*~JiLLy MaRie’s JouRNeY~*

I sound like a damn broken record. I always say I will start clean on the 1st of the month, then the 1st arrives and I eat something completely horrible, which throws the whole week off… so I think.

 Well the first of this coming month will be diffferent…. cuz its MARCH, we are one step closer to spring, I am so sick of the cold weather I could puke.

I need to start by getting in all my water for the day… So does sugar free kool aid work? I was cleaning out the cupboards  yesterday and i have a shit load of sugar free kool aid and crystal light…. I was thinking about mixing it and bringing in a whole gallon with me to work to stick in the fridge so i wont be tempted by the soda or coffee… what do ya think?

I stocked up on lots of oatmeal and soup at the store to get me though the next month until the weather turns so i can use the grill ( keep in mind I have 2 jobs, work 65+ hours a week so i dont have much time to cook … let alone prepare a bunch of meals to freeze.

So I applied for a job with our county’s sheriff dept as the administrative assitant to the 911 coordinator, I think my changes are pretty good. the only thing is its PART TIME.

here are a few of my goals:

1. post everyday

2. make some new friends… i need you girls!

3.  track everything i eat…. everything!!  

So I have not been watching what I eat, I have not been getting any excersize….. I have no excuses other than I am not happy. I am not happy with the way I look, I am not happy going to home to no one.  I have not been alone in years… and it is a very hard ajustment. VERY hard adjustment. If I didnt work 2 jobs, I am sure I could find the time to hang out with some friends…. or try to make some new friends since most of my pals are no longer around here.

 oh! and try living on one income when you own a house and a new vehicle and … and… and… i dont think i can afford to shit!

 I know I told you all that I sold my treadmill and elliptical!! HOW FREAKING DUMB!! the girl i sold my elliptical is moving in may, so i am going to buy it back. for this coming winter. I really dont need it in the summer cuz i can walk the doggie every morning.

 speaking of walking the doggie… its been below zero for way to long! its not even a thought to take the dog for a walk in this weather!!

Your horoscope - Today, February 7, 2008

You are a good actress when you want to be, Jill. You know how to put on the face and the charm in order to get what you want. You may find yourself manipulating a situation in order to have things go your way. Be careful of telling a little white lie that gets carried away. Before you know it, you have dug a tremendously deep hole for yourself that is impossible to get out of. Whatever you start you must be prepared to finish.
 

The year of the Earth Rat brings happiness and the energy to begin again. Fortune smiles on any new project or direction you choose. Careful planning an organization will help you build for the future. “Keep things simple” is good advice. There is some danger you will promise too much or underestimate the time and energy it takes to get things done. In many areas of your life, this is a time of relative stability. Education and research bring good luck. The more you know, the better your chances for success. Even in stressful situations, you will be able to take the lead and make things better.

Chinese Reading - Week of February 4, 2008

You can make a big impression in any area where you take the lead on Monday. Tuesday is an ideal time to make peace. The New Moon on Wednesday is preparation for an amazing and powerful year of the Rat that begins on Thursday. Set your sights high this year. Friday is lucky for romance and anything that allows you to try something new. Be patient on Saturday. Jealousy can make things complicated. Group projects are favored on Sunday. Call good friends.

Happy Tuesday everyone. Not much to say other than I have to get to the store!

1. Do you like blue cheese? Nope
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? NO.
3. Do you own a gun? Nope
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Never been to a Sonic, I don’t even think there are any around here.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Not really.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? YUK
7. Favorite Christmas movie? A CHRISTMAS STORY
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water
9. Can you do push ups? NO!
10. Why is there a missing questions here?? That was my question.
11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? MY EARRINGS
12. Favorite hobby? DOES WORKING COUNT?
13. Another missing question, whoever came up with this one can’t count!
14. Do you have A.D.D.? I WOULD HAVE TO SAY YES TO THIS ONE
15. What’s one trait you hate about yourself? THAT I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL
16. Middle name? MARIE
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment… I WANT TO BE SHOPPING, SLEEPING OR EATING. HAHA
18. Name 3 things you bought today… GAS, COFFEE AND SPECIAL K BLISS BAR
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Water, COFFEE, and, ummm water.
20. Current worry? I WONT FIND ANOTHER MAN
21. Current hate right now? THE EX BF
22. Favorite place to be? VEGAS
23. How did you bring in the New Year? IN MY BED,…. LIKE USUAL
24. Where would you like to go? VEGAS…. IN APRIL!
25. Name three people who will complete this?
26. Do you own slippers? Yup, but I never wear them.
27. What shirt are you wearing? JEANS & A HOODIE
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? No.
29. Can you whistle? Yes
30. Favorite color? PINK
31. Would you be a pirate? No, what kind of question is that?
32. What songs do you sing in the shower? Whatever’s on the radio. I always have the radio on.
33. Favorite girl’s name? OLIVIA
34. Favorite boy’s name? ?
35. What’s in your pocket right now? CELL PHONE
36. Last person that made you laugh? … HOW ABOUT CRY… THE EX
37. Best bed sheets as a child? CALIFORNIA RAISINS
38. Worst injury you’ve ever had? BROKEN ANKLE
39. Do you love where you live? WELL… NEVER BEEN ANYWERE ELSE TO LIVE.. SO YEA
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 3, LIVING ROOM, MY ROOM, AND THE BEDROOM UPSTAIRS THAT MY BROTHER USES ON THE WEEKENDS WHEN HE COMES HOME FROM COLLEGE
41. Who is your loudest friend? IM THE LOUD ONE
42. How many dogs do you have? Cats? 1 DOG, 2 CATS AND FISH
43. Does someone have a crush on you? I have NO idea, I was never good at that.
44. OK, ANOTHER one mising - someone messed this meme I think. Hmmmmm interesting, I wonder what those questions were?
45. What is your favorite book(s)? I DONT READ
46. What is your favorite candy? ANY… GLUP 
47. Favorite Sports Team? GREEN BAY PACKERS!!! BRETT FARVE IS HOTT
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? No idea, do they even play music at funerals?
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? SLEEPING! LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? I DONT WANT TO LET THE DOG OUT

So I cried myself to sleep last night cuz I was all alone… its sucks! I never thought he would actually be gone. I know it is what i wanted… or what had to be done… but it’s still hard.

 Now back to the dating life…. oh boy! I can’t wait! haha

HELLO ALL!!

 I am almost ready to start my new life! The bf moved out this weekend, I paid off all my credit card bills. So I am ready to get back in shape! It sure is a big change going home to no one! I only have to please myself.  I had very good intentions on stepping on the scale this morning, but I just didnt want to ruin my day!

 I hope you will all be very supportive of my new attempt at making this work!  

After saying ok starting tomorrow for the past 4 months. I MEAN TOMORROW!

Now I have to get back into the swing of things. Need to get to the store. If any one wants to tell me about any new product finds…. or OLD things thats maybe I have forgotten about… FEEL FREE. I need to put together a list of WW friendly foods.