Tired of guilt and gaining…
Posted by ksbess on April 15th, 2008
Wow! What a weekend. We took the family up to our condo and enjoyed being together. Somehow though, the condo has always been associated with a lot of junk food eating. I did relatively good at the beginning and then the cookies and the such started taunting me. And my brain doesn’t let me eat just a few and call it good. Why is that? Will that ever change? I beat myself up and blame my willpower and start the viscious eating cycle all over again.
So my question is…do you ever get to the point that you can trust yourself around food again? I tried analyzing the eating to see if it was emotional eating and best as I can tell it wasn’t. It just sounded good and tasted good; therefore, I kept eating more!
So when I weighed in today, I’m up 3 pounds from Friday. I ended up posting a 0.6 loss last week, which I was grateful for. But it’s almost like I purposely sabatoge myself or something. I was at 224.4 on Friday. I’m getting closer to the goal of getting below 220 and I don’t know what the deal is with that number. But I get hungup on it. Am I afraid of being smaller? Perhaps afraid that I can’t maintain it, that I do believe. Other than that, what would I be afraid of? I don’t know, but I’m feeling very down today. Which results in me wanting to eat more. I hate this endless cycle.
I’m going to really kick up my exercise the next 3 days and hopefully that’ll give me the boost I need to get back down to where I was last week and post some kind of a loss. As you can see I’m very hungup on the number on the scale. It’s almost as if it determines my feeling of accomplishment or failure.
However, I’m making a slow progress in creating better habits I suppose. I am drinking my 6-8 glasses of water each day and have pretty much cut diet pop out completely. I am eating more fruits. Its so easy to focus on all the negative and forget the small accomplishments along the way.
I would love to hear your thoughts and any tips you see that may help me.
As an afterthought I wanted to add that I’m going to hold myself accountable and get myself tracking what I’m eating again. For those of you who have struggled with that, to get started did you worry so much about point values or just getting yourself writing everything down? I realize the importance of tracking points, but sometimes I just give up on my tracking for the day when I have trouble figuring it. Thanks for all your wonderful comments and encouragement! This is such a great blogging community!
April 16th, 2008 at 6:43 am
I have been following Weight Watchers (points) and have gone from almost a size 14 to a size 4 in about 7 months. I needed to have my entire day planned on what I was going to eat and just follow that plan. If I was still hungry, I would use my extra flex points. Reading Roni’s blog and other blogs really kept me motivated. I checked in everyday. I also made sure that I exercised at least 4 times a week. It is very hard but you can do it! You need to stay motivated and if you slip up, just count the points and move on. Keep up the good work!
April 16th, 2008 at 8:18 am
When journal my eating habits and exercise 5 days a week, I lose weight (10 pounds in Jan and 4 in April). When I didn’t in Feb and March, my weigh stayed the same. I think by setting goals and tracking your progress also helps.
For me, I think its more important to track points than worrying so much about eating in the range you are suppose to. You can review them an see what your trouble spots are: add veggies, reduce meat portion sizes, add healthy fats etc. Having been on calorie restrictive diets before, I know that by eating in the point range for my weight is a little to low for me. I eat between 32 and 36 points a day and am still losing weight (ww point range is 29 with flex points).
April 17th, 2008 at 12:01 am
Tracking is very important for me. Even if the choices haven’t been the best, I know exactly were I am at. If I don’t know the points value, I guesstimate. A guess is better than no accountability. There’s a recipe calculator at sparkrecipes.com. It will give you the nutritional info from your recipes and almost all companies now give nutritional info on their web pages. It takes some time at first, but if your tracking, you’ll begin to build your own record of values to refer back to. I track on a spread sheet on the computer and have become the cut and paste queen! Anyway, I hope this helps!…Keep the faith!…You can do it!
April 17th, 2008 at 9:56 pm
Hang in there. I HATE to track points but it’s the only way that I can drop weight. If I don’t write down everything and count points it always gets out of hand. The key for me is to plan meals ahead for the entire day and it’s a bitch to get into the habit if you aren’t used to it. It’s still a struggle for me and I take it one day at a time. I agree with everything Koolestmom said.