Kim’s Journey to a Healthier Place

Last night I let myself indulge a bit.  Wonderful husband told me about a function we’re supposed to go to tonight which means I’ll miss my WW meeting and WI. So, I indulged, knowing that I wouldn’t have to step on a scale today. It’s not so bad when I consciously make the choice to indulge. It’s when I mindlessly grab food and shove it in my mouth without MAKING the decision after weighing the pros and cons that makes me feel guilty and ashamed. Those behaviors are the “eating disorder,” I proclaim to be trying to overcome, coming out. A little of both occurred yesterday. In the late afternoon I ate a few snack sized candies- that was mindless. For dinner I made the conscious decision to have a couple of the leftover cheese-filled bread sticks, WH’s baked potato skins (that he never eats), more salad dressing that I normally use, and apple crisp w/ ice cream that WH made. Definitely over my daily points and the extra weekly points are already gone, but I chose to do it. And I’m not feeling guilty about it.

I did work out after dinner as a “damage control” effort. While it’s okay to make the decision to enjoy foods that I don’t eat often, I knew that to help keep this from going from conscious decision to binge eating today, I had to remind myself it stops there. Trust me, the insanely intense 60 min. workout on the treadmill and elliptical got me focused.

It can be hard for me to WI at home because the WW scale is so much different than mine. While mine is good for comparison day to day, it never reads the same as WW. So I’m just going to wait until next week to WI. I need to stay focused because according to my goals, I want to be at 160 by Thanksgiving. I’ve got 9 days to get there and just a couple pounds to go! I’m also trying to jog that 10 minute mile….work in progress.