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Then has anyone else noticed the recent Spam attacks here? They’re all about selling and buying cars, really strange comments!

Anyway, i dared to move my flabby self to the gym again for spinning first time this year! I’m so self-conscious lately, like i’m really scared i’ll get into other people’s ways in shops or at the gym because i’m so large. I never used to freak out that much about my size (well i have never been this large either ) but that makes me see that i must start shedding the lard now, because living like this is no fun! I feel like people look away when i’m around, maybe it’s just a feeling or maybe i’m just really irritating to the eye so they just don’t wanna see my puffy face. Oh dear i’m completely freaking out!!! The Hong Kong trip is approaching very fast, and i’m fantasizing about how to lose 15 pounds before i go… It’s been like this alot lately. I mean me being all motivated one week and then feeling all crappy the next one. When i booked the trip back in November i was really going to give it a 150 % of my will to stick to the Plan and shed a few pounds in order to feel more at ease with myself! Now it’s January 21st and i’m still 209 pounds and very unhappy!

 No point in moaning, right??? Yeah i know, it’s pathetic…. Well i’m proud to say i have been journalling the past 2 days (yey, what an accomplishment) and i intend to keep it up now! It really does help.

Tomorrow is Tuesday, it’s normally meeting day but i’m so scared to go back there and get actual proof (on paper) that i’ve been a failure these last couple of weeks, it makes me cringe! Hm but i guess i’ll have to face the mean meeting scale sooner or later? Hm crap!

Sorry for all the swearing, but i need to vent sometimes