I just can’t seem to make the time to blog. Too much going on.  Here’s an update.

I’m maintaining now. Would like to lose a little more, but I think original goal weight as set by WW charts is urealistic. Frankly, I’m happy where I am(except that I am in between sizes). I am still 20 lbs off from ‘their’ goal weight. It’s fine by me. I feel good and I can do stuff that I couldn’t before. I eat better(most of the time) and I’m more active than I ever was. I put on a pair of bermudas from last summer and my daughter and I had the same reaction. It’s just unbelievable how big I was. I could’ve fit one of my kids in the pants with me. Granted my kids are 6 and 9 and kinda small for their age, but still. So now I am in search of the perfect pair of black pants to wear to the wedding I have to shoot tomorrow. I have tried 14’s and they’re too big and the 12’s are snug. I am hoping to find a pair that’s a little lower waisted and maybe they’ll fit better. Who knows. My hubby is out of town, so I get to shop with the children. Hurray for me, I’m so lucky.

Because eat is what I did this week. I tried to make healthy choices, but at least once a day, I made bad choices. I had a SIL in town and we did lots of stuff with the kids, so there was not much avoiding it. I tried to make sure we had better dinner choices, but didn’t always happen. Then there was the night we went to the Irish pub in town. yuck, I would not cut it in Ireland. I only ate less than 1/2 my sandwich(which is good) but all my potato wedges. And no drinks, I hate beer. But coney dogs earlier in the day couldn’t be helped. Last night’s dinner, I just gave up. I even had a couple bites of the dessert my hubby and kids shared. But only a couple bites. and I was able to get to the Y almost everyday this week. I even did 30 MINUTES on the elliptical. WOooHOO for me. I haven’t done that before. Hopefully I will get back on track this week, the kids go back to school. Hopefully my son will quit with this on again, off again fever.  That’s all to report for now. have a good weekend!

Will this ever go away? Someday will I be able to be home and not find myself going back and forth to the kitchen. My stomach is full, but I really want something. I need potato chip flavored gum. Or maybe brownie flavored. Hmmm.

Went to work out this morning and it wasn’t productive at all. There weren’t 2 machines together anywhere to use. Then we realized registration for swim lessons had started and we needed to get them in before it filled up. So by the time we came back someone had taken the ellipticals that we pre-signed up for. Mean people suck. So we did the bike and some weight machines and that’s it. It felt like we quit. I gotta get back in the grove. Not to mention the weather sucks today and I have had a headache since Yesterday morning.

Tomorrow will be better, right? 

Ugh, this week has been such a struggle. It’s my TOM and it’s been hideous. All I want to do is eat. I’m not hungry, I just want food. I keep drinking water, hoping I’ll feel like I’m going to explode soon and lose the desire to eat. My pants just keep feeling tighter. I guess that might snap me out of it. I’m trying to take more time making my food, so I’m more careful of my points. Plus today is Saturday and that means no Y. I meant to do a DVD, but got sidetracked on the computer doing tax stuff. Everybody here just had ice cream, so I got myself a container of WW yogurt. There’s only 2 Peeps left in the house, maybe I’ll go eat those so their gone. I should be a little under in points so far today anyway. Tomorrow is another day.

I know you’re impressed, right? Yeah well I’m mostly avoiding doing whatever I should be doing(laundry, cleaning, etc). Kids are officially on Spring Break now. My little guy is feeling better form the fever he’s had since Saturday, now it’s just a cold. But he still had the fever yesterday, so no childcare at the Y for him. I got up and did one of my Core Secrets dvds. I need to try one of the other ones, the Fundamentals one is too easy. But I had an audience and a peanut gallery, so I kept it simple and quick. Not sure how well they work, but I’m not just sitting on my butt.

I just keep staring at the picture on my progress page from Easter and I can’t get over how great my legs look. I have always had fat calves and though that’s just how it was. I see the ladies on Biggest Loser and their’s never get much smaller and I hate that. I’m not sure what I have done to accomplish it, but I’m thrilled. And I thought ahead and have been spray tanning for about a week. I think that probably helps too. Tan skin always looks thinner. Just my theory.

Let me just say between the girls staying out of the bottom 2 last night on the Biggest Loser and my little victory of not snacking during the show, I was feeling really good last night. First, I have a horrible habit of snacking at night. You  can set whatever rules you want about not eating past a certain time, blah, blah, blah. If I’m hungry, I want to eat. Granted I have  made better choices(100calorie packs, 100 cal bags of popcorn, skinny cow ice cream, etc) but I’m still snacking. I sat down for the show last night and noticed I wasn’t hungry. SO I made a conscience decision that I wasn’t going to eat. I went and got my bottle of water and drank 32 oz of water during the show.(Course then I had to pee). When I finished the water, I got a piece of gum, then got my shower and went to  bed. I did it! So now I’m going to make a conscience effort to carry the water with me all the time.  So back to the show. Those ladies rock! I am so proud they held their heads high and gave it their all during the challenge, knowing they would lose. Then they kicked butt working out and pulled great numbers! They are awesome. maybe Dan should’ve quit shoving food in his mouth during the challenge. I could’ve lost more than a pound in a week and I don’t have a personal trainer, someone telling me what to eat and a gym at my disposal 24/7. Good riddance!

Go Ladies!!!!

OK so I’m not great at keeping this up. Maybe if I was I wouldn’t have eaten my weight in Peeps this weekend. Yes, I said Peeps. In 35 years, never has one of those colorful, sugar coated marshmallows passed my lips, until last week. And boy was I in trouble. I LOVE Peeps, first of all they’re pretty. And let’s face it that’s always appealing to us girls. They come in lots of pretty colors to go with all your outfits, to hide the sugar you drop all over the front of you when you eat them. Second, you get 5 in a serving! When is the last time you got 5 in a serving of ANYTHING! Third, they have a website http://www.marshmallowpeeps.com/ , with RECIPES! You melt semisweet chocolate chips and dip the Peeps in  it. (Ok, so there was my downfall. I should have seen it coming a mile away, but I didn’t.)   But let’s face it, after 65 lbs it was about time I lost it. It wasn’t undoable. I didn’t gain 65 lbs back. I was also PMSing BIG time, so we’ll blame that a little.  When I shook the  sugar high off on Monday, I realized the error of my ways and went to the Y. Good girl.

So last week I went on a mission to try something new at the Y and start doing the elliptical machine. I tried it awhile ago and almost died. I figure now I must have built up some stamina and I would try it again. So I did. I only did 5 minutes, so I wouldn’t get discouraged. I did it! I wasn’t really winded and nothing hurt, good sign. So I did it again(but on a different machine) and I almost couldn’t make the 5 minutes. There are 3 different kinds of ellipticals at my Y. One, http://www.globalfitness.com/used_fitness_equipment_product_pictures.asp?ID=186 has an adjustment for the incline(I haven’t tried this one yet). One has NO adjustment for the incline http://www.globalfitness.com/detail_elliptical_training_machine.asp?id=57#  and one has no incline(I’m not sure how else to describe it). My favorite http://us.commercial.lifefitness.com/content.cfm/crosstrainers (very similar to this one) is the one with no incline, it’s very smooth and my knees don’t hurt after I’m done. The one with no adjustment for the incline is the one that almost killed me. So now I have to get there in the morning and hurry to sign up for the right one, so I can do it. The early bird gets the worm, or the good elliptical in my case.

Anyway, update on me. I am down 65 lbs now. I can fit into a size 14 jeans and am buying mostly larges in shirts and things. I have also noticed that my size 11 shoes are also getting too big. I’ve never lost weight in my feet before, very bizarre. I feel great. I don’t hurt when I get up in the morning. I can fit in a chair with my child and I’m not afraid to sit in one of the chairs at school. I fit into my MIL’s cute little PT Cruiser now and I fit into booths at resteraunts. We’re going on vacation this summer with all my in laws and I can’t wait to fly. I won’t be spilling over into my kids’ seats. AND we’re going horseback riding and I won’t kill the horse. It feels so good. My hubby hasn’t said much thru the whole process, but at Thanksgiving he told me it looked like my sister and I were the same size. First let me tell you, I have always been the fat sister. My sister is 6 inches shorter and all the boys always liked her best. So to hear that, made me beam. This weekend when we were all together for Easter, my hubby told me I was thinner than my sister. Wow, I radiated. I know that sounds awful. I’ve been thru a very rough time with her over the last couple years. She left her husband for another man and expected us all to welcome him with open arms. I was devastated, as was her husband. He was the big brother I never had and always wanted. I have gotten past a lot in the last 2 years and the grass isn’t any greener for her where she is now. In fact where there is grass, it’s pretty brown. Needless to say she’s put on a lot of weight. While I don’t wish her ill will, it feels god to be the skinny sister. Hell I’m the skinny cousin now!

Enough rambling, I have a sick kid to take care of.

Until later!

Well I’ve been as bad with fod as I have keeping up with the blog. Well not quite. I guess I fell like now I have in my head about how much I can eat everyday, so I just quit writing it down. I’m still losing and I’m exercising. I even got out the ‘Core Secrets’ I got a couple years ago and started doing it. It’s not bad so far. Some days I walk and do the DVD. Yesterday I walked, raked leaves and walked again. Raking the leaves would have been enough. I was trying to get them done before the city workers got to our street to pick them up. Major cardio and my arms hurt more today then the first day i did my DVD! It’s all good though. I can see my body transforming from just the walking and the dieting. It’s amazing. I bought misses sizes again the other day. All my sweaters are huge. Can you believe how much cheaper misses sizes are compared to plus sizes! I couldn’t believe it!

The puppy finally has all his bandages off his foot, just today. he went for the works today. He got the last of his vaccinations, his bandage off and neutered. He is not happy. He won’t leave his stitches alone, so they put the dreaded collar on him. He hates it. But he can still eat with  it on, he looks like a vaccumn cleaner.

Oh well off to bed! 

at being a blogger,. I really am doing a good job journaling my food everyday. I just have too much going on to sit and take the time to do this everyday.

This weekend was busy. We had soccer and a bonfire Saturday and inbetween I took my daughter out to find the rest of her costume. She wants to be a pop star this year. UGH! She’s growing up. Last year she was Laura Ingalls and so cute! My mom always make their costumes and their SO cute. My son is going to be a pirate and she did a fabulous job. The dog is also going as a pirate with his peg leg, from his splint.

I ate horribly at the bonfire. But everything was sooooo good. And I stopped when I was full. I thought that was progress. I also had a couple Jello shots. They were pineapple. I love pineapple jello! Even without the booze. I never even knew there was pineapple Jello. Yum.

Feeling very tired today. It’s raining so no walk and because I want to take a nap. I might have to revisit the anti depressants if I can’t shake this. Everytime it rains, I feel exhausted. I can’t do this all winter.

Off to take my nap…

Ok so I’m not posting a journal tonite, but the puppy is passed out in my lap and I’m typing one handed. He looks like a baby. He got hurt Monday nite when my daughter tripped and fell on him(we’re not a very coordinated lot). His leg is in a splint for atleast the next 2 weeks and she had a tummy ache all day yesterday over it. Poor kid. Thank God she’s small or she could’ve killed him. He’s got a headstart on his Halloween costume, he’s going to be a pirate with a peg leg. I’m a horrible person. Get over it.

Food is going well. I had some vegetable soup my MIL made today for lunch. 1 point. But it had a lot of pepper or something in it and I ended up with terrible heartburn. If I make it, I’ll leave it out.  Tried the smaller jeans on last nite and they fit. Had some on that I haven’t worn in 3 years. And I think they looked pretty good, of course it’s my TOM and I’m all bloated, so I had a long shirt on. But still, there’s hope! Back to my walking again too. Atleast till it rains. I walked in the rain on Tuesday and ended up soaked. It was fine, but not something i want to do everyday.

I swear I will not go this long without posting again. That dog takes up all my time or parks his butt in my lap! It’s hard to type that way! I’m not going to go back and write all my food journals for all the days I missed. I will start new today, I am still journaling everything, just not here. We had a busy weekend. Soccer most of Saturday, we went to the local botanical gardens for a special medieval event(my son loves knights and dragons) and to a bonfire Saturday night. I blew it eating there, but hadn’t had much the rest of the day and figured I needed a reward, I had weigh in Saturday morning and was down 6 lbs. WOOOHOO!  I’ve got to get back on track with my exercise though. Sunday we had church and I took my Brownie troop to see a stage version of High School Musical here in our town. They loved it! I’m so excited.  I took a picture with my daughter at the gardens on Sunday and put it on my progress page. My jeans are all baggy and it looks awful. I need to get my smaller ones out and try them on again. I just don’t want to be disappointed. I guess that’s life.

oh and the kid who’s parent bitched me out the other day, made her husband drop her kid off for the field trip Sunday that she said ‘oh she probably won’t even go with out me’ . WHAT EVER!

Starting new tomorrow~