So I think its helpful for me to acknowledge the fact that this first 11 pounds or so is mentally a bit tougher to lose.  By aknowledging that I think it will allow me to not give up so easily.  Its hard in that I have already lost, and re-lost and re-lost this weight from 190 to 179.  I just need to admit that I HAVE NOT been maintaing, as I like to tell myself.  I have been yo-yoing, on a small scale, but still its a yo yo.

179 feels good to me.  I am happy there.  And once I get there, losing the weight to get to 169 will be a new challenge, it won’t be losing what I should have kept off in the first place.  Now, this first phase just feels like I am washing the kitchen dishes after I JUST ran them through the wash machine.  It feels like such a poor use of time to have to lose this same weight again.  I wrote in my last post that I now have said good bye to the 190s for good.  And I am really looking forward to waving goodbye to the 180s for good as well.  One and a half pounds lost, 9 and a half pounds more to lose until I leave the 180s.

In a future post, I think I need to really do some soul searching as to why I am re-losing this weight again.  I was thinking it would be helpful to have a visual-  a graph of my weight over the years, with significant life events to try to understand what were the triggers to get me of course.

Yep, yep, yep-  I’m on my way.