I’ve never had so many comments before.

Of my 58 comments, all but 5 were spam.

I’ve never had 5 real comments before! xD

 thanks everyone =)

Well I’ve finally gotten over that cold, I still have a bit of a cough but it’s fading quickly. Last night I threw up for the first time in a VERY VERY long time. I don’t think I’ve thrown up in a few years. My 8 month old nephew was vomiting the other day so maybe I caught whatever he had. Anyway it seems to be better thismorning. Later if I don’t feel sick again I’m going to run.. I am i am… or walk.. whichever I feel up to. I ordered some shoesies …. if they don’t fit very nicely they’re going back. My sister and I spent most of the day reading shoe reviews & sending links back & forth. 

So.. today & weighed myself… the main reason i’m posting 272 … yay

I’ve decided I am going to keep blogging here. There are many things going on in my personal life that I don’t want to put in an online journal. At the same time, there are several things that I can’t talk about with the people in my life that I do need to get out of my system. I think I’ll be able to calm myself down and quit having emotional breakdowns if I manage to open up to the right people about the right sorts of things. When it comes to personal things such as weight, diet, and exercise I don’t feel comfortable talking with anyone I am around on a day-to-day basis. When it comes to other sorts of issues, some of them I need to deal with internally and some of them I need to take up with the other people involved. I think I can do this with a balance between this blog (health), a private journal, and by kicking myself and making myself open up to the people around me how I really feel about certain things. I don’t feel any use for keeping a daily food journal. Tallying up for the day helps me not overeat on a day-by-day basis but I rarely review anything other than the current day. I probably won’t post as frequently as I have in the past but I do think I’ll continue posting especially now that the internet in my bedroom has been restored and my only access to the internet isn’t my parents’ computers or at work. Keeping this blog has helped me in a few ways, but I don’t think it’s really helped me with what I eat, this is why I’ve decided not to keep a food journal. Honestly, most of the time I know that I’m eating something that’s unhealthy or a poor choice. On another note, the chart of my weight has really helped. The further that little slider gets to the right the more I think :O YAY I really AM getting somewhere. Especially once it hit the halfway mark (on the current goal).

Recently I got excited because I thought I would be able to join an aerobics group that has been going on for long enough I honestly don’t know when it started. I even talked to the teacher/leader of the group about it and she was excited I’d be comming back. Then I realized that it starts before I get off work which had me really down because the group feel is really encouraging to me. I feel motivated to keep up and keep going.

I started a marathon training group with my sisters a while back. Honestly, it was just to give me motivation to acctually exercise. I thought we’d be able to get a bigger group and that it would give me that feeling that helps me so much. Since our group is so scattered, we haven’t ever all run together. I’ve only ever done 1 run with others, there were 3 of us. I don’t think my Mom’s done any training at all and one of my sisters has kept on {the} track really well. Two of my sisters don’t know if they can afford to sign up (45 if registered before Jan 1st, 55 after) and I don’t know if I’ll be able to get TO the marathon. Some group effort. However this paragraph was supposed to be about the encouraging part of this whole mess. I just got off track. I started an online MSN group, Centennial Runners, for us to post on since we live so far apart and group e-mails aren’t as cool. Everyone but Mom has joined the group. I don’t think Mom’s really going to do it, though she sounded like she wanted to at first.

So far I’ve bought a sports bra and some shorts that are supposed to wick moisture away better than cotton. I haven’t used either yet because I haven’t been running.

To get over the blues about the aerobics class I ordered this set of exercise vids and an exercise ball that’s about the size of a 4square ball. It was only 17 dollars after shipping was added and it seemed pretty typical but It’s a routine set up by someone else that I just have to follow. Pure mental laziness on this one. It’s the only way I think I can stick to a routine.

So, now I’ve gotten you all up to date on my thoughts over the past few days. I also have a post I wrote earlier today in notepad.  I’m going to post it seperately then go do what the other post says ;) 

Best Wishes to All

~*Nancy*~

P.S. I’m going to weigh in when I go to the treadmill and post it right here

Current Weight : 273

So, it’s been a week since I last posted. Did anyone notice I was missing?

Friday afternoon I left town to go to my sister’s wedding. While I didn’t totally pig out, I didn’t stress about what I eat while I was gone. I know the day of the wedding was my worst day. But I don’t care. It was fun, and it was a once-in-a-lifetime event. I just wasn’t going to stress about food during that. However, I was home tuesday night. I did in fact weigh and measure last week, weight was 282, scale is only accurate to the half pound I will backdate a post for all the measurements. While I was gone I weighed myself daily, it was always right by 280, the scale I used was the kind that a number disk spins around, it  was difficult to tell the exact weight. When I started working on everything I was at 295 which will be my starting point on my graph. My goal weight I’ll put at 200 for now even though my long term goal is really around 160.  School started up again yesterday. Scheduleing is being a nightmare right now. I have been completely off track for a week now. I’ll weigh myself later and edit it in. Hopefully I can come up with some goals that are more well-defined.

 So, because I had such short notice for my sister’s wedding I was not able to fit into my silver suit another 60 lbs should do it. So, while I was away I went shopping. I bought a nice brown skirt and a light dusty blue blouse, kindof twilight colored. Then i realized I had No brown shoes with me. I usually have a terrible time finding shoes so I bit my lip and told myself you’ll just have to wear black shoes with a brown skirt if you can’t find anything. Well, the first shoe store we went into, payless, had a pair of brown heels with a thin bow on the front in my size. They were adorable. I just thought “this is too good to be true” so I held my breath and tried them on. They fit PERFECTLY. I was so elated I could hardly think straight. I looked around and found a pair of black ones that were quite similar, no bow but a little strap across the front, they fit too, but in a size smaller. I also found a pair of black shoes that are identical to ones I wore out a couple years ago and have been wanting to replace ever since. Then I found these casual brown shoes that I’ve been looking for for three years. Needless to say, I bought them all. Everyone was shocked that I bought 5 pairs of shoes but they don’t understand how hard it is for me to find shoes (size 11:(). I LOVE that payless… I must return one day :). The other shoe store we went to after payless was much more pricey and nothing caught our eye.  So we decided we were done shopping. Anyway, I MUST post those shoes on here … :). They’re so cute :). I also now have a recent picture that I can post… I’ll have to crop myself out of a group shot but then you can all see me.

Back to real life … Work, school, excercise, cleaning, laundry, blogging, homework, [EDIT: and sleep] all crammed into so few hours. I must make sure to get all those things in.

 Nancy