Belly be gone!

i think i have an obsession.  and it may not be a healthy thing…well, it’s a good thing, but my obsession over it may not be a good thing.

it’s…exercise.  yes….exercise.  why am i obsessed?  why is this a bad thing?  because it’s getting mental. 

so, here’s the deal…exercise is what has been the biggest factor in my weight loss.  it’s what really helped me 6 years ago, and it’s what has really helped me this time around.  and last week, i upped the intensity of my workouts.  and i saw a(n unofficial) loss!!!  the home scale is down again, but i skipped WI on saturday  (a whole other issue that i posted about a couple of posts ago).  so i’m not sure what the ‘official’ weight is, but the home scale is down.  and i’m not counting points.  nor am i following core to a T (because i know i’ve eaten a lot of crap these past few weeks…on top of eating good…so it’s not that i just ate crap.  i ate well, and then added the crap!).  so it’s got to be the exercise, right?

well…i’m starting to feel blah.  like i don’t know if i’m getting sick or not.  now, i’m not sick yet, but i feel like i’m starting to get some symptoms.  and i’m tired.  and i think my body is tired.  so - did i sleep in this morning???  NO!!!  i got up and went to the gym.  and will i sleep in tomorrow?  i doubt it.  and tomorrow is the high(er) cardio day - it’s the day i run on the treadmill for 30 minutes.  should i take a break tomorrow and try to sleep in (even though it’s probably impossible b/c the puppy is on my normal schedule and will be up by 6:30!)???  YES!!!  will i?  probably not…

why?!  because, i want to lose some more and right now, in my mind, the way to do it is to exercise!!!!

i need to get over this because i don’t want to burn out!!!