*~JiLLy MaRie’s JouRNeY~*

Seeing tomorrow is the start of a new month I may as well take advantage of it and hop on the wagon! I might even join the gym! Who knows! But winter sucks!

I started the day off right with breakfast! I have not eaten breakfast in weeks!! I did a bunch of cleaning at home this morning before work since I wont get home til 9:00 tonight. Actually, I work the next five nights in a row so no time for anything than work 9am-9pm!

I have a few things planned for this weekend even though I work til 10 pm friday and sat night.  I bought paint last night to finish painting the upstairs of my house. If I don’t get to them thats okay too since I am off next weekend and I get lots done around the house!! That is if I chose to not go into work. I have a problem staying away from work… I am addicted, I swear.

I really should go check out the carpet place at lunch time, but I dont have the money now so why bother. I started ripping out the carpet in the living room cuz I was going to have the hard wood refinished, but now I am pretty sure I want to stick to carpet. I think I am going to ask for carpet for my living room for xmas from my parents… even if they only pay for half of it.

I need to work my buns off so I can pay off all the junk I charged up in the past month when I was soooo stressed out, thats what i do. I live to spend!! haha!

Bought a new bed $700 bucks, a 32″ flat planel LCD  tv $800.00 WHY !! when I am never home to watch tv ( it was for my bedroom) I still owe 300 on the 42″ Plasma in the living room, I have 280.00 charged on a card from last week, and last night I went to walmart with my mom and only charged 110 bucks!! I HAVE A PROBLEM!! HA!

Daily  Target					23
Food				Points	Countdown
Breakfast- Smart Ones English Muffin Sandwich				4	19
Morning Snack -  Coffee & pumpkin cake				5	14
Lunch-  Smart Ones Lemon Herb Chicken Piccata				4	10
Afternoon Snack-  Fiber One Bar				2	8
Dinner-  Smart Ones Three Cheese Ziti Marinara				6	2
Snack- Fiber one bar				2	0
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Totals				23	0
 Day  2     Weekly Flexies Remaining:  25       Morning Weigh In-  168.2
WATER √√√√√ (each √  is 20 oz)
Activity Log-None- work 9-5 & 5-9

I need one or ALL of you to come sit me down and have a talk with me on how I need to start watching what I eat, how I need to track my points, how I need to get some excersize!!

 let me tell you after falling off track for a whole month was not by choice, it just sort of happened.  I GAINED A WHOLE 5 LBS!!!

With all the problems with the bf, the choice to switch jobs or stay (I stayed), the water damage in my house, the new guy ( who is now out of the picture) I could not stay focused on WW. I now have a new attitude and I have been slowly working on getting back into a routine. I keep saying I will start on sunday… but that never works so I think I will make my starting day today!

I know this sounds like a repeat of the last 3 weeks, but I mean it this time.. Tomorrow is the begining of my new adventure, the last few days I was practicing!!

I should even have a little bit of time tomorrow to go for a walk before work at noon, keep in mind Sunday mornings are the only morning I have to clean up around the house since I work 2 jobs all week long, ok, well, I have 3 nights off a week…. which this past week I spent in my car, shopping, spendind more money I dont have….!!  When I get all stressed out, I go shopping, and it make be feel bettter. I dont buy clothes or anything, I buy things for my house. I am starting to wear my old clothes, probably shouldn’t just yet, I am sure they are a bit too snug, but you know what, I dont care. I am slowly getting into them and thats all that matters!!

Where do I start? I am such a slacker. For the life of me, I can not get my butt out of bed in the morning. The weather had turned and I think I am starting to get depressed…. not reallly depressed but just down about things since winter will be here in no time. Its dark when I leave work…. etc

I am gonna try to go to the gym in the mornings before work. I sure hope I can do it. Part of me wishes I didnt sell my treadmill and elliptical. I was not using them at the time ( of course cuz it was summer, and I also needed the money at the time, which is the REAL reason why I sold them.

Here I am again, attempting to be successful. I packed only healthy things for lunch  and supper today ( I work both jobs) however, I don’t have any fruit or veggies at home so I will have to pick some up this weekend.

one more day and the old jill will be back to herself, watching what she eats, and working on getting excersize in everyday!! the last month has been horrible but we are about to fix that!

As for all of you bloggers… I LOVE YOU ALL! Everyone is so supportive, I thing I would be having an even worse time with out all of your imput!  Thanks again everyone!!

I guess I am gonna wait til sunday to jump back on the wagon full force. I am still dealing with too much stress. Trying to work things out with the bf… if he should leave or not.. I kicked him out on weds but he never actually left yet…

Here I go again. I didnt get in any excersize… I was ripping down my cupboards, Roof is still leaking!!! I got sick of waiting for the bf to do anything so i started ripping the old moldy shit down… then it was time to go to work… oops I was late.

I already warned my boss that I might not come back after lunch, that I am probably gonna kick out the bf. I also called my dad this morning and asked him if he had any obbjections to me kicking him out… dad said ” nope, but you need to make your own decisions” I said” I know, I am just sick of his lazy ass” and Dad agreed.

At the moment the bf is putting a new door on the garage, I want him to finish the frount door to the house before I sent him sailing. Its been in for weeks and he has not shimmed it so it closes right. ( the dead bolt doesnt even line up!)

I wish I had someone to help me out with the shit he never finished at home then I would get rid of him already!!

So anyway, here is my new attempt on logging what i eat!!

I am still around… Just no time to post or track what i have been eating! I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK!! I WILL! I posted a new photo from a wedding I was at this weekend. I was drunk so Its not a very good photo! I’m in love with his guy… lol and no he is not my BF!

Tomorrow I will start tracking points and I will start getting my butt out of bed and head out for a walk or head up to the gym and get on the treadmill up there since I sold my elliptical 2 weeks ago cuz I needed money! oops.

I have healthy food I just have chose to eat junk instead!!

My eye surgery is scheduled for November 13th, hopefully they will have a opening for the Oct 23rd surgery date. I dont want to have it right before deer season!! LOL I dont hunt, just that everyone else does so no one will take me to my appointment, its 2.5 hours away and we have to spend the night.

Well here I am about to start my lifestyle change for the 2nd time now! I went to the store last night and bought a bunch of good stuff!! so I am ready to get back on track! I even bought new runnin shoes! I also bought a new bed last night too!!