I’m still here and missing all of you in the community.  Thank you so much for your support.  It’s been a rough week for our family but we are pulling through.  Our daughter as I said before is amazingly resilient and wonderful.  This situation is actually much harder on us at this point.  While she’s skimmed over it and is ready to face her challenges.  We’re still wanting to postpone her flight.  It’s inevitable you have to let your children go, let them test their wings at some point but holy cow is it difficult!  Especially when you see all the hidden wind currents, the predators, and the potential long term damage that may arise from it all. 

I feel like a lioness right now and I want to protect my cub at all costs.  I realize that I have to let her fend for herself but lord give me the strength to let her find her own path.  I know that there will be more strife in the future, this is not the end of this issue, it will unfortunately be an on going challenge but I have to have faith.   Faith that what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger and that at some point this too shall pass. 

I’m trying to let go of my anger, grief, and frustration for the moment and focus instead on loving, moving forward, and supporting my family through all of this as I must accept what I cannot change. 

So with that I am getting back to every day life.  I’m trying to get back on plan and putting more thought into being healthy both phsyically and mentally.  I lost 2.4 lbs at weigh in yesterday but to be honest it feels unearned.  I ate in hoards (or didn’t eat much) due to emotional grief, I haven’t worked out at all (knee injury has gotten worse) and I’ve slacked on tracking. 

It came as a complete shock that I lost weight!  I fear that it has more to due with muscle atrophy than actual fat loss.  They say muscles begin to atrophy after 48 hours, I’ve had at least 168+ hours of no exercise!  How much atrophy is that?  I am going to try to do some walking this weekend. 

Here’s to starting my weekend off the right way:  drink more water, walk over the weekend, get back on track, cut my sugar intake and to happier days ahead.