*~JiLLy MaRie’s JouRNeY~*

So I had good intentions on walking last night but I twisted my foot while raking in the yard!! So I ended up going to the casino…. again! I went Sunday night to! I came home with 200 bucks last night & sunday night!! thats 400 bucks! …. which is AWESOME!

 Now I have money to buy back my elliptical from the girl i sold it to ( DUMB DUMB DUMB) and i have some money for groceries too! Im so excited!

I need to learn to only buy what i need, I have been throwin lots of stuff out bc i dont get a chance to eat it. or i chose to eat something else.

i had an asian pear yesterday (apple/pear) and it was wonderful!

So I am practicing my log for a May 1st start date!

I can do this. I got off the couch at 8:10 pm and took a 30 min walk instead of heading to the fridge.

I am not new to this. But I sure feel like I am. I need some pointers again. I need some easy food plans to follow for a week or two to get back on track. I need some structure.. anyone… please help! I can and will succeed. SUMMER is on its way!

So I only gained 4 lbs while being on vacation for a whole week… not bad considering the shit I ate.

 I put my 2 weeks in at my 2nd job today!! May 9th will be my last day! I am so excited, I can enjoy the summer! and I can have LOTS AND LOTS OF time to excersize!!

Im finally under 170 lbs again!! Its been months since I have seen 169.2

The last two weeks have been filled with busy days, no walking, and lots of eating junk! The weather is nice one day so I walk 3-4 miles with the puppy, then the next day its 20 degrees and i sit inside and eat pizza. DUMB

Anyway, the puppy is getting big. OH!! I almost forgot. I bought a new car on tuesday! 2008 VW Jetta SE! I LOVE IT! I traded in my 05 ford escape for the jetta. It was time get something that gets like 30+ miles to the gallon!

 AND! I packed a healty lunch and supper today. apples, grapes, yogurt, salad with tomoates and cucumber (one for lunch and one for supper) I bought a huge bag of shredded lettuce at sams club LAST WEDS that I guess I didnt touch at all cuz pizza was way better

So I have started getting on the ball, but not quite totally jumped on the wagon…. yet! I think once the weather breaks I wont have a problem…. but until then! man oh man

and I stupidly ate pizza last night!!!!

just when i am ready to start my journey, I come down with a dandy cold!!!

Alright fellow ww’ers… i have started!! it is march 1st and i will stick to my plan! 

I CAN DO IT! 

Morning Scale
Reading: ­­­­­­­­­FORGOT!!!

I sound like a damn broken record. I always say I will start clean on the 1st of the month, then the 1st arrives and I eat something completely horrible, which throws the whole week off… so I think.

 Well the first of this coming month will be diffferent…. cuz its MARCH, we are one step closer to spring, I am so sick of the cold weather I could puke.

I need to start by getting in all my water for the day… So does sugar free kool aid work? I was cleaning out the cupboards  yesterday and i have a shit load of sugar free kool aid and crystal light…. I was thinking about mixing it and bringing in a whole gallon with me to work to stick in the fridge so i wont be tempted by the soda or coffee… what do ya think?

I stocked up on lots of oatmeal and soup at the store to get me though the next month until the weather turns so i can use the grill ( keep in mind I have 2 jobs, work 65+ hours a week so i dont have much time to cook … let alone prepare a bunch of meals to freeze.

So I applied for a job with our county’s sheriff dept as the administrative assitant to the 911 coordinator, I think my changes are pretty good. the only thing is its PART TIME.

here are a few of my goals:

1. post everyday

2. make some new friends… i need you girls!

3.  track everything i eat…. everything!!  

So I have not been watching what I eat, I have not been getting any excersize….. I have no excuses other than I am not happy. I am not happy with the way I look, I am not happy going to home to no one.  I have not been alone in years… and it is a very hard ajustment. VERY hard adjustment. If I didnt work 2 jobs, I am sure I could find the time to hang out with some friends…. or try to make some new friends since most of my pals are no longer around here.

 oh! and try living on one income when you own a house and a new vehicle and … and… and… i dont think i can afford to shit!

 I know I told you all that I sold my treadmill and elliptical!! HOW FREAKING DUMB!! the girl i sold my elliptical is moving in may, so i am going to buy it back. for this coming winter. I really dont need it in the summer cuz i can walk the doggie every morning.

 speaking of walking the doggie… its been below zero for way to long! its not even a thought to take the dog for a walk in this weather!!

Your horoscope - Today, February 7, 2008

You are a good actress when you want to be, Jill. You know how to put on the face and the charm in order to get what you want. You may find yourself manipulating a situation in order to have things go your way. Be careful of telling a little white lie that gets carried away. Before you know it, you have dug a tremendously deep hole for yourself that is impossible to get out of. Whatever you start you must be prepared to finish.
 

The year of the Earth Rat brings happiness and the energy to begin again. Fortune smiles on any new project or direction you choose. Careful planning an organization will help you build for the future. “Keep things simple” is good advice. There is some danger you will promise too much or underestimate the time and energy it takes to get things done. In many areas of your life, this is a time of relative stability. Education and research bring good luck. The more you know, the better your chances for success. Even in stressful situations, you will be able to take the lead and make things better.

Chinese Reading - Week of February 4, 2008

You can make a big impression in any area where you take the lead on Monday. Tuesday is an ideal time to make peace. The New Moon on Wednesday is preparation for an amazing and powerful year of the Rat that begins on Thursday. Set your sights high this year. Friday is lucky for romance and anything that allows you to try something new. Be patient on Saturday. Jealousy can make things complicated. Group projects are favored on Sunday. Call good friends.

Happy Tuesday everyone. Not much to say other than I have to get to the store!

1. Do you like blue cheese? Nope
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? NO.
3. Do you own a gun? Nope
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Never been to a Sonic, I don’t even think there are any around here.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Not really.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? YUK
7. Favorite Christmas movie? A CHRISTMAS STORY
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water
9. Can you do push ups? NO!
10. Why is there a missing questions here?? That was my question.
11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? MY EARRINGS
12. Favorite hobby? DOES WORKING COUNT?
13. Another missing question, whoever came up with this one can’t count!
14. Do you have A.D.D.? I WOULD HAVE TO SAY YES TO THIS ONE
15. What’s one trait you hate about yourself? THAT I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL
16. Middle name? MARIE
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment… I WANT TO BE SHOPPING, SLEEPING OR EATING. HAHA
18. Name 3 things you bought today… GAS, COFFEE AND SPECIAL K BLISS BAR
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Water, COFFEE, and, ummm water.
20. Current worry? I WONT FIND ANOTHER MAN
21. Current hate right now? THE EX BF
22. Favorite place to be? VEGAS
23. How did you bring in the New Year? IN MY BED,…. LIKE USUAL
24. Where would you like to go? VEGAS…. IN APRIL!
25. Name three people who will complete this?
26. Do you own slippers? Yup, but I never wear them.
27. What shirt are you wearing? JEANS & A HOODIE
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? No.
29. Can you whistle? Yes
30. Favorite color? PINK
31. Would you be a pirate? No, what kind of question is that?
32. What songs do you sing in the shower? Whatever’s on the radio. I always have the radio on.
33. Favorite girl’s name? OLIVIA
34. Favorite boy’s name? ?
35. What’s in your pocket right now? CELL PHONE
36. Last person that made you laugh? … HOW ABOUT CRY… THE EX
37. Best bed sheets as a child? CALIFORNIA RAISINS
38. Worst injury you’ve ever had? BROKEN ANKLE
39. Do you love where you live? WELL… NEVER BEEN ANYWERE ELSE TO LIVE.. SO YEA
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 3, LIVING ROOM, MY ROOM, AND THE BEDROOM UPSTAIRS THAT MY BROTHER USES ON THE WEEKENDS WHEN HE COMES HOME FROM COLLEGE
41. Who is your loudest friend? IM THE LOUD ONE
42. How many dogs do you have? Cats? 1 DOG, 2 CATS AND FISH
43. Does someone have a crush on you? I have NO idea, I was never good at that.
44. OK, ANOTHER one mising - someone messed this meme I think. Hmmmmm interesting, I wonder what those questions were?
45. What is your favorite book(s)? I DONT READ
46. What is your favorite candy? ANY… GLUP 
47. Favorite Sports Team? GREEN BAY PACKERS!!! BRETT FARVE IS HOTT
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? No idea, do they even play music at funerals?
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? SLEEPING! LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? I DONT WANT TO LET THE DOG OUT

So I cried myself to sleep last night cuz I was all alone… its sucks! I never thought he would actually be gone. I know it is what i wanted… or what had to be done… but it’s still hard.

 Now back to the dating life…. oh boy! I can’t wait! haha