My life is parked.  I’m at one of those phases when life is in limbo.  W-a-i-t-i-n-g on hold with that monotonous music replaying itself over and over.  I’ve been thinking about this today and I suspect that this is part of the reason my health progress appears to be on park as well. 

There are very exiting things happening but it’s all about timing ‘it’ just right.  The span of this theme is huge, it has spread into every area of my life and that of my family.  I am amazed at how life can present itself in such a repetitive pattern (literally and figuratively). 

I know that I have asked for more patience in the past.  The last 12 months have certainly fulfilled that request.  Trying situations have presented themselves continuously for the last year and I believe I’m finally beginning to look at patience in a new light.  I have this weird Zen-like outlook on it, at least for the moment.  However, one way I have dealt with this is that Ive parked my diet anytime I needed some additional patience. 

It’s almost like I am completely unable to multi-task.  Why is this?  Am I driven for comfort (i.e. food) because I feel things are out of my control?  Or is it the opposite?  Am I timing things so much that I am unable to focus on this too? 

The last couple of weeks have been a roller coaster of ups, downs, and jagged turns.  I think I’m navigating it fairly well, I’ve had my moments but on the whole I’m moving forward.  I’ve tried to focus on the positive and that has certainly helped. 

I am sorry I been non-existent lately, writing less, commenting less, and withdrawing from you and that of this community.  To be honest, writing has not been a priority, nor has my progress on healthfulness.  I am struggling to refocus myself.  Other priorities, timing things, focusing, and other navigational pulls have succumbed every inch of my mental capacity.  I know that in another month things will settle themselves out but in the interim I have let things slide - aahhh patience! 

I understand it’s natural to let some things go.  There has to be some give in life but how much?  Is sacrificing personal things that are important, like my healthy lifestyle choices, worth it?  Hmmm….. working on this.