Core and Sugar

Today is day 4 back on track. I am doing CORE. I love it for so many reasons. It is really what I need right now. I originally was scared that I wouldn’t be able to control my calories on CORE, that I wouldn’t stop eating when I am full. AND I worried i couldn’t lose weight on Core. Well, i still don’t know if CORE will be as effective at losing weight, but I have decided I don’t care. I have learned so much in switching to Core (i had started core earlier and done it for several weeks pre-pregnancy). I am learning that I AM in control when it comes to the Core foods, I almost never over eat and get stuffed on those foods. The biggest thing I have learned, is that (at least for now) I do not know what feeling hungry really feels like. What I mean is that I don’t know the hunger in the stomach type hunger. The “hunger” I have been responding to (for a really long time) is low blood sugar discomfort. AND I think this has been exacerbated by possibly a sugar addiction (rush/crash/rush/crash, etc). These first 4 days of having very little sugar or processed foods I have physically felt awful- my body is going through withdrawal I think. The headaches have been severe. But I did a lot of online reading and I trust it will get better. I really look forward to getting my this aspect under control so I can start learning to respond to stomach hunger and not only being controlled by my need for SUGAR.

Today I have pre-planned a lot of Core foods for easy eating so hopefully i can ONLY eat core today. I ate 39.5 out of my 35 extra points already and its only been three days. So, i’ll have to work on that. I think i should start blogging what I spend my 35 points on so i can track those choices. This week some of them were bagels, feta cheese, deli meat, craisens, cream cheese, two cookies, chocolate cake. Not terrible choices , but could be better. At least they have been in moderation.
Choosing the magic number

Roni’s question of the day was how did you pick that magic number, the ultimate goal weight.  I wrote in my blog that my goal is 170-175.  That is actually my “less risk” goal.  To be honest, I have always had this “number’ in my head that I wanted to get to. i really would like to be back in the 160s. The lowest I have been at since I started WW was 172-174. My lifetime goal was 177 and I was able to maintain that for quite a while (I would bounce between 174-179). But I never believed I could actually get down to the 160s so I settled for 177. And I did feel healthy at 177 and pretty happy with how I looked. BUT. . i still want the 160s. For a long time I wondered if that number was just random and if I really needed to get down to the weight to love how I looked. So I started paying close attention the the WW success stories online. And I would look up their height and final weight and compare it to the WW guidelines chart for healthy weight.  AND EVERY after picture that really inspired me that was a body figure I would like to look like (every single one) was right around the maximum weight for 25 year olds and under (give or take a few pounds or so). I was amazed at how consistent it was. So, I looked at the high end range for 25 year olds for my height (even though I am beyond 25!) and the number. ? …? is 165. So, it validated that my magic number may very well be a healthy weight and a realistic goal. I don’t yet believe that I can maintain 165 let alone even get down to that weight. But I am working on mentally talking myself through that. Because I really want to keep that as my end goal- I want to beleive that some day somehow I will get there!! Coming to grips with the fact that sugar currently has power over me has actually given me some hope that I can a) get my sugar roller coaster under control and b) solve some of my ups and downs and plateaus that kept me from getting to the 160s before.