a new day, a new lady

I know this. That’s what’s so awesome about life because you are always given a new opportunity to start over, start fresh, start a new - hence the title of my blog.

I have taken my fair share of new opportunities. I wish that I didn’t have the NEED to take them though. I have been been yo-yo’ing with the same 5 lbs for almost 2 months now. It’s starting to get a bit ridiculous. It’s just seems to have happened that every time I reach a mini-goal there happens to be some birthday, some break, some holiday and while I try to stay on plan during those events, I never seem to come out on top of those “battles.” And I know that this is a part of life, mistakes happen and we learn. It’s just blah - I can’t help but think that I’ve lost the same 5 lbs three times now, that could have been 15 lbs instead of starting at ground zero!

I mean, I’m not at all giving up…I don’t feel defeated…I’m just a little frustrated. Interestingly enough, when I did weight watchers the first time around, I was .4lb away from reaching 60lbs! Only a measly .4lb away and I never got there. I just started gaining weight, slowly but surely until I had put about 22lb back on. And it happened at THIS EXACT TIME OF YEAR. It was like the end of January and it all just slipped away.

I have analyzed all the different reasons this could have happened (new medicines, being scared of success, etc.) and I’ll never truly know the answer. I do know that I don’t want that to happen again. I just want to get the ball rolling once and for all. I don’t want to lose and gain the same weight over and over again.

So today is a new day, these past 5 minutes have been a new 5 minutes. I can do this, I know I can.

Now I’ve got to go adjust my “goals and time line” because unfortunately there is no humanly way I’ll have lost 10 lbs by April 20th. Doesn’t mean I won’t try my hardest but I want to lose the weight in a slow and healthy way so that I know I can keep it off.

Oh well, it’s all good. I have total faith in myself, just had to vent a little bit! Thanks for listening/reading! Sorry I’ve been so MIA. I’m back for good now and don’t have to travel again for like a month SO that’s one solid month to totally get back on track and develop a plan of action for the next time I do have to travel!

Hope everyone is having some better success than me. Hopefully I’ll be joining y’all soon!