Kim’s Journey to a Healthier Place

You guys rock! Thanks for all the support!

I had an unexpected opportunity to speak with my WW leader at our meeting last night. I think I discovered what I needed to do to get out of this viscious cycle. I needed to talk to someone. It’s one thing to type on here but actually saying the words out loud, “I’m having trouble with binging” made something really click. I don’t talk to WH or family about this type of stuff cause it just freaks them out. They don’t understand- nor do friends who aren’t stuggling with the same issues. My leader could relate and really talked some sense into me. She reiterated how good I was looking and how much harder it is to lose the weight a second time. She reminded me that I know what I need to do and what I have to “lose” if I don’t do “it.” I binged yesterday before that meeting. After talking with her at the meeting I went straight to the gym for the first time in weeks. It felt great. What I needed to do was talk. My whole attitude changed with one short conversation.

My advise to all of you that have been facing similar issues with motivation or finding the wagon to jump back on, talk to someone. There’s just something about sharing your fears and concerns with someone who is compassionate and understands where you’re coming from. Give it a try. I know as much support as WH and others are in my life, they just wouldn’t know how to help. They don’t understand what I’m going through. Talk to your fellow WW members at meetings and your leader. Hopefully it will be just what you need like it was for me!

Sometimes I feel like I jinx myself. I blog on here and feel all pumped and then within moments, I’m distracted and stuffing my face. I’m really stuggling with binging right now. That’s how I mananged to weigh over 200 pounds. I get one taste of something I know is a trigger food and it’s down hill from there. I then find more or search out a new trigger food. This has been going on for weeks. I can’t remember the last time I went 2 consecutive weeks OP. I know this is why I’ve “maintained” the past couple of months. My weight goes up and down but always around the same numbers. I really need to focus on those triggers and avoid them at all cost.

Core last week didn’t go so well. During the week it was great, but we went out of town for the weekend to see family and ate out and home cooked meals prepared by others. There was nothing core about it at all. Over the course of the weekend we had a celebration at a hot wings joint, breakfast buffet and homeade ribs. Talk about a challenge. When you don’t have a choice where or what’s being prepared, core is the pits. There’s no way those 35 points were going to get me through that. I’m still going to focus on core foods, but I think I need to count flex points.

On a VERY happier note, my 4th wedding anniversary is Thursday! I’m so excited. DH and I are planning a weekend get-away to New Orleans. It’s so long overdue! I bought my first sun dress for our special dinner night. AND it’s supposed to be about 80 degrees during the day! I also went out and bought my very first pair of shorts in a size 11 today. I’m super excited to wear my first pair of shorts with the new bod. It’s also St. Patrick’s Day weekend and New Orleans is gonna be wild! I can’t wait to have both a romantic and fun-filled weekend with the hubby!!

Yeah, I am finding it harder to find core foods. I guess I need to look around at the menus of folks in the community that are on core to get some ideas. I have to say I love the whole concept of eating whole, low-energy density foods. I’m trying to get my body ready for pregnancy (some day), and what could be healthier for me (and a baby) than to cut out processed foods? I may start following Roni’s idea of the “Flore” plan.

“So instead of picking Flex or Core I created FLORE! Count points while sticking to the Core food list as best you can. This worked great for me! It really helped me learn how to eat healthier.”

I love cottage cheese so here’s a quick breakfast idea that I love!

CINNAMON APPLE COTTAGE OATMEAL

WW: Core
Serves 1

1 serving oatmeal (rolled oats)

2 tbsp. unsweetened applesauce

2 tbsp. fat-free cottage cheese

Cinnamon

Splenda

After preparing oatmeal as directed, add other ingredients and enjoy! Oh so yummy and easy! 

I love restaurant food! I’m totally a sucker for it. Maybe it’s because it all tastes better than I cook. I know the biggest reason for this is I don’t use all the oil, butter, and cheese that restaurants aren’t hestitant to use in the name of taste. On the other hand, I only cook to make healthy options. I just can’t cook the fat laden things you see in restaurants. I just can’t. Check this out. It’s QUITE disturbing!

Men’s Health “Worst Foods” list

 For some reason or another the past couple of mornings I’ve had a little extra spring in my step! I love it! Want to know my secret? I wish I could share, but heck if I know what it is!! (c: I’m just enjoying waking up in the morning feeling refreshed. This past weekend (Thurs.-Sun.)  I slept in 4 different beds. I think my body is just happy to be in its usual bed and back in routine.

Core Day 1

One meal down! (c: I reviewed the Core plan last night and all I can say is that this week will be a bit of a challenge. I can manage though. I’ll just have to get creative. I ate 2 eggs scrambled with one slice FF cheese and a teaspoon of salsa. I’ve got 2 apples and a banana in case I get hungry. For lunch I’ll probably hit up Chick-Fil-A for a salad. WH and I eat out on Tuesday nights because of our schedule, so I thought Cracker Barrel would be a good choice. I’ll just have to make some modifications and/or use weekly points.

It’s so strange to me when I’m focused on what I’m eating I also start to focus on taking care of myself in other ways. I know this sounds gross/strange, but I pay more attention to how my nails look, give the toenails a nice trim, start moisturizing my feet, more consistent with washing my face before bed, floss more, etc. Does this happen with anyone else? I’d love to know if it does! I’m actually glad it feels like a package deal. I guess when I focus on taking care of myself I feel there’s more to it than just food and how much I weigh.

I survived the convention. I’ll just say there were both good and bad choices made. (c:

I had to leave the convention one day early to attend my uncle’s funeral. Despite the enormous amounts of food that were delivered to my aunt’s house as condolences, I faired pretty well.

I’ve been stuck in a bit of a rut. I lost 50 pounds.  (I still feel like I’m exaggerating or fibbing when I say/write that because I can’t believe it!) I’m mostly happy where I am, but I’d love to lose those extra 15 pounds. I’ve been maintaining this pretty well since before Christmas. I’m pretty sure I’d like to try Core this week to see how it goes. It might just be for the week to see if I can jump-start myself, but there’s the possibility I could keep doing it for a short time. I don’t see it as something I’d enjoy doing full time (Don’t tell me I can’t have something!), but visiting this plan may be a useful tool for my journey. I’ll be starting tomorrow, and I’ll let you know how it all goes!