Belly be gone!

so…i was good and maintained my weight for 6 weeks, making lifetime.  now…there’s a few things going through my head - not sure which to start with…

so, since i made lifetime, i don’t necessarily have to go to meetings.  i just go once a month and weigh in.  now, i may not go this week and get some errands done.  (i go to a saturday morning meeting)  but i don’t know if i’m ready to give up going to meetings all together.  i guess i’m afraid that if i don’t go to meetings, then i’ll gain the weight back. 

but…i’ve been in a rut with following the program.  i’ve been exercising pretty consistenly, and i guess i figure that makes up for any bad eating i’ve been doing.  and i know i’ve been doing some not so well eating…and i definitely have not been counting points.  and i like the idea of core, but i haven’t been following that so well, either.  although…i had a YUMMY core dinner!  and lunch!  and breakfast for that matter.  the problem is the little snacks or add ons i’ve been having (uh…hello dark hershey kisses!)  i’m trying to stop with the afternoon snacks - since it’s usually chocolate.  i really am…but i haven’t yet…

AND…even though i’m at a good weight - i still want to lose more.  but i’m not that motivated…just another couple of pounds…

so…maybe one day i’ll really work hard for those last few pounds.  but for now…i don’t know what to do about my meetings…i think since this is all new, i might feel a little guilty about not going every week…maybe i’ll try it for a few weeks - going that is - and seeing what it’s like not to have to weigh in. 

ok…i’m tired.  i don’t know that my ramblings make any sense…since i don’t know what my complete thoughts are…