Sarahs 40lb Journey

In 30 minutes I will head to WW for weigh in. I was going to ditch all together but there is always that chance that my 2 week pig out will last 3 weeks and then the damage will be so much worse! My stomach is in knots but I’m going to suck it up and start fresh! I’m even wearing jeans instead of my usual exercise pants so I’ll weigh a little higher and get that extra boost I will need next week. Does that make sense? Probably not but my thinking is out of whack sometimes. I’ll report the bad news later!

So last night I was still suffering from my insatiable appetite problem. I had eaten dinner, even had snuck a couple french fries at my mom’s house and I was STILL hungry!!! We went to Wal-Mart and my mom bought some of those crystal light flavor packs for her bottled water - - - and it hit me……I am THIRSTY!!!! It’s been 100 degrees + here in central cali and my constant abuse of diet coke, diet wild cherry pepsi or my favorite, diet pepsi with a splash of real wild cherry pepsi is not quite quenching my thirst. I’m not a huge fan of water so I am trying the lipton iced tea flavor packs in my bottled water and hopefully I can wean myself soon and start drinking it straight up. I sooo hope this is the answer to my recent eating problem!!! I’m debating on whether to face the music at weigh in tomorrow or hydrate for a good week first to help rid me of these extra lbs I know I am retaining….

So yesterday’s food plan didn’t quite work out. My Turkey Sandwich at my best friends house turned into a turkey sandwich with a small slice of left over cold stone birthday cake. At the movies I forgot my snacks so I was just planning on not having anything - when we got to the ticket window my BFF decided she would pay for the tickets so I asked if she wanted anything at the snack bar on me. She wanted popcorn - damn! At this point that thing happened in my head where I say - okay, today is a total loss. We had the popcorn (I’m sure I ate more than she did). Last night I had to go to Costco to pick up a b-day gift for my niece (by the way I saved like $30! Costco is sooo worth it!). Anyway, my kids were starving by this time so I got them pizza at the food court and don’t you know I joined them.
So what now? I’m not going to beat myself up, today is a new day. My eating has sucked since last week so today is my fresh start!

This is what I have needed —- time! Time to plan meals, time to cook meals, time to exercise, time to blog!!! It’s finally summer vaca and the hustle and bustle are gone for the next few months, fruit is in season, it’s too hot to pig out, and playing outside and swimming will be regular occurances! Last year at this time I was just begining my weight loss journey and I was sooo excited and fired up. I am hoping and praying I can get back there again. On the agenda today - stocking up on good stuff at the grocery store and searching for a bathing suit!!

Well my name is on the dreaded “may need support” list and isn’t that the truth - I may need support! I haven’t been blogging lately, even on my blog to lose page I’ve sort of been slacking. I’m going through stuff. It’s been hard leaving a job I had for 3 years and now the reason I left has changed so it’s hard to see that go on. My new job while great is taking some adjusting. I’m having a hard time with my 4 year old and her behavior. My eating fluxuates between starting to get out of control and being okay. I’ve stopped exercising and really would just rather take a nap in my free time. I probably sound depressed and maybe I am a little. School is out after next week so I’ll have a little break and I hope that helps reprioritize everything.
Off to bed now!

So I was thinking - hmm it’s hot out… I shouldn’t have an appetite, I’m busy I shouldn’t have time to eat but damn, I can’t stop eating. So yes people once again PMS has snuck up on me. You would think I would learn - dumb ass…it’s every 28 days! I don’t get it, how can I always forget about it???

I’m in limbo. I have been posting over here though…

My road trip was not the best experience just well…for reasons I won’t go into and foodwise it wasn’t great either. My two days included…
- a HUGE hamburger
- Fries
- a HUGE freaking burrito
- Rice
-Chips and Salsa
- Croissant, Blueberry muffin, cinnamon roll - all for breakfast (oh, they were tiny)!
- Road Trip snacks including: turkey jerky, funyons, chex mix
- small burrito and taco
- 4 slices of pizza.
Okay, I ate all that CRAP in two days! I definitely eat under stress/unhappiness and I had all that going on during this trip. It should have been fun but stuff went on. Okay, I’m dusting myself off and moving along!

In a little over an hour I’m leaving for a road trip with my best-est friend to LA. She is going to get a new tatoo for her b-day. We’ll be eating out all weekend so I’m praying for the best! I have done so well this past week I don’t want to ruin it!!
See ya’ll Monday!