I have been wanting to tell you guys this for a couple weeks but I wanted my family to know before anyone else. Apparently I AM special, I am in the .1 statistic on birth control. It is no wonder I couldn’t seem to lose much weight even though I tried really really hard. I was constantly hungry, but if I ate I would get nauseous. Yeah, I pretty much had every symptom and looking back I had to laugh because I overlooked them all. So anyway, I am about 8 weeks along (or at least that is what they have concluded from blood tests). So it pretty much goes without saying that I will no longer be trying to lose weight for awhile. I am trying to eat healthier, salads, lots of fruit, chili cheese burritos, very limited caffeine intake (maybe three cans of Diet Dew a week), did I mention chili cheese burritos (okay, so they are not so healthy, but I can’t seem to go without them lately, I am hoping that since I am eating a lot better, that craving will be replaced by one a little healthier). Anyway, I have gained a few pounds already that I probably shouldn’t have, but I am becoming more aware of everything I am eating this week and have pretty much got the excitement of food splurges out of my system. Anyway, just wanted to let you all in on what has been going on considering I haven’t posted in quite a while. Hope everyone has a great day.
I have a desk drawer full of “healthy” junk food. WW snack cakes, Curves Strawberries and Cream etc. I intend to have it there in case my blood sugar drops but I usually end up eating it when I am bored and think I am hungry. This morning, I went to tear open a curves bar and I stopped, told myself I was not hungry and put it back in the drawer. Yay for me!
I don’t know what I have been doing but I must have been busy. I gained a little Easter weight. Not surprised but my mom seems to think since all the kids are grown up we should all bring a pan of bars.
Anyway, I am burned out with work, home, trying to drop a few pounds. I get home and I am so tired, I tell myself that I have worked hard enough for the day and I will work out “tomorrow” which hasn’t happened. I just want to lose 15 pounds, why can’t I just get my head into it? Working on the attitude thing.
I made homemade ham and cabbage soup (I even made the broth with our Easter ham bone). Nope, I didn’t make it for a crazy diet thing, I made it because I had all the ingredients from a salad I had made and my mom had a ham bone. I have had a ham and cabbage soup before and really liked it. I didn’t really care for my own though. My mom said it lacked flavor, but I never expect a good compliment from her on anything, she can always find something wrong with everything.
Anyway, I have been in a bad mood for a couple weeks now but it probably because I have spring fever and spring doesn’t seem to wanna stay for more than a few hours. I am gonna get out of here before I get anyone else in a funk. Have a good day!
I watched “I Can Make You Thin” on TLC last night. For some reason it gave me a whole different outlook on a lot of things. It has the same basic theory as the core plan except you aren’t restricting any certain foods. You know, the eat when you are hungry, stop when you are full. Chew and savor your food, don’t shovel it in.
I have been trying it today and so far so good. I feel satisfied, not overly full. I ate two bowls of cereal this morning, I had a cupcake after I got to work and it took me 10 minutes to eat a cupcake that normally would have taken me 1 minute, if that, to eat. My blood sugar, which normally drops around 9:00 or 9:30 didn’t cause me any problems this morning. I think I have “point-counting burnout”. Counting points used to be really easy for me but lately makes me feel like a failure. I guess it is more about consciously eating.
I hope I can stick with this new way. I think if I do it for awhile it will be second nature. This is how I used to eat, back when life wasn’t so stressful.
THIS MADE MY DAY:
My co-workers daughter was going to see if my prom dress would work (it didn’t) but we decided it would be fun for the two of us to try it on. We are really close to the same body shape and height only she weighs about 15 lbs less than me. It still ALMOST fits me but the zipper always gets stuck 3/4 of the way up. Not too shabby considering my senior prom was 8 years ago. It fit her almost perfect which means I weighed less than I thought in high school and college. Only 15 lbs. and the rest of my life to hold it there. I don’t know why this excited me so much but it did.
I went another 1.1 miles (I think 1.1, it is written down on my chart which is out of reach at the moment) yesterday. I made lemon spaghetti and baked parmesan breaded chicken. I only had a small serving of the spaghetti because it turned out pretty sour, I had half a piece of the chicken and 2 really small pieces of garlic toast. It probably didn’t even equal one normal size garlic toast. I didn’t snack for the rest of the night.
Maybe I can do that again tonight.
Not much to say. I couldn’t squeeze in exercise Monday and Tuesday I went out to supper with my cousin so I didn’t get any in that night but last night I exercised. I am still at 141.0 I have approximated that I walked about 1.2 miles with my dog the day I walked him so with last nights mileage I am up to 10 miles. Not great but WAY better than I have been doing. Guess I am still trying to work on the food thing.
As long as I don’t quit, someday I will get to where I want to be. Maybe it will help to figure out where exactly that is.
Okay, I didn’t. That doesn’t mean I would not like to. I took my dog for a long walk and I have been bustin A$$ on the elliptical this past week and I am up .4 from last Monday. I have not figured out the distance for my walk so just with the elliptical alone I went 7.5 miles this past week.
I think I like this 50 mile goal. It is one of those goals that either gets done or it doesn’t. I don’t have to worry about plateauing at mile 41 or screwing up my metabolism at mile 37. I can see the progress every time I do it and it takes my mind off of goal weights, BMI and dress sizes. It also motivates me. It keeps me on the machine for the entire time I set it for and gets me going pretty fast in the last few minutes so I can increase the distance.
I think I am going to have to start measuring my food again. I measured out my peanut butter today at lunch and I am eating probably 1 1/2 times what I thought I was. I got rid of all the chips in my house except my husband’s which I don’t actually like anyway. I am working on going back to simple. I never really kept food in my house before maybe that is part of the problem now. My fridge and cupboards are rarely bare. I used to start every meal with a salad or cut up watermelon, now I never eat salad and very seldom eat watermelon. Tough to change myself when I don’t acknowlege my problems.
This time it is from me, about me. Losing weight sucks. Definitely not as fun as it was gaining it. My weight goes down, I get excited. My weight goes up, I get depressed, make up some excuse as to why it went up and go fix myself a snack to make myself feel better. For the past two nights, I have worked out. I have a 50 mile goal and I want to hit it. I also want to be down to around 125 by the time I get there. By this time, it should be a habit. I did 1.1 miles on the elliptical last night and .8 the night before. It really kicked my butt. It won’t take too long before I can get 2-3 miles in. I just have to keep at it and be patient.
Daily Weigh-In: 140.4.
I realized I am waiting for something. I don’t know if it is motivation or my wakeup call. But I don’t want to do that anymore. Both of my grandfathers had diabetes. After finding out I had hypoglycemia, I was been told by the dietitian that it is possible for my hypoglycemia to turn into diabetes. Why am I not taking care of myself? Will it take getting diabetes? Or maybe it will be when I have to take insulin shots or worse. Why am I relying on motivation that comes and goes? I need to just eat healthy and exercise more. It is so simple. Why does it seem so hard?
I got on the elliptical for 15 minutes yesterday. I did tricep dips while I watched tv with my husband. I did pushups during commercial breaks. I did squats and calf raises like someone said to do while brushing my teeth and taking a shower. I didn’t miss out on anything. I hope I can keep it up. My weight went back up to 141.2
Sorry for the rant. I hope everyone has a great day.
I am starting to get a little excited. I can see without headlights on my way to work in the morning and also when I let my dog out after work! I can’t wait until it starts warming up and I can take him for walks! It is almost March and winter won’t be here for much longer. I am at 139.2 today. Maybe I am finally getting back on track. That is all I really have to say about that.