30 pounds-gotta go!

According to the forecast we are getting a “snow white Christmas”~Yeah~as long as it melts the next day. Right after Christmas (I’m talking the next day) I’m so done with Christmas, the gifts, decorations, Snow!~It can all go~I’ll be ready for Spring!! I’m doing well~OP~it’s almost like I”m sick of all the sweets…(Go figure!) Hope everyone is getting all last minute things done~I was sitting in traffic yesterday for 25 mins (I was literally right in front of the Mall!) I could have walked!! Crazy!

I’m outta school till the 3rd of next year!! Yeah for me! I have to finish shopping tomorrow~that’ll be a blast with the other millions of last minute shoppers!! haha! All is going well with my “lifestyle” (in other words~diet!) I’ve been beyond good~Can you believe it?! Maybe its because I have millions of things to do and only som many hours in a day!

Just got home from work~kids are nuts this week~only 3 more days till Winter break! Ate really good today~I’m going to cook a chicken dish for dinner tonight~one of my hubby’s favorites! The toddler is going to her Granny’s house this week~she isn’t feeling well~just a running nose, no fever, no swollen throat, appetite still intact~too bad she can’t tell me exactly what she feels like! I know she is held all day by Granny so tonight should be interesting!

I just read through Roni’s latest post~she makes me laugh! But it did make the wheels start to turn~How is it that everyone can give great advice and sound like they are “on the ball” yet we all still fall off the wagon?! My best friend called last night (our conversations always turn into talking about weight and losing it) we started talking about losing weight and “sticking with it”~I had 100 million things to say and give the advice~yet I’m still at only the 6 pounds gone mark. Now lets be real~that 6 pounds is nothing compared to every one else’s lose~and it is my fault I”ve beyond “fallen off the wagon” (more like jumped)! How do I do this to myself? Why is it so hard to get with it and stay with it longer than 24 hours?! Something I’m gonna have to look at!

The holidays have to be the hardest time to diet! It drives me nuts! I made fudge this morning~I didn’t eat any. Which is good~the whole time I just wanted too! How do you get over those “wants”? Self control helped not to eat the fudge~but what about my want to eat the fudge! Christmas cookies are on the docket for me to make today~another temptation! All I can think about is the video and pics of me that are going to be taken over the holiday~already makes me what to vomit! Its not a good feeling to be fat!

I know, I know…I haven’t posted in a while. Its just been one of those weeks! Home with the toddler and that wonderful time of the month! Just trying to get Christmas gifts under control and wrapped~this time last year I was done with my shopping and all the gifts were wrapped, sent off or under the tree. The polar opposite this year! I still have a few to buy and Very few are wrapped and none are shipped off (My brother and his family are stationed in Hawaii…) So…its just been crazy!! Trying to keep “bad” food outta my mouth~Boy is that hard! Good news or bad news, Guess how you look at it~ I haven’t gained or lost any weight~its staying the same!

I know that Christmas cookies are bad news! But! We decided this year to make the cookies and the breads with splenda instead of sugar~just to help! And let me tell you~They taste great and I weighed myself this morning and I ate a ton and no damage!

As I put this out there I wonder~Is my husband the only one who acts this way?! My husband, came from a, well lets put it this way…Mommy was at his beckon and call! He doesn’t clean up, clean the house or the laundry~which is fine, well I can deal with it! He is in retail mangement~which has really weird and bad hours. So most days its me and the baby all day~I work full-time M-F~So she goes to preschool. After work its me and her and the weekends its me and her. So, I’m overwhelmed most days with a fulltime house to run, a fulltime job and a baby to boot! He doesn’t get it~the only thing he does is got ot work~I KNOW THAT IT IS HARD WORK AND HE IS A HARDWORKER~But when he comes home~No help! So needless to say we got into this morning~ending with a door slam on his way out the door. I’ve started over this week by dieting again~hardcore! This is just not what I need! Ugh..

I warned you! This is ranting! I have a mother in law who I would say is a sweet lady. But I think she hates me! Maybe hate is a strong word~but dislikes me…Sometimes I feel like she loves me and then other times she acts like, well, like she hates me! My husband of course, who I love, says she loves me but I know better~kinda like when someone is talking to you and you know they are being fake?! It drives me nuts~I never know how to feel or act around her~I try to be myself and I just, I feel like I fail every-time I try to be nice. Very frustrating.

It is so cold here~nasty snow/sleet mix~just gross! I have a feeling my weekly weigh in isn’t going to be good~I’ve been baking today~Christmas cookies, chocolate covered pretzels, more cookies! Not good for a diet! Well, hope everyone is having a good weekend!