Jul 24
HorribleTuesday :(
Its a horrible day, My emotions are running wild. Its that TOM again which doesnt help. I dont know what do say or do anymore with the bf, he just doesnt seem to see how some of the things he says and his actions actually hurt. He is starting to drink more and more ( like he used t0) he doesnt bother telling me where he is at. The entire time he is gone I wonder what he is up to, or what girl could possibly be around. I mean, I think I do so much for him. I freakin co-signed a loan for a 4 wheeler that I am paying half …. I just dont get any thanks.
Take tonight for example, were were watching a movie and i reached over to grab his and he said “quit” I almost started cryin that second. I just dont know what to do anymore. I KNOW i love him, i tell him all the time… i am not certain he feel the same. He was yelling at me over the phone so i hung up. he called me back and told me if i hang up one more time we are done…
| Morning Weigh In: ? | |
| Food | Points |
|---|---|
| B- Raisin Bran Raspberry Bar | 2 |
| Snack- couple ritz chips and a few hershey kisses mini cookies | 2 |
| L- Lean Cuisine Pizza | 8 |
| Snack- 100 cal pack AND TLC Bar oops | 4 |
| Supper- Brocoli and Califlower salad | 4 |
| Snack- WW ice cream bar | 2 |
| a few bits of jeremys ice cream | 4 |
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WATER √√√√ (4- 16.9 bottles so far at 5pm) Totals |
20 |
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Dang, girl. You’ll be alright. Keep your eyes open but focus on building upon your own changes. The answers will come and you will know what to do. Funny how it’s easy to give other people advice that you can’t follow yourself
Wow, I’m sorry you’re in such a rough place with your boyfriend. If your dearest friend was in a similar situation what advice would you give her?
I don’t know you & you don’t know me.. so take it for what it’s worth…. BUT, I wouldn’t for 2 minutes put up with someone treating me that poorly, disrespectfully, & unloving. Threatening to break up with you is controlling & manipulative (ABUSIVE!) He sounds like a creep. If he’s had a drinking problem in the past & you see the signs coming back- get out now b4 you put yourself through more of his crap. Find someone who treasures, values, respects & loves you back!! I’m sorry that you had such a rough day & that this may be overstepping my bounds… but something drew me to your post & I felt like I should comment. I hope I didn’t offend you!
I agree with Jynell, you should have to put up with that shit. Your bf should tell you he loves you, show you he loves you and be SUPPORTIVE!! I too don’t know your situation but I do KNOW you deserve love and compassion simply because you are a human being. Maybe you have self esteem issues and feel like you can’t do better but I am willing to bet you can… sorry but thats my $.02!! Good luck.
“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” - Eleanor Roosevelt
Be kind to yourself, respect yourself, be strong and don’t put up with that kind of behavior! You deserve better, do something about it. I agree with Jynell and Colette. - my $.02