I Need Something More
18 01 2008I need/want a baby. Between you and me *grin* I need something new to fill my life. WH is wonderful, but we’re comfortable and pretty independent, ya know. Lately I’ve actually noticed we do more things on our own than together anymore. Not that it’s bad, just different, I guess. We no longer feel we HAVE to do something because the other one is doing it. I’m a big fan of knowing yourself and not giving up the things you love because the person you love doesn’t. I guess I’m just ready to take the next step. I want to be needed. I was thinking the other day about how it must be kind of strange for my parents to tell people they have a 30 year old son and 28 year old daughter but no grandchildren. I don’t see my brother ever having kids. I’m not sure that’s on his list of things to do. (c: WH and I are trying to prepare ourselves, but it just seems like if it’s not one thing, it’s something else. For now, it’s not going to happen due to the meds I need to be on. To be completely fair, I’m terrified, too. Absolutely terrified.
OP all week and feeling good. The scale hasn’t budged, but no worries. I can always blame the meds and new weight training. I know it’s not because I didn’t eat right! (c:
| Food | Units(21) |
|---|---|
| banana | 2 |
| RF peanut butter- 1 1/2 TBSP | 3 |
| apple | 1 |
| RF string cheese | 1 |
| Healthy Choice steamer | 4 |
| extra lean hamburger patty- 4oz | 4 |
| bun | 2 |
| cheese | 2 |
| veggies | 2 |
| baked fries | 4 |
| milk | 2 |
| gym | -2 |
|
Total |
25 |
| Flex | -4 |
|
Flex remaining |
26 |
I don’t have any children (I’m almost 26), but I’ve heard plenty of people say “if you wait for the perfect time to have kids…….well, you never will!”; there will always be a reason why you shouldn’t. If it’s something you and your husband really want to do, just discuss timing and everything and go from there. It sounds like you have your life in good order, very well put together! Best wishes with whatever you do!
I totally feel the same way. Daily, and even within the same day I vacillate between wanting a child desparately and feeling like I could wait forever because I’m worried I won’t be a good mom. I have resigned myself to start trying when I turn 29 next fall, but that’s just around the corner. DH and I have discussed it and we are working toward me being able to be a SAHM. While it’s everything I’ve always wanted, it sometimes terrifies me! Life will be so different! I guess the fact that I realize how hard motherhood will be will make me better prepared.