*~JiLLy MaRie’s JouRNeY~*

What’s with the whole barbie thing? I want one!! lol

I was just reading on some other people’s blogs about how you should check to see how many points you should be eating after you lose weight. It turns out that since I now weight 168.4 (down from 177) I am only allowed 23 points now instead of 24! OOOPS!

I weighed in this morning at 168.4 … down from 177 ALMOST 10 lbs gone!!!

I have been sick from the all the air conditioning.  I have not been at work since Wedsnesday! While being sick i didnt log any thing i ate or drank so lets start over from scratch today. Not sure what I should do about my flex points… if i should forget bout it for the rest of the week. ot just give my self like 15 to cover the rest of the week. I know i didnt eat HORRRRIBLE over the last 2 days, but i am sure i dipped into them. I had a few squares of pizza and ceaser salad both sunday and monfday night for supper.. as for the day i didnt eat bad.

Day 3 in Week
Morning Scale Reading: 168.4	Target: 23
Food	Points	Count
string cheese	1	23
(2)hostess 100 cal pack	3	20
lean cuisine steak & cheese panini	7	13
FF Pudding	2	11
crock pot ham and potatoes	6	5
Dilly Bar	5	0
Totals		 0
Weekly Points remaining:  15 ish
Daily Activity Log
probably nothing.. its gonna be 95 out today!

the bf didnt come home until 10 am this morning, but that time i had already talked to my mom about her and my dad helping me out if i kick the bf out. which is probably gonna happen. the only thing holding me back is we have a joint loan for a 4 wheeler, we got some extra cash with it at the time ( back in april) so the loan is for almost 9 grand… mom said she has to tell my dad… when my dad hears that he is going to go off the deep end. the bf owes me personally under $1000 which i can handle…. but its this loan that is gonna screw me over.. if he doesnt continue paying on it my credit is gonna be shot. See right now we HALF everything…. mortgage, light bill, directv, att. everything. i will surive on my own but i will not have an extra 255 bucks a month for that wheeler payment… thats where i am stuck. dad just bought a new truck (picking it up tomorrow) mom said dad is kinda stressed so i have to wait a few days til she can talk to him for his imput, so i have to bite my tounge and cant kick out the bf just yet.

I will be back on track starting today. I am changing my weight in days to Sunday since the last 2 days have been totally off track. I skipped work both Thursday and Friday. Thursday I left work cuz my guts were going crazy. I ended up going shopping later in the day with my sister. Friday I came into work and then left as soon as i got here. I eneded up going truck shopping with my dad. He didnt get the one i wanted him to, then this morning, he asked should have got the red one? I said of course, he wanted me to call my brother and ask him, and of course my brother agreed with me! Dad had a SILVER 2003 Ford F150 FX4 ( off road package) he was going to get another SILVER F150 XLT, not as many options as the one he has now… kinda plain if you ask me. I tried to talk him into the RED off road package… with black leather heated seats… a way cooler truck!

This morning i went to see my dad before work and he said ” should i get the red one?” he called and switched which truck he is getting!! How exciting!! he listened to his kids! lol  Below is the window sticker!! Im so excited, I have no reason to be, I dont even live at home anymore!

http://apps.dealerconnection.com/dealers/bessemerauto/windowsticker?vin=1FTPX14V17FB60918&modelId=47

 OK ON TO MY FOOD JOURNAL

let me say all this fiber and the hott hott weather is making my guts go wild. I didnt think I was gonna make it to work this morning!! I still feel horrible, just not in the bathroom as much.  It is also that TOM, so i started worring about TSS that toxic shock stuff!! I am such a worrier!

If anyone has a single male friend they think I should meet… I’d be more than happy to start talkin to him. lol  

It is so hott here, the humidity is at like 60% its horrible. Good thing I work in AC!! By the time i get home from work at 9pm the air has been on fora few hours at home. I shouldnt shut it off when I leave but I am cheap and dont want it to run all day.

 I might run to the hardware store at break time today and buy a couple timers for my de humidifier and for my air condtioner units.

Hopefully Today Will Be Better Than Yesterday.  I purposly left my post open so he could read it this morning when he checks the weather before work. Not sure if he even looked at it before he clicked on the weather. Oh well, it was worth a shot.

Woke Up late, didnt go for a walk, I had to get back to Bessemer to get the truck loaded with stuff from my grannies house so I could go to the transfer station with another load of garbage. I had quite a bit from my house too, nice of my dad for me to pay to get rid of my junk as well

It was my dad’s 58th birthday yesterday, I (the oldest in the family 23) got him a couple shirts, my brother(21) got him a shirt, and my sister (17) gave him money bc she is sick of buying him shirts that he doesnt wear! lol

Daily Point Target					24
Food				Points	Countdown
Breakfast- Kashi TLC Bar				2	22
 Lunch- Lean Cuisine Pizza				 8	 14
 Snack- laffy taffy & 100 cal pack				 1 +2	 11
 Supper-Lean Cuisine Ravioli				4Â	7Â
 Snack- 100 Cal Pack & TLC Bar				 4	3Â
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Day 6 in Week - Weekly DU Remaining:
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Activity Log
 Loaded up truck and unloaded truck and transfer stationÂ

Its a horrible day, My emotions are running wild. Its that TOM again which doesnt help. I dont know what do say or do anymore with the bf, he just doesnt seem to see how some of the things he says and his actions actually hurt. He is starting to drink more and more ( like he used t0) he doesnt bother telling me where he is at. The entire time he is gone I wonder what he is up to, or what girl could possibly be around. I mean, I think I do so much for him. I freakin co-signed a loan for a 4 wheeler that I am paying half …. I just dont get any thanks.

Take tonight for example, were were watching a movie and i reached over to grab his and he said “quit” I almost started cryin that second. I just dont know what to do anymore.  I KNOW i love him, i tell him all the time… i am not certain he feel the same.  He was yelling at me over the phone so i hung up. he called me back and told me if i hang up one more time we are done…

Today WILL be better than yesterday’s steak and pasta salad. I did however, have a ton of cucumbers and tomatoes. And I did finish my day with my lean cusine and 100 cal pack.

Here’s today plan:

Last night ended shitty. I hate some candy, and went over my points for the day.  Focus better on today. I got up to go for a walk alone so I could keep the faster pace going, but I ended moving the elliptical in from the garage, folding laundry and cleaning the kitchen then it was time for me to leave to go do the normal 1 hr before work de-junking of my deceased grandmothers house… I sure do get lots done in an hour!! So no walk for today since i work 9-2 & 2-10.

if i do anything good its drink all my water every day!

I’m so excited! I just talked to my dad and he has a brand new tv (still in the box) that he will give me for my work out room!! how cool is that!!

here’s today menu

Today started off great. I walked for 65 mins this morning, got some stuff done around the house, ate a kiwi and headed off to work. I bought an elliptical yesterday, hopefully it makes it into the house tonight when I am at work til 10 pm. The bf should be able to get it in the house.

I also need to kick up a notch on the walkin.. At least I have a girlfriend to go with… but she walks to slow for me. I think I am gonna go tomorrow morning by myself. I dont think she wants to walk in the weekend anyway.

I have got to find time to haul the dressers and rest of the things from my grannies house before it sells. There is soo much more to do up there, but i dont have the time. I used to go there and spend an hour each morning before work. Now I am walking every morning and dont have the extra hour to get up there. UNLESS I get up at 5am.. which is not going to happen!

Here the food i brought with me for today:

Starting Weight- 177

At 167- I will get my nails done! Met: 8/31/07

At 157- I will schedule a vacation to see my bestest friend who lives in NM!

At 147- I will buy some new clothes FINALLY!!

At 137- I will be engaged! haha jk. I want to start the new year with a new me!

Now that I have actully lost another few lbs its time to stick with it. No more falling off the wagon.

Starting tomorrow morning I will have a walking partner!! One of my friends  just moved in the across the street from me. She and I both have weight to lose… the only this is I am worried she is not going to keep up a good pace.. you know if I am walking… im WALKIN not lolly gagging along. She messed up her ankle a few weeks back and I hope its okay for her to walk on at a decent pace.

She was at the doctors yesterday and he hasn’t gained or lost since the last time she was there.. she told me SHE NEEDS TO START WALKING. so starting tomorrow, we will be walkin! I hate to say, I have to have someone to walk with, when my best friend moved out of the area I lost my walkin partner… I just may have replaced her!

So I have made up my mind. I must change the way my body appears! I hate looking at myself! Ok, enough of that. I need to go to the store and get some fruit and veggies! I have been slacking on getting them in. My stupid schedule doesnt allow for my free time to shop or have any sort of social life. The alarm went off this morning to go for a walk.. but do you think i got out of bed to do it! My excuse this time is my stomach hurt (I had to go the bathroom) and it looked like it was gonna rain.

Here’s Today’s Menu: