*~JiLLy MaRie’s JouRNeY~*

HELLO ALL!!

 I am almost ready to start my new life! The bf moved out this weekend, I paid off all my credit card bills. So I am ready to get back in shape! It sure is a big change going home to no one! I only have to please myself.  I had very good intentions on stepping on the scale this morning, but I just didnt want to ruin my day!

 I hope you will all be very supportive of my new attempt at making this work!  

After saying ok starting tomorrow for the past 4 months. I MEAN TOMORROW!

Now I have to get back into the swing of things. Need to get to the store. If any one wants to tell me about any new product finds…. or OLD things thats maybe I have forgotten about… FEEL FREE. I need to put together a list of WW friendly foods.

Check out Roni’s new contest! I can win a Nutrition Smart Scale from Eat Smart and so can you! Click here for details!

I told the bf he needs to leave… he is looking for a place to live as we speak.

I am extremly upset. My interenet at home is not working.

 I called att to have my land line disconnected. It was scheduled to be shut off monday along with my internet service and i was to be with out service for 24 hours.

So monday at noon i went home for lunch and my internet did not work and the phone was shut off. I got home from work at 9pm and the internet was working just fine!

I woke up tuesday and no internet… I have talked to way too many people at att that are no help.

 The lights that are on on my modem are POWER, ETHERNET, and DSL are all on and solid green. which means my dsl service is coming into the house…. right….

i dont know what the problem is!

my bf’s dad had this same issue… it took him 2 months  of calling att to finally get a person that could help him…. apparently his issue was some setting on his computer… does anyone have an idea to help me?

I am very proud of myself. Last night at work  I didnt much on anything I should have. I had my apple, orange and pudding! Very impressive I must add. I usually get bored and eat chips and beef stick and anything and everything I can get my hands on. When I got home I felt so good about myself! So far this morning I had a banana and apple. I did eat a few wheat thins to! I feel myself slowly getting back on track!! YIPEEE

 I didnt sleep well at all. I was all worried about my bills and if i can afford life when i am single. I have racked up with the credit card bills on…. well nothing important as you all know from my previous entries! So I left my house early and set off to meet my dad at his office. I came up with a plan last night that if he pays off my debt and I make one chunk to him a month in addtion to my car, cell and house bills I would still have about 400 bucks a month to my name.

So I asked : “dad, can you borrow me 3 grand” he replies: “i dont know if i have 3 grand right now for you to borrow. why whats up? what do you need 3 grand for?” I then proceded to say ” to pay off my credit cards. “TO PAY OFF YOUR CREDIT CARDS!”

then i got the lecture about how him and my mom never ever use a credit card… only when they book their flights to vegas twice a year… that is the only time… blah blah blah…

he said if he has someone else in the office today he would take a ride. I think he ment to the bank….. but i just left it at that… it does sound like he is gonna help me out… so i can start sleeping at night again! I cant believe I let my credit cards get that carried away!!! YIkES

I sure do have lots in store for myself starting today! Im cleaning the house at the moment, then gonna take the puppy for a walk….

I will write more tonight cuz I have to work @ 2:00 so I better get my butt moving if i want to accomplish everything by then! ttyl

Hello all! I am not doing as good as I would like to be. I am not getting enough water in… it sure is hard in the winter months. Also, finding the motivation to take the puppy for a walk in the morning is also very hard when it is so fridig out!! yesterday morning was like -10 or something like that!

I have made my self a list of thing I want to change about myself with the new year. I am such a procrastinater…. BAD

I have no problem saying ok… starting tomorrow… well one more day…  that jill will be long gone! I will make a promise to all of you… that i will not break! If you are all successful I can be to!

I will start journaling regilously

I will start flossing everyday

I will start bushing my teeth before bed

I will start walking every morning with the puppy regardless of the weather

I will drink at least 100 oz of water a day!

I will succeed

I can succeed

I will no longer eat chocolate

I am already starting to feel much better just drinking more water! I was up and out of bed on time today even!

 I ate a salad for lunch and dinner yesterday and the same again today. With my fruit in between.

I can do this!

I can totally do this time around.

I didn’t go out last night, in fact I think I was sleeping around 9:30! OOPS! when you are tired…. you need sleep. so thats what i did!

 Got up this morning, didnt do much of anything. Played with the puppy… cleaned up the house a little bit. My brother made breakfast ( eggs, bacon & toast) and I was excited to see him actually making me breakfast that I COMPLETELY forgot it was Jan 1st!! I was supposed to wake up this morning and weigh myself and finnally get back on track.

 I still have not gotten rid of the bf, all my co workers ( at both jobs) think he is history…. Its soooo hard to do, I know i need to  let him go… but…. i wish it was easier!!!  So needless to say, I guess my mind is full of other things than hopping back on the wagon today.

 Right now I am sitting in my dads office writting this post. He wanted to see his ” granddaughter” lol ( the puppy) so he is out showin her off… I am maning his office. ( He is the SKI PATROL Director of one of the area ski hills…) as soon as i walk in the door… jill, are you hungry? I have a bunch of stuff in the fridge… plus here is a plate full of chhicken strips, french fries, shrimp, breaded mushrooms, chees sticks…. NO DAD, I DIDNT GO SKIING TODAY CUZ MY SKI PANTS ARE A LITTLE SNUG…. then he chimes back with…. dont ya mean… ALOT snug!!! hahaha… he knows i have put on weight. he knows i am trying to lose it…. but yet he welcomes me to tons of food!

You will be happy to know that i only had one chicken strip and 3 fries

 Im gonna go home and clean the house, sort through a bunch of old clothes that i no longer need… and then make cookies for my dads office…. NOT for my house!!

 I am off tomorrow as well, but i have to drive 2.5 hrs for a checkup on my eyes! My bother is coming along too and he is gonna get glasses… he has only had contacts for like  2 year and now he want to be able to switch it up. Its nice cuz my cousin works for pearle vision so my bro gets a friends and family 50% coupon!! ( i used to until i had lasik hehe )

ok ok… more later

I have been away way too long!! The 15 lbs I lost the first time around is ALL back and then some… I had to break out the pants I was wearing in  JUNE! How sad! But its my own fault.. and I am ready to change that!

I cant wait to hop back on the wagon on Jan 1st! I am very anxious to get my butt in gear this time.

 I got a puppy for xmas so I will have a reason to walk!! hehe

As dumb as this is…. I am gonna just wait til the 1st of the year to hit make the lifestyle change… i am so swapped with everything right now i dont have time to cook or anything.. not to mention all the goodies around this time of year… dont get me wrong im not gonna go out and eat a 8 course meal every meal of the day until then or eat cheesecake for dessert every night… im just gonna eat what i want in moderation and then when jan 1 rolls around… ill start with the gym again then too!

work sucks! I dont have time for this blog this time of year!!! its sad!!!  its soo busy. i shouldnt even be writting this post as i am falling behind.. lol

 I went to the gym this morning and only lasted on the treadmill for 15 mins… i have so much on my mind, i am not in the frame of mind to work out.

 the bf brought home a puppy on monday night so all i was thinking about was making a place in the basement for her so she doesnt ruin my new flooring in the kitchen with all her puddles of pee since she is there all day!! the bf was supposedly laid offf on monday, went to sign up for unemployment which is why he got a puppy… he would have had time for her… can you belive he worked full days tues weds and will be again today! thats just crazy!!! i assumed he was done with work for the winter… guess not.

 i dont want to sound like a bitch. but i dont want a dog right now.. why didnt i say NO JEREMY NO PUPPY, but instead i said… whatever… UGH!

I can’t think of a bettter time to get back on track! December 1st will do!

Lots going on around here. my BEST friends fiancee died in an explosion at work. See article below:

http://www.duluthnewstribune.com/articles/index.cfm?id=55241§ion=homepage&freebie_check&CFID=71232109&CFTOKEN=47619348&jsessionid=88308c8245793474c253

 AND a guy i used to date  ( i dont even like telling people that now) went nuts and killed is gf and then himself. let me tell you for a town of around 2,000 people… it sure was scary. http://www.mininggazette.com/stories/articles.asp?articleID=9640

http://www.northlandsnewscenter.com/news/local/11983646.html

ok aside from all that I have gained weight. I have not cared in the past few months, I finally stepped on the scale this morning and weighed in at 170.4 YIKES!! i gained 7 lbs back of the 15 i lost!  So here i go again. I packed good food and snacks for today since i work 9am-9pm. and starting tomorrow i plan to go to the gym and get on the treadmill!!