*~JiLLy MaRie’s JouRNeY~*

Hopefully Today Will Be Better Than Yesterday.  I purposly left my post open so he could read it this morning when he checks the weather before work. Not sure if he even looked at it before he clicked on the weather. Oh well, it was worth a shot.

Woke Up late, didnt go for a walk, I had to get back to Bessemer to get the truck loaded with stuff from my grannies house so I could go to the transfer station with another load of garbage. I had quite a bit from my house too, nice of my dad for me to pay to get rid of my junk as well

It was my dad’s 58th birthday yesterday, I (the oldest in the family 23) got him a couple shirts, my brother(21) got him a shirt, and my sister (17) gave him money bc she is sick of buying him shirts that he doesnt wear! lol

Daily Point Target					24
Food				Points	Countdown
Breakfast- Kashi TLC Bar				2	22
 Lunch- Lean Cuisine Pizza				 8	 14
 Snack- laffy taffy & 100 cal pack				 1 +2	 11
 Supper-Lean Cuisine Ravioli				4Â	7Â
 Snack- 100 Cal Pack & TLC Bar				 4	3Â
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Activity Log
 Loaded up truck and unloaded truck and transfer stationÂ

Its a horrible day, My emotions are running wild. Its that TOM again which doesnt help. I dont know what do say or do anymore with the bf, he just doesnt seem to see how some of the things he says and his actions actually hurt. He is starting to drink more and more ( like he used t0) he doesnt bother telling me where he is at. The entire time he is gone I wonder what he is up to, or what girl could possibly be around. I mean, I think I do so much for him. I freakin co-signed a loan for a 4 wheeler that I am paying half …. I just dont get any thanks.

Take tonight for example, were were watching a movie and i reached over to grab his and he said “quit” I almost started cryin that second. I just dont know what to do anymore.  I KNOW i love him, i tell him all the time… i am not certain he feel the same.  He was yelling at me over the phone so i hung up. he called me back and told me if i hang up one more time we are done…