or not to weigh?  It’s true, I’m actually pondering whether to WI tomorrow because…  Eek!  I’ve gained again and monumentally to boot.  I know I need to own it but seriously, tomorrow won’t be fair. 

My WW meetings are at noon and I have an Economic Forecast Breakfast to go to for work.  Translation the meal will be hotel fodder on a plate that is served upon placement of fat arse on chair.  It’s not even a buffet, where I could choose larger portions of the healthier stuff.  We are, as guests, subjected to whatever the hotel has on hand that morning and guaranteed it will not be nutritionally sound and/or balanced. 

In comparison, I normally have a banana & coffee or a yogurt & coffee prior to weigh in.  Never-ever do I proceed it with a full fledged feast!  Not to mention I will have the privileged opportunity to stare at my lovely plate for 3.5 hours.  Encouraging only nibbling throughout until the plate acquires a beautiful sheen, one so clear that it often poses as a mirror for hygiene purposes later.  Please let there be nothing in my teeth, so that may I smile freely with my clients, prospects, and colleagues without that awkward picking in between.

I’m also swayed by the fact that I cannot attend the entire WW meeting as I am volunteering tomorrow.  I volunteer with the local Junior Achievement chapter.  If you’re looking to get involved in your community, this is a fantastic organization!  I highly recommend working with them!  This is the part of my job that I absolutely love and I’m proud that my company supports us giving back to our community.

Back to our regularly scheduled whine… I really don’t want to go!  I know I need to go, own up to it, and use it as a tool to get back on program.  Believe it or not I’m scared that the scale will be totally out of whack with the feast and cause me to rationalize that breakfast was the guilty party and thus not my fault.  Or scared that I’ll see the high number and think:  screw it, I’m already here why not enjoy myself a little more.  Neither one of those are good scenarios. 

I want to skip but it feels sacrilegious to even think about it.  Do any of you feel this way?  I know that we’re entitled to skip or pass one WI but I’ve had a no excuses rule.  Believe it or not I’m scared the diet gurus are going to haul me off and force me to answer to the fat Gods, who of course will punish me with a large compilation of fat for not going. 

Damned if I do and damned if I don’t….. ARG!