Simply for me

So, I’m still alive Diet wise in February, I just didn’t concentrate on it. My mind wasn’t into it - I only gain 2 pounds, which is good considering.  I haven’t exercise much, except my walk with the dog when it wasn’t snowing, raining, windy/cold. We have a crazy winter this year but at least we are having one (the last 2 winter, we didn’t get any snow (in Canada!) which was sad and boring.

So, things weren’t going as well as I expected in January. So I took some time off from the diet thing. I had WAY too much on my mind. I needed to clear out things in my head first. There was too many drama around me, negativety, stress and people complaining so I did a major clean up. 

In January I told you about a crisis with a friend, well, it’s not over. Someone got inlvolved, who shouldn’t be involved and he just can’t stop talking about me (yep, a HE, so not only SHE can be bitchy. lol). I just ignored him and did my things and people just kept telling me and warning me about his behaviour. So I starting to think about it and well, it’s not my fault if he has too many hours on his hand or if his gilfriend is too boring and he needs talk about me. There is nothing I can do or say and I don’t want to do or say anything to prove him wrong. I’m not going to lose time trying to convince him, while he means nothing for me, that I’m not the kind of person he claims I am. He wants to believe that, good for him. People who want to believe him without knowing me, good. Your lost. I don’t need you  (I must add that he is a colleague of mine, so at first it was pretty hard, I didn’t even get out of my cubicule to go to the bathroom! It was good for the diet though since I only ate salad for not having to go to the lunch room to heat my lunch.. heheh) 

And it was hard convincing me, but little bit by little bit, I started to feel better and well, people who never talked to me before started to come over to tell me what he was saying and how all they think he is a drama queen, a big baby (he’s 36!) and they are all happy to finally see him for what he is really. So, now I’m having new friends. Amazing how it turned out. (You can guess that he is even more mad now. lol).

In all that, 2 of my friends left the office to start a new job. They quit the same day and they didn’t know the other one was quitting also. But for 2 weeks before evertything was sure with their other job, I was their sponge and they just kept coming in my cubicle one after another. It was insane. It was a very stressfull situation.  I was very sad too.

Now, the first week just went by without them, and as much as I don’t like to admit it, the environment is better for me at work. Obviously, they didn’t like their job so what do you think they were doing? Of course, bitching about our employeur/work.  Until this week, I haven’t realized how much it was putting weight on my shoulders.  Oh and believe me, all those new “friends”, I tell them from the beginning that I’m not  the type of person who likes to sit around complaning AND I don’t like to lose time at work. They all understand so it’s a quick hello/fun chit chat and we all go back to work. (One even thank me for giving her a positive environment at work. that was nice!).

By Thursday, my closest friend told me he was seeing something different about me and couldn’t put his fingers on it (and we are close enough so he told me it wasn’t the pounds since I wasn’t loosing them. lol). That comment of his was all I needed to realized I was on the right track and way much happier.

No wonder I couldn’t put set my mind on the diet. I was all stress out/sad/angry and it wasn’t just too much. I didn’t realized how bad all that negativety was affecting me.

So today is a brand new start.  I believe I can do this and if I have nothing good to say, I won’t post it. I want to concentrate on the positive things in my life. I have everything to be happy; I need to focus on that. But I’ll be honest and will keep writing if I’m gaining or things aren’t going well…:)