SugarBoom!

I posted progress pics. Nobody look at them. Roni says it’s empowering but really I just feel like the naked kid at the school assembly.

I’ve lost 7.5 and I can’t see any difference. I need to lose more weight. And get my sight checked, I thought I was looking pretty good but my oh my.

12 week body blitz:

Day 1, week 1

Exercise – 5km bike ride, 10mins doing Gillian Michaels dvd (I could only do that, she really does kick butt)

Eating – great, except for dinner. I was so tired and just got drive through.

This 30 day makeover is not going to happen to me.

Instead I’m going to throw myself under another bandwagon and started the 12 week BodyBlitz Challenge. This is just eating well and exercising for 12 weeks. I can do that.

Starting today:

Day 1, week 1

Exercise – 5km bike ride, 10mins doing Gillian Michaels dvd (I could only do that, she really does kick butt)

Eating – no crap so far J

On another note, I’m considering posting in progress pics…too scared. Not too sure yet.

It’s been two weeks since I began taking Saint John’s Wort and I’m pleased to report that a new Sugarboom is typing this today. I thought I’d just list all the changes I’ve seen in myself.

1.      Getting angry and taking it out on Big B and the kids? Did I really used to do that? Wow! Because the new me is calm and hasn’t been cranky let alone raging in two weeks now. Big B spent all week saying how nice the week has been.

2.      Eating up to two family blocks of chocolate a day? I can’t believe I used to do that. I have almost NO desire to eat chocolate. Yesterday I bought a family block to eat, ate two rows and then threw the rest in the bin…I was bored with it. Last Monday after 4 days of not thinking about or eating chocolate I bought a family block as a treat…I finished it off today, five days after buying it.

3.      Eating carbs till I want to chuck? Nope, although carbs are hard to control I’ve only ate extra carbs on two days this week and half. But because I’m not thinking about what I eat anymore I’ve been eating more bread with Big B and that has shown up on the scales (as in not dropping a huge amount of weight because bread makes me balloon). Although this week I’m gluten free and the scales will definitely respond.

4.      Eating everything on my plate and the kids as well? About two thirds less these days. Although some days I’m just really hungry and some days I’m doing a mini mini binge. I’m slowly listening to my body and stopping when full…again the carbs are tricky to control.

5.      Waking up every hour at night? Well Little C made that possible for me most of the week as she’s cutting a tooth but on days she slept, I slept. It feels wonderful.

6.      Feeling like a failure? Me a failure? No way, I’ve embraced my crafting with vigour and even have two future sales in the works. I’m loving my new found confidence.

7.      So tired of being around my kids? This is the biggest surprise. I just thought I was a lousy mum. Funny how these things, which you think are the result of a poor personality, are actually symptoms of deeper problems. I love hanging with my kids now, nothing is too much trouble.

I’m finally the girl Big B always knew I was, and the girl I knew I was. It feels nice to be calm all the time and I feel at last I can go on and stay on a diet.

So let’s start…day zero

Makeover tasks by Weight Online

Makeover day: 0

Tasks: Clean bathroom mirror.

Mood: Calm.

Starts AGAIN tomorrow. I can’t seem to get through day 2

Come on girl, get it together.

On another note, I went to the doctors on Thursday to talk about seeing a physiologist to help me with my eating. He asked a few questions, asked a few more and said my eating was a symptom of Post Natal Depression and advised me to take St John’s Wort. He said that after two weeks I should see a big improvement in my moods, energy levels, sleeping and eating habits. He also advised against seeing a physiologist as it wasn’t addressing the real cause of my eating which was chemical and no amount of talking or being told to buck up will fix it.

I really like my doctor, he’s professional but friendly, and I take his advice seriously.

So this is the 4^th day of taking St John’s Wort and I am sleeping better (chocolate wise there is no improvement but it is early days) which is helping my energy levels. Now if only Little C would stop crying at every little thing my anxiety levels my drop as well. Here’s hoping.

Makeover tasks by Weight Online

Makeover day: 0

Tasks: Clean bathroom mirror.

Mood: Stressed right now…please stop crying Little C.