I’m thrilled. I really am. I have had a very good WW day today, even if it’s only 4pm I even meal planned for the remainder of the week, and I’m really starting to look forward to the prospect of only having 26ish pounds to lose (*ONLY… HA). I do feel like I have more energy and like I am comfortable in my skin when I eat healthy foods and smaller portions. Why did I ever let myself get away? Note to self: Will re-read this post when thinking about a candy bar or cookie or chip.

In other news, I just started a new surgical service today (I’m finishing up medical school). I’m on the abdominal transplant surgery service now. It’s so exciting! I have to keep my pager on me at all times in case of a procurement… and when there is, I have to rush to the hospital like they do in the movies, take a limo to the executive terminal at the airport, and jet off somewhere in the country to harvest a kidney or liver How fun! I’m hoping for a call while I’m on

FOOD:
B: WW Muffin, 3
B: Medium skim cafe au lait, 2
L: Ham sandwich on LP bread, 3
L: Orange, 1
L: Unsweetened applesauce, 1
L: Delicious chocolate chip cookie made from this month’s WW magazine (will post recipe: too good to be true!), 1
L: Diet coke, 0
Giant water (4 glasses), 0
D: still to come…
RUNNING TOTAL: 11

So I have continued to eat what I when, how much I want, when I want… without any regard to points. I did, however, have a major breakthrough yesterday. I decided I was okay with being fat.
…Until I stepped on the scales that I was placing back in the bathroom after scrubbing the floor. I had flipped them over to see if there was a place to change the battery, which clearly had to be broken as the hundreds place on the scale continued to not work, displaying “77.6″ when I stepped on. And then it hit me. “It” being a little button, hidden on the bottom of the scales, that read “kg to lb.” It was on kg!!!! I did not weigh 177 as I had been guessing…. I weighed 77 kg!!!! I flipped the buttom, set the scales down, and hopped on…. 156.0. WHOA. That’s instant weight loss! Now I am remotivated to lose the weight to be at goal knowing that I’m halfway there anyhow!

I have been beating myself up though overnight about having let myself get this far off plan. Who knows, I could be at goal now if I hadn’t given up! But I’m getting back on plan today. I’m going to spend some of the afternoon after church writing a meal plan, making a points tracker, etc. I really want to get to goal!!! And I need some motivation. So for those of you still on this old site, help!

(PS: I refuse to go to the new one… I don’t like the set-up as much, and all my stuff is here!)