Belly be gone!

(written on friday…posted on tuesday…)

random musings…

perception…

i was thinking about this today (last friday).  it came about as i was working today with someone who is new.  i noticed that on on her bulletin board she had a piece of paper that looked to have some goals with working out and toning and losing weight.  now, i didn’t really read it, but it got me thinking…especially after i went to the restroom and saw my reflection (slightly distorted) off the (mirrored) elevator.  i started wondering…to someone who doesn’t know me or hasn’t met me, how do i appear?  am i average?  am i skinny?  do i need to lose some weight?

i guess right now, with the skin that i’m in, i’d be average.  i have some clothes that i will wear that are VERY flattering and make me look a lot thinner than i think i am.  for example - last month during my grandmother’s funeral, i got lots of complements from family friends and my mom’s coworkers about how skinny i was.  granted, i was wearing one of those outfits that i know is flattering (black, a-line skirt - DOES WONDERS!!!), but i didn’t necessarily feel skinny. 

so as i passed the reflection today (friday) and looked at it - i thought about what this new coworker’s view of me might be, and i realized for me, it seems to be about self-perception.  i don’t feel skinny, but others who know me or don’t know me may think i am.  which is weird…since i don’t necessarily view myself that way.  however, i know that i am in a healthy bmi for my height!  and that i’ve lost weight to get to that point with changing my eating and exercising!!!  (yeah me!)  but my goal is to be skinny! 

but what does that mean?  i have an idea in my head as to how i will measure that for me.  but i don’t know if i’ll ever reach it (that’s for another post).

anyhow…it’s all about perspective.  and my own self-perspective may be quite different than others’ perspective of me…

ok…that’s my ramble…