my head hangs in shame…
Posted by Kristi on March 10th, 2008
because I’ve had such a disastrous past 5 days! This is the first time I’ve really just “let go” since I started. And I didn’t really let go because I was still counting the points but I was just overeating (well not even overeating but just eating the WRONG things to begin with but at “normal” portion sizes).
I mean it started after my weigh in, Wednesday and Thursday night were NOT good because I got lonely and TOM got the best of me. Friday I was back on track, planned ahead for the rodeo and all. I get to the rodeo (I went with my family and a friend) and EVERYONE wants the worst stuff they’ve got. And there was nothing healthy to begin with unless I got a 1/2 lb burger and didn’t eat the bun. But it was like “split the hamburger and fries with me and split the chicken fingers with me…ohh and let’s get chili and cheese for the fries on the side.” Uhhhh I tried my best to only eat a little bit - a “healthy” portion size of the two since I really didn’t have any other options but it still made me feel gross inside.
So I get back on track Saturday morning, I drove to Galveston with my two best friends. We had enough groceries for lunches and breakfasts but said we’d go out for dinner - this healthy little place down the island - but yeah, we got too tired for that so I ended up just snacking on the “healthy” things I’d brought and some of the NOT-so-healthy stuff my friends had brought. *le sigh* This repeated itself during the day Sunday until I got home to my parents last night where I had begged my mom to have a HEALTHY dinner fixed. Thank goodness she delivered! I got back on track and felt great!
Then this morning, I got up at 5am to drive back to Austin for ONE day of work - grrrrr - it’s supposed to be spring break but they (my bosses) are kind of bending the rules and evidently offering to “treat us to lunch” for coming in on our spring break - I’m sure THAT’S gonna be REAL healthy. What’s the polite way of saying “No thank you, I brought my own (healthy) lunch”?
But yeah so the drive up, I had TWO cups of coffee - the “skinny” latte kind - but I also had a croissant from Starbucks and then because by the time I got to work at 9am I was hungry again, I had a cinnamon raisin bagel 
I mean I KNOW it could be worse but I just don’t like it. Today was supposed to be my 6 lb goal date and I was only .4 lbs away!! What the heck happened?
I mean I know I’m just going to pick myself up and continue on and make the best decisions I can. I know I can’t concentrate on the past anymore because it IS in the past (and in my stomach too - lol - actually, that’s not too funny) But it does suck to step on the scale and see this number that basically erases the past 2 weeks of hard work.
What is it with this past week and weekend? From reading others’ blogs it looks like EVERYONE struggled - and if you didn’t, more power to you!!!
Hopefully we can ALL get BACK ON PLAN - TOGETHER!!
*and on a TOTALLY random side note - why do significant others have to be SO DAMN DIFFICULT and IGNORANT and JERKY sometimes? I just want to SCREAM and I am NOT a screaming type person. Grrrrr!*
March 10th, 2008 at 12:23 pm
Oh my goodness girl…pick that head up…put a smile on your face. Do you remember last week when you Jogged…I do…and you did it more than once…talk about a victory!! Get back on track and don’t beat yourself up anymore…it’s over…it’s done and it’s time to get it together. Remember runners legs girl…lets get us some of those runners legs!!!
March 10th, 2008 at 1:19 pm
Hi Kristi,
I’ve been reading your blog for a couple of weeks now and always enjoy your posts. I peeked at your pictures also and your a beautiful girl. Great job on your progress thus far! Now back to your post today, I agree that food control seemed to have been an issue this weekend. I just wrote about this same problem on my post today. Was it a full moon? anyway I don’t know what it is that is causing us to gravitate toward bad food choices, something has to be up haha lol! But honestly I think that you have been doing great and just think of this as a temporary set back (maybe try a new goal of hitting your 6 pound mark by next week.) I was also really down and dumping on myself this morning, but I went to the gym and now I feel much better and looking forward to staying OP again. Keep your chin up, your progress so far is nothing to be ashamed of!
March 10th, 2008 at 1:20 pm
Kristi!
You have made fantastic progress–lift your head high! Be proud of yourself! Your a beautiful young lady! LET IT GO–you can’t change the past, but you control the “NOW”–stay the course!
March 10th, 2008 at 3:32 pm
Hey, the most important thing is that even when we have setbacks not to lose faith!!
Besides you did have it on your mind the whole time.
March 10th, 2008 at 4:34 pm
OMG - I think you are my alter ego that lives in Texas! You are killing me! I had the worst weekend and totally blew it. I have been an angel for almost 6 months and this weekend I hardly looked back. I did count points too and every day I went over! So not like me! I ate buttered popcorn, licorice, m&m’s, tortilla chips, lots and lots of junk!
And my husband was a total poophead too!
I can attribute some of the bad eating as totally resulting from his crappy mood. Which then put me in a crappy mood!
Now we pick ourselves off the floor and head back into the race!
Best of luck for a really successful week!
We all are in this together,
Barbi
March 10th, 2008 at 11:24 pm
Hang in there. This is a journey and it is going to have its bumps. This year has been harder for me but all I can do is focus on the good to continue to be successful. You made many good choices even on a bad weekend so be proud of that.
March 11th, 2008 at 10:36 am
Kristi,
So right… alot of us stumbled this weekend! But lets all put that in the past and move on! You’ll recover…I’m positive!
Hope you have a GREAT week!
March 12th, 2008 at 12:51 pm
The weekend is in the past. Thats the best thing about a new day we get to start over. Bad days happen and we need to not let them get us down. You are doing great.