Kim’s Journey to a Healthier Place

That’s what I am. Unfortunately we didn’t have enough people for the WW class to start so I have to wait for another group to come along or for this other group to get enough people to try again. I can’t tell you how let down I felt. Not only because I was excited about being a leader of a group but because I wanted to be part of the group. I was looking for as much motivation from these people as I was going to be motivation for them. I actually went to the location, set up shop, and waited for people to show up. They seemed like such a great, friendly, easy-going group too. I wish I had taken a little more time to sit and chat with those that did turn up, but I was too busy trying to get folks weighed in, getting products out, and making sure I had my ducks in a row. When it came time for the meeting to start, we didn’t have the numbers we needed and I had to return all the money and let the group down by telling them we couldn’t start. They all knew how many people they needed, so I don’t think they were mad with me. They knew it wasn’t my rule and they had been forewarned that we couldn’t proceed unless the numbers were there. It was hard because I know most of those ladies were geared up to get started. Anywho… hopefully something else will come along.

As far as my journey and me, I actually felt embarrassed to be standing in front of the group knowing that I’m over goal and not as “small” as I should be. It was kind of a reality check. I’m still 10 pounds from goal and at least 17 pounds from where I want to be, and I was disgusted with myself that I couldn’t be a better example to people who were hoping to look up to me for motivation. The last few days have been right on target with eating, and I have a couple friends that have agreed to walk after work. It’s a great way to visit and get exercise in. The time really flies, and I’m getting to know these new friends a lot better. My clothes are getting tight and that just won’t do! Mostly because I donated the majority my larger clothes to a charity a couple weeks ago!! 49 items to be exact! I had a LOT of fat clothes that I didn’t ever want to put on again. So they’re long gone, and it’s time for me to stick with this so I can fit into what I do own. Money’s tight so there’s no buying new stuff until one of our houses sells.

Last night I remembered something that helped me before on my journey. Growing up, Mom and Dad use to say “Kitchen’s Closed” when my brother or I would try to sneak in for treats after dinner. I’ve found that using the ”kitchen’s closed” as sort of a mantra after dinner keeps me from snacking all night long- one of my weaknesses. After dinner I had a 3 point dessert but was craving more so I kept telling myself “kitchen’s closed, kitchen’s closed…” and it worked! I stayed out of it and stayed within my points. Maybe I need to get a big flashing neon sign!

One. Day. At. A. Time. I can do this. I’m in control. I can lose the weight. I know I can…