Simply for me

 I don’t understand why some people don’t like animals. They bring so much into our human life! Yeah, my new hard floor is already all scratch, I need to vacuum more often because of the fur, I can’t leave the house for the whole day because of the dog… but it’s nothing compared to the joy and happiness they give me. No matter if I had a bad day at work, the dog is happy to see me and the 2 cats are fighting over whom I should pet first. It’s a great feeling. No explication; no compromise; they love us and they need us (well, the dog does! As for the cats… you all know how cats are. hehe).

So, Sandy loves snow (for a boxer, it’s rare!) but she gets cold and her paws hurt. So, we decided to buy her snow shoes and a coat. Well, I had to make a deal with the bf since he didn’t want his dog with boats and in a coat (I wanted a pink one). So he said ok for the boots IF he could chose the coat. I should have thought before I said yes because he went and bought a hockey jersey - Ottawa Senators..not even the right team (I’m more a Montréal Canadiens fan). I don’t remember the last time we laugh so hard; Sandy doesn’t like the shoes. not at all. She didn’t want to walk, she was just standing there. It was priceless to say her walk with those at first.  Tonight, I finally had my first attempt outside (she didn’t want to get out of the house with them in her feet. lol) and it took me like 5 min to get out of the driveway, laughing so hard… but I think she realized it was for her own good and started walking all happy. That made my day.  Here’s a picture of her, she’s truly a Canadian dog now

I forgot in my post earlier that I also got through my first PMS ever since I started back my healthy lifestyle. It went though smooth and without disaster!!

AND my friend who went home in France for the holidays was back this week and she brought me many boxes of cookies that are just D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S! And I managed to wait until last night to eat two!! I could hear them talking to me since Monday, but I waited (Friday and Saturday nights I treat myself with what my program called “Cheat Meal”) and they were even more delicious because I didn’t feel any guilt eating them

Voilà!  

First, I’m pleased to announce I’m -1 again this week. I wasn’t sure if I was too happy, but after a few minutes, I did a resume of my last 3 weeks and I’m pretty pleased with what I have accomplished so far: What used to be 6 cups of coffee a day is now a few cups a week (that I don’t even drink entirely) and it’s my first attempt to cut coffee without any symptoms, so that is a real big plus!  I’m exercising more than I ever did and really enjoying it. And for once, I’m putting myself first.

So this week was weird. Felt like everything I was trying, was a fail. Nothing major though, just little things that kept piling up; I kinda laugh about it though… it was one of those week where you wish you slept it all through.  At work, I was forgetting things, making tiny mistakes that I don’t usually do… I locked the cat in the closet, I forgot my shoes at home so I was stuck with my big boots in my feet all day at the office, I forgot to give breakfast to my dog…see the pattern? LOL I have dark hair but my bf always say that I have blond roots (sorry to all the blonds out there! hihihi). 

I had my first night of insomnia in over 2 months last night though. That suck. Luckily this morning wasn’t a week day, so I managed to lay on the couch to try to get more sleep, but all I did was resting my eyes.  I’m way too stress and everything spins in my head (the bills, the job, the new house, will I’ll have kids, should I listen my heart for once and not my head and go to NY like I’ve always dream of…All things like that.)  I’ve been told that my stress could be the cause of why I’m not losing as fast even though I do everything by the book.

I should be working right now, it’s already noon but I’m dreaking my tea, still in my pj, looking outside of my window hoping to see a hear or a deer jumps out of the woods behind my house. I see their trails they leave in the snow, so I’m hoping to see them one day I like this calmness… but I should get going.

Talk to you later and go outside take some fresh (cold) air

After more than a week away from the elliptical, I got back on it tonight and I’m just dead, but I feel so good.  I need to remember this feeling tomorrow night.  It’s way too cold to go outside (- it’s -30 C [don’t know the F degrees] but believe me, it’s dawm cold. Want a proof? Sandy escaped from the house this afternoon…instead of just running away, she rushed back in the house. LOL ) Actually, my boyfriend and I went for a walk last night and we were alone in the streets. We mostly ran instead of walking since it was too cold.  Sandy liked it (running)…. but running is way too hard for me. lol

A friend congratulated me that for once in my life, I stood up and said outloud how I felt (see Friday post). I’m usually the nice quiet girl who puts everyone else infront of her needs and I’m the one after who ends up hurt - which is the main reason why I eat.  So I said what i had on my mind and I was shock to find out that it’s true, I was able to move on.    I said that this year I wasn’t going to take any sh** from anyone. People who didn’t believe me, well, now they do :)   I’m turning 30 this year and apparently, it’s a normal process in the 30-crisis… Anyone who went through that crisis could confirmed it?

Talk to you later!

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I feel much better today. I haven’t heard from my “friend” but I have move on. Shit happens and I said what I had on my mind, so that’s why I can move on.

And it is such a beautiful day out, it’s hard to not have a smile on your face. Even though I didn’t have the time to just take it easy this morning, I took it easy. I woke up at 9 (which is pretty late for me!), ate a yummy breakfast (cereal and add fresh blueberries. mmmmm) and took time to drink my Lemon green tea while reading the newspaper. Sandy was sleeping under the sun, I had a cat on me sleeping and the other cat at my feet. I was in heaven.

But now I have to hurry if I want to sleep again this weekend. LOL

I’m thinking too to exercise in the morning BEFORE going to work (I start at 7:30) so that would mean I would have to wake up really early but I’m thinking about it.  On the bonus side, when I do exercise, I don’t want to ruin’ it by eating something I shouldn’t so that’s my main motivation for starting to work out in the morning. I’ll let you know if I had the courage to wake up at 5:30 MOnday morning. Heheheh

Later

I lost one pound this week. I’m very happy considering the fact that I had the flu, so I took medication all week, and didn’t exercises on the elliptical (but when walking so that I could breath fresh air. It’s always good when you have a headache.)

On another note, I’m pretty upset/sad right now. I cried for the last  5 hours but I’m better now. I’ve been betrayed by a real close friend of mine. I found out that she repeated something that I have told her to somebody else… I felt my heart squeeze when I find out. I don’t have too many friends and the one I have are really dear to me so that’s why I’m pretty upset and sad right now.  I’m proud of me though because I sent her an email instead of EATING my pain. I just couldn’t face her or talk to her on the phone so I chose emails.  I told her that I wasn’t mad but sad and doubted her friendship via myself. I don’t know how she will react, if she wants to be mad, fine, but I told her what I felt and I feel good about that.  Anyway, I’M probably the most bad lier out there so I wouldn’t have been able to face her like nothing happened.  Another point too I’m not hungry and didn’t go over food to feel less sad. It’s a first :)   I’m turning the page and like I said, if she wants to be mad, fine, but I’m moving on. She knows how I feel and it’s on her side to decide what she’ll do but like I told her, she is gonna have to work hard to gain my trust again.

 Have a great Friday.  My warm bath is waiting for me.

xxx

I’ve been feeling feverish since Sunday; my troat hurts and I’m always cold… looks like I have the flu. On Monday, I felt I had run a marathon when I woke up. I just hope I managed to at least maintain my weight. I take lots of NyQuil, DayQuil and I’m not exercising much. When I take medication, my body retain water.

We’ll see on Friday morning.

Going under the blanket on the couch with the doggie at my feet and the cats on me. They surely keep me warm

I’m having an ok weekend. My boyfriend is working so I’m kind of bored. I’m not used anymore of him working during the weekends. We barely see each others during the week because he works most of the time evening shift. Hopefully, he’ll ba back on his regular shift soon (I don’t care if it’s night shift and we don’t get to see each others during the week, I prefer by far having him at home the weekends.).

I’m having a really bad craving right now. Do you know what is a poutine? That’s what I’m craving. I don’t think there is a fatter “meal” out there…lol (here’s a picture of a poutine if you never saw one  .)  It’s made out of french fries, gravy and cheese. It was invented in Québec, but there are everywhere now (in Canada at least). MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!! I don’t crave poutine often, but when I do, watch out.  Luckily, my fave one is from the restaurant Ashton, and there are only Ashton in Québec City (I lived there during 4 years and my bf is from Québec City). That would be so good…. I have to be strong and I have to keep it to myself. If I tell my bf, for sure he will want one and will encourage me to get one. LOL

I just got home from the park. I went there with my 2 friends and their dogs. Our dogs get so along, they are very fun to watch play togheter. Unfortunally, because it’s winter, we have no field to let them run and they have way too much energy.

Well, gotta go start thinking about something else than my poutine!!!!!

and I’m -4 on the scale That was a shock! I had to step back and step on the scale a few times. Hihihihi I wasn’t expecting a big start like that.

I had a very busy week (that explains the lack of blogging) and my weekend is going to more busy, but I’m taking the time to exercising. I might have to go to bed later because of that, but it’s worth it. I feel better, I have more energy and I sleep better, so technically, I need less hours to have a good night of sleep.

Each Friday night I have a date with my baileys and coffee (or ice in the warmer nights), with my soft blanket and the couch. I watch a movie (or a few tv shows that I’m  recording during the week). So while making my coffee I realized that it was my first coffee of the week!! I haven’t realized that I didn’t need a coffee at all to kept me going this week. That, I’m very proud. I just LOVE coffee and get addicted to it pretty fast. I’ll stop by the store and pick up some decaffeinated ones instead. (I was wondering last night If I should drink one, but I needed baileys. LOL)

Thanks to all of you!!! I didn’t think blogging would be such a help!