=] how are you today?

 I was checking my email and had one from Roni about changes to the website. I haven’t been here for a long time. I haven’t done much with my health. I’ve been working on a new plan, by me, based on all my knowledge, customized for me. I’ll share when I’m done. Mostly it’ll be a journal. I might like put weekly or montly updates on here. I kindof miss you guys! I didn’t miss the 47 “adult video” comments that I just deleted but hey, that’s the way the internet goes. 

So a little update on my life.

I got my associates of arts - general emphesis degree this weekend. It doesnt really feel like an accomplishment cause I’m going right back to school this fall for an associates degree in Nursing. I finally decided what I’m going to do, for a while anyway. I’m going to be super busy with everything and well….  We’ll see how things go.

 As far as health/fitness goes I’ve been eating better overall. I did make some changes that have stuck. I’ve recently begun being a little more active as well.

Best Wishes to all of you, congratulations on all your hard work.

Nancy

I’ve decided I am going to keep blogging here. There are many things going on in my personal life that I don’t want to put in an online journal. At the same time, there are several things that I can’t talk about with the people in my life that I do need to get out of my system. I think I’ll be able to calm myself down and quit having emotional breakdowns if I manage to open up to the right people about the right sorts of things. When it comes to personal things such as weight, diet, and exercise I don’t feel comfortable talking with anyone I am around on a day-to-day basis. When it comes to other sorts of issues, some of them I need to deal with internally and some of them I need to take up with the other people involved. I think I can do this with a balance between this blog (health), a private journal, and by kicking myself and making myself open up to the people around me how I really feel about certain things. I don’t feel any use for keeping a daily food journal. Tallying up for the day helps me not overeat on a day-by-day basis but I rarely review anything other than the current day. I probably won’t post as frequently as I have in the past but I do think I’ll continue posting especially now that the internet in my bedroom has been restored and my only access to the internet isn’t my parents’ computers or at work. Keeping this blog has helped me in a few ways, but I don’t think it’s really helped me with what I eat, this is why I’ve decided not to keep a food journal. Honestly, most of the time I know that I’m eating something that’s unhealthy or a poor choice. On another note, the chart of my weight has really helped. The further that little slider gets to the right the more I think :O YAY I really AM getting somewhere. Especially once it hit the halfway mark (on the current goal).

Recently I got excited because I thought I would be able to join an aerobics group that has been going on for long enough I honestly don’t know when it started. I even talked to the teacher/leader of the group about it and she was excited I’d be comming back. Then I realized that it starts before I get off work which had me really down because the group feel is really encouraging to me. I feel motivated to keep up and keep going.

I started a marathon training group with my sisters a while back. Honestly, it was just to give me motivation to acctually exercise. I thought we’d be able to get a bigger group and that it would give me that feeling that helps me so much. Since our group is so scattered, we haven’t ever all run together. I’ve only ever done 1 run with others, there were 3 of us. I don’t think my Mom’s done any training at all and one of my sisters has kept on {the} track really well. Two of my sisters don’t know if they can afford to sign up (45 if registered before Jan 1st, 55 after) and I don’t know if I’ll be able to get TO the marathon. Some group effort. However this paragraph was supposed to be about the encouraging part of this whole mess. I just got off track. I started an online MSN group, Centennial Runners, for us to post on since we live so far apart and group e-mails aren’t as cool. Everyone but Mom has joined the group. I don’t think Mom’s really going to do it, though she sounded like she wanted to at first.

So far I’ve bought a sports bra and some shorts that are supposed to wick moisture away better than cotton. I haven’t used either yet because I haven’t been running.

To get over the blues about the aerobics class I ordered this set of exercise vids and an exercise ball that’s about the size of a 4square ball. It was only 17 dollars after shipping was added and it seemed pretty typical but It’s a routine set up by someone else that I just have to follow. Pure mental laziness on this one. It’s the only way I think I can stick to a routine.

So, now I’ve gotten you all up to date on my thoughts over the past few days. I also have a post I wrote earlier today in notepad.  I’m going to post it seperately then go do what the other post says ;) 

Best Wishes to All

~*Nancy*~

P.S. I’m going to weigh in when I go to the treadmill and post it right here

Current Weight : 273

274.0

Well I was going to treat myself to something when I hit 20lbs but I think I’ll count last night for that. My sister came over and dyed my hair and her hair and then we sat around and ate nachos … My hair’s so pretty now *pets* hehe

Today I have to write a 4 page paper that is 30% of my grade, present its conclusion in class, run from class to practice.
Tomorrow I have work in the afternoon, ending at 6pm, and I will probably have to be already dressed etc ready for warm up by 6 or 6:30. That’s gonna be fun… We’ll find out the time tonight.
Thursday I have work in the morning and I’ll have to be dressed & ready at the same time as tomorrow.
Friday afternoon I have my math final.
Some time before friday afternoon I have to go to the college & take my literature final.
Sometime before tomorrow night I have to put the hem in my skirt. 

As far as exercise goes I haven’t been doing much for a while. This week is finals week, I’ll have much more free time soon. I will get back on track with my running this weekend.

For the past few days I’ve been trying to keep what I eat to 3 dairy (incl soy substitutes), 3 meats, as many fruit and veg as I can fit in :P, 6 grain servings, as much whole as I can. I’m trying to only imbibe in sweets or less healthy foods like chips if it’s a social occasion. It’s almost working

Here’s my food journal

Wed Nov 28th
Cherry Orchard Yogurt
Med-Lg Banana
2 Corn Dogs
Snap peas with ranch
Symphony Bar

Thur Nov 29th

I didnt’ write it down

Fri Nov 30
Yoplait Yogurt 1 dairy
Blueberry Cereal - dry - 1 whole grain
Cottage cheese & chips - 2 dairy
flipz - chocolate covered pretzles - 1 grain? xD
Stew - meat & veggies

Sat Dec 1
Dried Apricots 2 fruit
Flips ….
Salad - 2 veggie
Peanut butter sandwich - 2 serve pb + 1 grain
Sunday
Rice Chex Cereal + soymilk 1-2 grain 1 dairy
Apple + PB 1-2 fruit + 1 protein
Chicken Breast
Green Beans - 1 veg
Stuffing - 2 grain
Carrots & Broccoli 3-4veg

Monday
Yolplait - 1 dairy
PB&J sandwiches - 3 grain, 3-4 protein, dare i say 1/2 fruit? it was strawberry preserves
1/2 milky way

Nachos with salsa & sour cream - 2 grain 2 dairy 1 veg, possibly more
almond roca

I just found this site, its pretty good. I think I’ll use it to help me determine food exchanges.

http://www.exrx.net/Nutrition/FoodExchanges.html

My mood is going up and down up and down quite badly today. Earlier I was so down about this weekend. Just now I was practically flirting with my sister’s ex-boyfriend who she was going to marry at one point but then she dumped him, he’s married now to someone else, and has kids. Still, i’m a flirt… I gotta knock it off.. Some days I flirt with everyone I see. Blah. While I’m doing it I don’t really notice.

Gotta stop…

I’ve been feeling verytalkative all day, wanting to post everything that pops into my head. It has acctually been going on for a few days. Friday I was talking to someone I used to be close friends with but haven’t really talked to much in a few years and I told her that I lost 15 lbs… It was strange, because, outside of this blog, I usually completely avoid the subject of my weight. Somehow I knew she’d be excited for me, which she was. She’s living in Texas right now, for school. I made a joke that she might not recognize me when she comes back. That would be cool…

Saturday I did really well. Except for not getting enough fruits and veggies, I met all my other goals. I did better on saturday than I’ve done since I started blogging. It’s disheartening though, because saturday evening I felt poorly. Then on sunday I had that binge. I never would have thought that meeting my goals would make me feel worse. Here’s hoping that when I weigh in tomorrow it makes it all worth it.

Right now I’m between sizes too. A lot of clothes that fit last winter are too big but all my smaller stuff from a few years ago is too small. I feel grungy and sloppy in baggy clothes and I feel really fat and ugly in tight clothes so.. Baggy it is. 

Except, go figure, today i’m wearing clothes that are too tight. All my skirts are too tight right now. Nearly every single one of em. But my shirt is too small right now too… A few of my shirts have been big lately..  Just not this one.  I wore this outfit cause I love it. Well, at least my legs look nice, my belly looks awful … o.0 i think im just bloated. I hope i’m just bloated. *sigh*

Woo hoo.. another baggy shirt yay! … If I keep this up I’m gonna have to take in some seams … I love this shirt! It’s so baggy I’m afraid I look funny…

Yesterday I wore a shirt I couldn’t fit into last Christmas.

Ok so, today I guess I’ve had a bit of emotional eating going on. I’m kind-of annoyed that I’m working on a holiday, even though It’s fairly typical for me to do that, it just bothers me every time. Also, the last week’s events haven’t helped much.

So I’ve had lots of junk today.
Cinnamon roll (these things I refer to are like 400 calories each)
Frappuccino (200 calories)
Some wheat thins
12 oz can Root Beer
Candy bar with nuts on it.. I can’t think of the name right this minute, not a snickers… the one with the silver wrapper
is that all? I can’t think of anything else… I think my appetite’s acctually changing.. YAY

Friday  - Food Journal

Thismorning when I got dressed I was surprised to find that a shirt I’ve had for 6 years is suddenly baggy on me. I’ve had it be loose at the stomach before, but it’s even quite loose around the bust and arms and everything. It almost feels a size too big! =) However, my skirt doesn’t feel big at all. Just an interesting note to add to my journal today =)

I had an 860 calorie breakfast around 10 am consisting of packaged cookies and a starbucks mocha frappuccino. I don’t think I ate anything until I drake a Dr Pepper on break at class, around 3. Around 5 I had some veggies with dip. I resisted candy bars at least 3 times today. Sometimes I look at my journals and think I didn’t do so great that day. I realize that I need to include all the things I avoided eating, that’s where my progress is.  I’ve avoided eating so many things that I have not even mentioned in my journals. The days that it looks like I did really really poorly are acctually what used to be typical days for me.