After a long day of yard work and managing a small hangover 
my daughter and I headed to the grocery store. We picked up a canary melon thanks to Roni’s suggestion! I was dissapointed with my choice of melons. It was extremely watery, but the taste was awesome! My daughter and mom both tried it regardless of the excess water and loved it. I will be trying it again soon. My mom said to return it! Sounds weird to me! Anyway, we spent alot of time in the produce section and then got healthy snacks for after school for her. I also got turkey from the deli for sandwiches for me and the boyfriend for lunches. We both felt really good about our choices. When we were checking out, my daughter actually said that she was proud of us! Too cute!!
If I keep making small, healthy decisions it will catch up with me, right? Sounds stupid, but I talked myself out of a frozen custard malt yesterday. I opted for the frozen yogurt malt. Yes, I was late getting back from lunch, but it was a better decision.
John is moving in the end of this month and I am going to check on some jazzercise classes or something fun for Kamryn and I to do for exercise. I really think that she will like it- I know that I used to. (Note to self: You were 20 years old then—it will be harder now)
Went out with friends last night and was told that I was pretty. We were looking at some pictures I printed and more than once was told that. I never believe them, but it was nice to hear. Why when someone compliments me do I make a silly face or do the ‘whatever’ headshake?? Just accept the compliment- say ‘thank you’- try to believe them. I’ve never been ‘the pretty girl’ or the skinny girl or the fashionable girl. I’m always the funny girl. I can be funny AND cute! hmmm funny and cute. I’m gonna work on that!
I have been making better decisions and including the boyfriend without him knowing! hehe Sandwiches for lunch or dinner, Sprite zero, water or tea before asking him what he wants. He won’t catch on-that’s the best part! I received a couple of really nice, inspiring comments and I am really trying to take those words to heart. Thanks ladies- and I totally agree with your comments.
I have been really down on myself lately. I just feel like I can’t do anything right. I have been avoiding my site because I know that I have nothing really good to say. My wieght has increased as my self-confidence has decreased. I just want to be where I was 2 years ago. Is that too much to ask? I know it is all up to me- just be true to myself.
Watching Roni’s video the other day, I cried with her. I need to love myself first. I see myself as this gross monster and can’t get away from that. I feel like I’m not what John deserves–sometimes wonder why he loves me. Wow! That’s hard to say.
I have been making some good choices. Was at Quiktrip on Monday and got a banana instead of a donut or cookie. I brought clothes with me last night to go to the gym at Joh’s apartment, but we ended up at The Depot instead. Stupid girl!
Anyway, I am going to continue to make better choices and try to get into my own head.
So, I fell off the wagon. I fell off the wagon and hit my head. I fell off the wagon, hit my head and lost my memory. Geez Robin! The title of your site is ‘I’m REALLY Doing It This Time’—what happened??
Last week I started to count my points again. I have done pretty good. I am trying to hold myself accountable, not expecting other people to. I have to keep rejecting the food that the boyfriend asks me to eat. ‘No, I dont want a cajun pie from the donut shop!’ Why he asked me two or three times and then tried to put it in my face, I do not understand. He just doesn’t realize. He can eat anything. I secretly hate that.
I also started to work out with a buddy at work but I only made it 2 days last week. I think I want to start with points only and add in exercise later. I’m having a hard enough time with one let alone both at the same time.
Anyway, I’m back. I had oatmeal for breakfast, a chicken salad salad with lots of fruit for lunch and have had 2 squares of dark chocolate for a snack. For dinner I plan to have leftover pork tenderloin and vegetables.
So, Misty didn’t show up yesterday. (Did I say that?) I went to the boyfriend’s house last night. We went to Applebee’s for dinner. Was I good and ordered from the WW menu?? Of course not! ARGH! I ordered the trio special. 4 mozzerella cheese sticks, the fiesta lime chicken and then a chocolate mousse shooter! I regretted every indulgent minute of it! We did go to Bass Pro Shop and walked around a bit. Why can I not seem to make good dinner choices? I think it’s more when I am with John. Why do I do this to myself!
I was really thinking this morning that I would be up and back to a great day. I started off totally wrong and have just continued with it! I had a donut and cappucino for breakfast. A drug rep. came to my work with sausage rolls and I did resist. Yay! For lunch, a co-worker picked up chinese. I ate about half of my chicken fried rice and then headed off for my lunch work out. Note to self: Don’t eat chinese and then go work out! Anyhow, much to my surprise, Misty showed up today. She huffed and puffed her way thru the dvd. It kind of made me feel good that she is so small, but not in good shape. Is that a horrible thing to say?? Granted, she smokes, but wow! She really had a hard time with it! I’m told her that I am expecting her back tomorrow!
Well, needless to say, Misty didn’t come for the lunch workout. Her boyfriend was at her house so she decided to pass. She says that she will be there tomorrow. We’ll see. For lunch I had a panini and a yogurt. I just had a snack of 100 calorie pudding. Yum-o! I will be at the boyfriends tonight, so I will really try to make good choices! I promise!
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Ok…had to do that first, right! I know that I am the only one that will see it, but it’s an extra entry, right? Right.
Now, back to where I have been. Out with the stomach crud—I’d rather be doing my normal routine anyday! So, after eating away (only to make up for the 6 days I was sick. hehe) I am back on schedule today. I brought my oatmeal for lunch, a snack, a panini for lunch, a sugar free pudding for a snack. I LOVE when I plan ahead! It makes all of this soooo much easier. As I type, I am realizing that in all my planning, I forgot to grab lunch, etc. for Weds. and Thurs. CRAP! When I stay with the boyfriend, I don’t go home after work. I grabbed all my clothes and beauty stuff and hit the door running! ARGH! I’m rambling. Let me get back to my point.
After the holiday on Monday, I am off to work out at lunch and (hear this in your head as music)DUM DUM DUM—I have a work out buddy! My friend Misty lives right down the street from my brother and is not employed right now. As we were complaining Saturday night about our weight gain, I approached her with joining me and keeping each other accountable and she is totally in! Now, granted she weighs a mere 160 pounds, but to her that is unacceptable. She is the size that I want to WILL be! It is 11:40 and I am leaving at noon to meet up with her! Wish us luck!
Well, we didnt have dinner with our friends. We made a Quizno’s run. I had the Roast Chicken Salad, but used my own fat free italian dressing. We watched some tv and then headed to Braums to get a frozen yogurt. The big mistake—we went inside instead of going thru the drivethru! Anyone who knows me, knows that I LOVE a mojito and what was in the ice cream case??? CHOCOLATE MOJITO ICE CREAM! I caved. I did. I have a scoop of chocolate mojito ice cream in a cup. Could’ve been worse…I really wanted a double dip :) Unfortunately this morning I woke up with the stomach crud that has been going around work. I sit here at my desk just waiting for the next rumble. I hope I make it thru a full work day.
I did it again. I went to Eric’s house at lunch and did a full 30 minutes of the dvd. And i felt really good about it! (Aside from the heat puring out onto my head and Brisby breathing his breath of death at me the whole time! hehe) My food intake has been good so far. Oatmeal for breakfast, a dark chocolate kiss, more taco soup (I think it’s all gone *sigh* ), and a yogurt for my afternoon snack. I did have my yogurt early. It was chocolate and I was unfortunately craving chocolate. We are supposed to have dinner with some friends tonight, so we’ll see how I do! I plan on doing great!