My Healthy Appetite

I just read my last post- ‘I’ll see what the damage is tomorrow’ ! Well.. that ‘yesterday’ was quite a while back!

I’m running out of time to reach my goal- really. I want to get back to being my more svelt self before I turn 30.. I turn 29 NEXT month. I’m not sure what happened that I didn’t return.. maybe I got bored.. actually I think it was my TOM- always puts me off! can’t say I’m not persistant tho

The few ‘odd’ times that I happen to get curious and weigh myself I just can’t believe how much I weigh. I weigh more than I ever have before- and I should stop saying it because then I weigh even more the next time! I have a new job that keeps me very active and I eat fairly healthy so it really bugs.

I’m back! Knowing this is my last chance means something too. I want to say goodbye belly- and hello (in preperation for) healthy baby- my husband and I plan to have in the next couple of years..

So.. here’s the plan for tomorrow!

… + lots of water. So good to use that tool again! Thanks Ron!

If I continue like this I could be reaching my target weight in 9 months

Thats exciting! I visit my home town and family next at Christmas, I’ll be close to my target weight by then, they will get a little surprise from the chubby bride they saw last! I can ask for clothes for Christmas too lol.

*Christmas wish (with legs!)- a Goal is a dream/wish with ‘legs’ (action)

Why is it that life can be uneventful and a little bit dreary and then out of the blue you get the excitement for a whole month worth wrapped up in a single day?

This morning I had the doctors, they told me last week when I called in about my blood test results that they ‘weren’t good’ and that they didn’t know the word in English for it but that they wanted me to come in.

My Thyroid is over acting. I asked if this was why I had been having stomach pains (my original complaint) they weren’t sure but they said that it could be why I feel tired and gain weight..!! I was prescribed something that is going to increase my metabolism. OH MY GOSH! It never even crossed my mind that there could be some other unknown reason that my weight was… weighing me down so much (especially when I’m being so good!!) SIGH Normal Thyrod rates log at between 0,2-5 whatever they measure them by, mine cam back at 12.. I’m pretty excited to see how I feel after I’ve started taking the meds.

(I wonder what ‘adult’ tastes like..)

Then I went shopping.. big time shopping, I got my meats and fruit and veg and treats.. learned that even animals have their weight issues, and then I got (hoorah!) a new bike. My last one got half inched a couple of months ago, you just can’t really live in Copenhagen without a bike! Ok, my new bike is elegant, dark green, old school design with the big fem curve on, and a brown leather seat and getting a neat wicker basket on front.. It’s a much slimmer and lighter bike, and nicer to ride than the other awol one.. So anyway! Now for the really fun stuff.. on way home with new bike, husband dear realizes he’s dropped the receipt and we go back to look, knowing the small area that it could only have gone. We were searching pretty thorough when dh calls me and I think hes found the receipt but noo he has found his old bike! that was stolen just a month before mine was (yeah we lock them in our basement now.) It was crazy we both just stood and stared for a while, he said to me ‘what should I do?’ I was like..’ its your bike!’ It felt like a dream and we weird taking back what was actually ours, especially since there was a chain locking the wheel to the frame and we had to wheel it back on one wheel. DH thought when it was pinched that he’d forgotten to lock it but it was quite clear that he had locked it from the destroyed original wheel lock that only half is now still fixed to the bike :S It was a little trauma for him when he discovered it had been pinched (one I now relate to) but it was equally as disturbing in a way to find it again. I am pretty soft when it comes to theft, I feel sorry for the poor soul that feels the need so urgent that their best way to earn something is to steal, but now I feel it should never be tolerated, its just unbelievably rude.

So thats my fun for today. I hope you had a more peaceful one health and happyness.

Am I the only one who doesn’t want to move? I checked it out the new place and like this better.. but not if I’m all alone :S

I was at my friends yesterday and was quite easily persuaded to have a go on the wii fitness.. Hula hooping, tight rope walking.. oh my gosh it’s fun! We ‘played’ on it for about an hour, thats an hour of moving around that we would have had as much fun sitting watching a film or something else. I even jogged with it and would again! (I don’t do jogging) I was quite surprised to reach I think it was ‘Instructor level’? on yoga, apparently I am quite well centred and have pretty good balance, needless to say I want a wii fitness now ( if I lived on the ground floor!) despite the damage I’ve seen that can be done with them! I’ve come to the conclusion that pets, partners and children should best be kept out of the room while using wii hand controls.

What impresses me most with is how it logs everything, time spent working out, your weight, goal weight, ibm..

I must try to remember each day to appreciate the wonderful blessing of good health! And to do more to ease others suffering who are in need of it. I was ill yesterday with diarrhea and sickness. I am a very lousy ill! I was ill from the moment I got up in the morning (about 8am) and started to feel improvement just at around midnight. All day I only ate a small roll in the morning (which was not a good idea) and then the rest of the day I tried to drink as much fluids as I could, I managed a little glass of milk and not even a whole cup of camomile tea with some honey in. I tried to eat some natural bio yogurt with banana mashed in but two spoons of it told me that it was too heavy for my stomach to handle.

Being ill or in pain is the hardest thing, I realize just how impatient I am, and I pray while I’m ill, asking whhhyy, whats the point of this!.. but really I know that it is a powerful ‘wake-up’ call to me to move my butt and do the things that I can do, and stop taking my generally good health for granted. I am amazed at what I learned about nutrition and what is in food that has benefits and gives the system balance, I really should take care and watch what I eat, its not something I think soo much about- as you can’t see whats all going on in the inside as much.

(I feel so much better today but I am eating very gently) So chicken noodle soup for me today! (which I really quite fancy, its been a while.)

And I do indeed have legs!

It was mentioned yesterday at church that a goal is nothing more than a dream until it is written down. I don’t completely agree with that but who am I to argue with studies that have proven the number of goals met that have been written and the dreams that remain dreams which were not?

I have a goal. I want to tone and build my strength as I lose weight. I want to get into a routine of regular exercise, and I want to see a difference by next month. This is a challenge for me! I am breaking myself in easy, today I am starting with a 10 min workout. and then building it up, seeing when I feel comfortable repeating the routine over again… I do love exercising, its just a leap for me as its been so long! Here goes..

I have been a busy little bee.. I’m rather pleased with the fruits of my labors. For a start I reclaimed a room in our house that had just gotten so out of hand that we ignored it.. for ages. Then yesterday I got about it and I was surprised how quickly I got it back together again. I have however got a looaad of laundry to catch up on which will take at least a week. My other superb move forward was in putting together my wedding album. I ashamedly hadn’t begun one.. you know it takes a while to get everything together after the event! It was nice to pull things together on that and to make it reflect how much we value one another, so nice. I feel so good getting things in order, makes me feel so much clearer and breath easier.. ahh. I cleared out my wardrobe this morning and am just about to start on my desk and craft stuff. I have found a fantastic new approach to help prevent me munching, when ever i think of snacking I divert my attention to what else I could be doing that burns calories rather than adding them, and that I want done which will make me happy to have done rather than eating more than I need that will not make me feel I’ve accomplished much but to disappoint myself. I’m surprised with the things that I find myself doing instead.. I like the way its going.

last night as I’m falling asleep DH puts his arm around me and then all of a sudden says sounding shocked ‘your lumps are gone!’ first of all those ‘lumps’ are my hips- love handles or what I call my ‘haunches’ We can forgive a sweet Dane for calling them ‘lumps’ after all their language is very blunt and basic- the direct translation in danish for what we call our ‘gums’ is ‘tooth meat’.. Anyway, I’m no where near as upset as my DH is about the vanishing of these ‘lumps’ And I’m absolutely thrilled that they are dispersing so fast. I can hardly believe how it has made that much of a difference so fast and makes me think how long I have gone putting up with things as the were when I could have lost 5lbs so much sooner if I wanted to do it enough.

This weekend we are taking off to the parents summer house, Its so nice out there and a complete change in scenery from the city. There’s no internet connection there, somehow that makes me feel like I’m even further away. Fine for a weekend.. hope the sun keeps out, or I’ll just have to lay in the sauna for a day..!

I know that things that are tough in growing have purpose and that it defies the purpose a bit to suggest changing the past, but here’s some of what I would say to young girl me.

1. You’re not dumb, don’t listen to them, you have mild dyslexia. Don’t keep everything inside- speak out about things.
2. Stop comparing yourself to others, the greatest gift is that you are unique. If you don’t be yourself around people you’ll never know what it feels like to be loved for who you are.
3. Have fun!!
4. The best way to have good friends is to be one.
5. You are lovely, things are not all you’re fault, people have to take responsibility for their own actions, you have nothing to feel guilty about. learn to love more and you will find it brings its own reward, just as great as being loved!
6. Things will get better. You can trust me.