opposite. The scale going up one day down the other then back up.  Why can’t I just focus on the end results? Do I not want it bad enough?  These are all questions I am asking myself.  Hopefully I am just sleep deprived and will snap out of it.

Daily Food Journal

Breakfast-PB&J-230 calories

Snack-Nutra Grain Bar-130 calories

Lunch-Frozen dinner-290 calories

Snack-fruit & nut bar-140 calories

carrots-35 calories

cookies-150 calories

Dinner-Steak and baked potato ?

Water-100 oz

Exercise-1.5 run/walk