Disappointed
21 05 2008That’s what I am. Unfortunately we didn’t have enough people for the WW class to start so I have to wait for another group to come along or for this other group to get enough people to try again. I can’t tell you how let down I felt. Not only because I was excited about being a leader of a group but because I wanted to be part of the group. I was looking for as much motivation from these people as I was going to be motivation for them. I actually went to the location, set up shop, and waited for people to show up. They seemed like such a great, friendly, easy-going group too. I wish I had taken a little more time to sit and chat with those that did turn up, but I was too busy trying to get folks weighed in, getting products out, and making sure I had my ducks in a row. When it came time for the meeting to start, we didn’t have the numbers we needed and I had to return all the money and let the group down by telling them we couldn’t start. They all knew how many people they needed, so I don’t think they were mad with me. They knew it wasn’t my rule and they had been forewarned that we couldn’t proceed unless the numbers were there. It was hard because I know most of those ladies were geared up to get started. Anywho… hopefully something else will come along.
As far as my journey and me, I actually felt embarrassed to be standing in front of the group knowing that I’m over goal and not as “small” as I should be. It was kind of a reality check. I’m still 10 pounds from goal and at least 17 pounds from where I want to be, and I was disgusted with myself that I couldn’t be a better example to people who were hoping to look up to me for motivation. The last few days have been right on target with eating, and I have a couple friends that have agreed to walk after work. It’s a great way to visit and get exercise in. The time really flies, and I’m getting to know these new friends a lot better. My clothes are getting tight and that just won’t do! Mostly because I donated the majority my larger clothes to a charity a couple weeks ago!! 49 items to be exact! I had a LOT of fat clothes that I didn’t ever want to put on again. So they’re long gone, and it’s time for me to stick with this so I can fit into what I do own. Money’s tight so there’s no buying new stuff until one of our houses sells.
Last night I remembered something that helped me before on my journey. Growing up, Mom and Dad use to say “Kitchen’s Closed” when my brother or I would try to sneak in for treats after dinner. I’ve found that using the ”kitchen’s closed” as sort of a mantra after dinner keeps me from snacking all night long- one of my weaknesses. After dinner I had a 3 point dessert but was craving more so I kept telling myself “kitchen’s closed, kitchen’s closed…” and it worked! I stayed out of it and stayed within my points. Maybe I need to get a big flashing neon sign!
One. Day. At. A. Time. I can do this. I’m in control. I can lose the weight. I know I can…
That is very disappointing to have put in all that work and to not have enough to qualify for the creation of a group. How many do they require before they allow it? Spread the word around, particularily in other small communities near you who don’t have a meeting of their own. Perhaps you can get enough interest.
That’s so silly that they made you go through the motions of registering people etc and then having to tell them the sad news. You would think they’d realize how word of mouth would get around and things would start rolling.
Keep strong! It will happen.